this is one of the first poems I ever wrote hope you guys like it.

these thoughts are circling in my head like a tornado. the only thing that can keep me sane is the thought of you. I want sleep I want to go one day without the thought of you. but I myself know its impossible.When will I stop lieing to myself saying everything will be okay?? im tired of seeing the dark side of the room no matter how far I try to reach  I cant touch the light of day no matter how loud I scream noone can hear me. Are you even worth fighting for anymore? If I left would you notice my abstince or would you just ignore me? I pick up my pencil I wanted to draw art on myself, who knew drawing could feel so good? im drawing you a picture without description dont worry though it has color. I should stop but it feels amazing. Im letting go because Im not strong enough to keep holding on this is just another battle ive lost to you.