ive spent my whole life trying to do what you want and trying to make you happy well its no longer about you its about me im going to be happy with him even if it kills you. karma is a ******* all the years ive cried myself to sleep cause of all the things youve called me and years of abuse youll get what you deserve

and over time the hurt may never go away sometimes you gotta deal with the pain sometimes you got to ignore the memories or at least try i had to walk away because i was tired of the pain and the hurt and the crying and the abuse no one will ever realize what we had because they dont understand it they dont see it. you were the first person i have ever loved and without a doubt you werent the last because i know someday i will find that love again i just dont know when or maby i already have hell who knows what the future holds life is ****** up you just got to keep your cool in the good and the bad you gotta learn how to be okay even if your not. i cant sit here and get jealous or even mad because i know that i had you first i know that i let you go and i know that i made the right choice i loved you but you always had your mind on someone else as you were falling for her you were telling me you loved me as you were flirting with her you were holding my hand, but thats okay because in the end i found someoen who made it okay i found someone thats going to make me smile instead of cry

there comes a time when you have to let go no matter how much it hurts… sometimes you have to walk away from the pain thats causeing you to cry at night sometimes you have to learn the truth about people no matter what the truth may be there comes a time in life when you have to quit playing pretend and you have to face reality even though it hurts you have to realize who you are and whats the best choice for you i know it may hurt  but you gotta learn that sometimes in life you dont always get the best and you have to settle for what you got there comes a time you have to focus on whats causing you pain and learning how to get away from it instead of continuing to let it hurt you no matter how bad it breaks your heart you gotta learn how to focus on getting where your going my dream when i was 6 isnt the same now that im 15 life isnt the same as it was when i was a little girl i thought i could handle anything i didnt know the truth know i do and sometimes the truth ***** but you have to learn how to keep your head up… and you gotta learn that its okay to cry. theres people in your life that sometimes theyll stay to wipe your tears away they’ll stay because they care but you have to get rid of the people that are making you cry everday you gotta walk away from the drama thats causing you heartache and hurt. no matter what happens in my future i know its going to be okay what ever may happen i know its going to be alright because at this point i can handle anything because look at where i am and what ive been through.. your supposed to lve your life how you want it not how other people want. because in the end its about what makes you happy. you gotta learn its not always pancakes and waffles sometimes its ****** i just hope in the end i make the right choice and whatever the future holds i hope i accomplish what i wanna accomplish because in the end i want to make a mark on this world so they know i was here at one point

Your dying to be heard, but noone will listen so here you are stuck….. With no where to go or nothing to do. your life is in your bedroom. Your whole life feels like a ****** up story without a description who knew life would be so blair. I wish I were one of those popular people that always had something to do or somewhere to go.I wish I could be the pretty girl that everyone payed attention to. Or everyone wanted to be around. I go to the bathroom getting ready to take a bath and all i can notice as i look down is all off my fat… I hate my face and image I long to look like serena or even blair to be te girl every guy longs for and every girl wants to be I hate how everyone I date tells me Im pretty maby they just say that because they want me to feel like I belong but the problem is I dont belong. Sometimes you have to wake up and face reality. maby your never ging to be as pretty as that girl who guys drool over or as skinny as the bulimic. maby your not going to be as happy as that girl taht just got execepted into harvard. But if you are that girl let me tell you something your one lucky person. Your something I will never be. Maby I will never be that girl. But I dream of it. I want to wear stylish clothes to school and do my makeup and stuff but i cant I dont want to put myself out there. I hate attention from strangers. maby one day I will be on the front of the new york times magazine maby i will be the next serena van der woodsen until then i have to wait and see what comes my way

I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall
And I've been laying here praying, praying she won't call
It's just another call from home
And you'll get it and be gone
And I'll be crying
And I'll be begging you, baby
Beg you not to leave
But I'll be left here waiting
With my Heart on my sleeve
Oh, for the next time we'll be here
Seems like a million years
And I think I'm dying
What do I have to do to make you see
She can't love you like me?
Why don't you stay
I'm down on my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely
Don't I give you what you need
When she calls you to go
There is one thing you should know
We don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay
You keep telling me, baby
There will come a time
When you will leave her arms
And forever be in mine
But I don't think that's the truth
And I don't like being used and I'm tired of waiting
It's too much pain to have to bear
To love a man you have to share
Why don't you stay
I'm down on my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely
Don't I give you what you need
When she calls you to go
There is one thing you should know
We don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay
I can't take it any longer
But my will is getting stronger
And I think I know just what I have to do
I can't waste another minute
After all that I've put in it
I've given you my best
Why does she get the best of you
So next time you find you wanna leave her bed for mine
Why don't you stay
I'm up off my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely
You can't give me what I need
When she begs you not to go
There is one thing you should know
I don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay,

I know she's beautiful you don't have to keep telling me, but why are you telling me Im your girlfriend. You don't understand how that makes me feel its jealousy and hatred for myself mixed. I hate myself Im sorry I cant be more like her. No matter how much I try her memory will always be in the back of your mind. Your never going to forget are you? Im trying to mend your broken heart but you wont allow me to help you. I want you to just focus on me, but you cant forget her. When you say you love me do u mean it? If your just going to play games please exit out of my life you don't understand how I feel your always trying to make me mad and say its hot but its annoying and i will end up leaving.............Please just love me like your supposed to

I know I've put you threw hell and Im sorry I broke my promise. I never meant to do what I did.. But i swore to you it would never happen again. you leave me your going to be taking my heart with you. I wanna spend the rest of my life with you and its worth it. You understand how it feels to have your heart broken and smashed and torn and tattered you know how bad it hurts and you promised me you'd never hurt me. Please just stay by my side you are my guardian angel and i don't want that taken. I never thought Id ever fall in love ever again then you came along with your beautiful blue eyes i love you so much.  As he was breaking my heart you were behind me picking up the pieces. you've always been there for me you brought out the true me just don't let go