All it took was one look and my heart was sinking, I was running out of breath. I wanted to be just like you. The first kiss was heaven. I was running out of time in a few minutes they would be back. and I would have to pretend that I don't love you. I have to act like your voice doest make me wanna smile. All you did was looked at me. To you it just looks like we're holding hands to me we are flying on a cloud. You mean everything to me I would die just so you could live. Everyone tells me its wrong to love you, but in my mind age is an age and I know for a fact that i love you and I love my girls as well. When they are around I cant smile or anything I cant hold your hand or kiss you. But when the day comes that it isnt illegal **** straight you will be mine.

The first 5 months were heaven it was great you were the only person i payed attention to you were my bestfriend the only person I wanted to hang out with. When i kissed you all i saw was fireworks they were sparks in your eyes and i will never forget the way your hand fit in mine i will never forget our meaningless conversations. 8 months into it i wanted to hang out with my friends you said
No! I didnt want to wear camo anymore i wanted to wear black you said no i wated to wear makeup you said no. i wanted to my hair you said no!.  i wanted to be a normal teen girl and be happy you said no i said i wanted to cut you said i will leave you i said its over you said not unless i say so. i said i wanted to die you said you dont have the strength i said im giving up you said fine with me i was loyal you cheated. i wanted love instead found lust. i said i was ugly you hit me. we argued my parents blamed me. you spreaded rumors and lies and i said its not true. I slowly gave up and left now i feel better bigger and stronger know i want you to leav my life but you probably never will.

Im secretly in love, No one can know. When you tell me you love me make sure no one is around. Don't hold my hand when its daylight. Don't kiss him where everyone can see. I keep my feeling on how I feel about you on the inside, because I know that if I let it out it will cause a lot of trouble. When you look at me I feel like I'm going to die. When you tell me you love me I wonder If you really do mean it. I hate it when I'm about to go to sleep I roll over where you would be laying and your not there. I miss you so much when I cant see you. your so beautiful. I cant keep you off of my mind for nothing. I love when you call me beautiful or say you love me. I love the way you hold my hand in yours. I love the way you touch your lips to mine. I love how you don't care about others opinions.  I know you've been hurt, but I can make you forget. When I imagine our future together I see us growing old together. I'm going to be an awesome mom to our kids I promise. I cant wait till the day I can walk down the street with you holding your hand. I cant wait till the day when another girl looks at you and I can say this guy is mine. I cant wait till I spend the rest of my life with you. but for now its a secret.

Narcissist, narcissist,
you're a fiend for yourself.
Take another picture,
there's still room on the shelf.

Smile at the camera
while you scoff at the people,
you hedonistic *******,
you're a snake 'neath a steeple.

"Mirror, mirror, on the wall,
won't you lie to me again?
Tell me what I want to hear,
or I'll kick my own face in."

So, strut your stuff,
you golden turkey,
you untouched gem
with a soul so murky.

how can you expect me to be okay? I cant smile I cant laugh it seems impossible to be happy or to smile I feel like my heart is breaking on the inside. I seen you around in the hallways all the time, but I would've never imagined you were hurting. know Ive heard you killed yourself tied a rope around your neck. Ive known you for so many years who would've known your funeral is today but I don't want to go but I know I should. youve taught me so much Ive thought about suicide a lot and I cant help but to think that could be me. Its hard to sleep because before I go to sleep  I imagine you hanging from that rope. I want to take something to help the pain. a million people are there for me but i feel alone I have numerous answers I know that i was never there for you kassidy but know i want to be there cause you were facing things I couldnt probably imagine. R.I.P Kassidy Michele King fly high baby girl you will always and forever be in my heart

she was screaming for help on the inside, but smiling out the outside she was like a flower dying but she still looked like she was shining bright she couldnt keep living so she left with a smile on her face. now noone knows how you feel you cant sleep because you have flashbacks even though you didnt see it. you imagine it. you hardly noticed her. but you had conversations with her and know your hurt because of her and you feel like you dont know how to get through it. you put your head down because you dont want to see the world you dont want to see people being happy because you know thats its only going to hurt you a million people say that theyre there but no matter what im always going to feel alone. because noone understands the thoughts that are continuosly going through my head

she sits in the back of the class she never raises her hand to comment she always silence so u assume she is okay she doesnt want people to know so she fakes a smile she cuts herself she doesnt want to eat she wants to give up her feelings are drowning underwater just a few days she was hppy now today shes gone gone but never forgotten you will be missed by the freshman class of 2019 dearly fly hight kassidy god recieved another beautiful angel...