I’ve been stabbed, excuse me while I bleed out.
Tricked again.
Cheated.
When will you learn it hurts? You obviously didn’t learn when it happened to you.
This is why I want to be emotionless. To not be drowning in this confusion, and pool of feelings.
I’d rather be floating in a sea of nothingness.
Lifeless.
Empty.
Alone.
What’s safer than that?
At least when I’m by myself- I know where I stand.

To not let people invest in me
That’s what my motto’s been.
To not invest in people,
I’m leaving at summer’s end.

Why then did I invest in you?
What made me think that you were different?
This is the same old song again.
I’m probably just ignorant.

I give my all and everything.
I make the time to prioritize,
And without fail- imbalance
Try watching with my eyes.

I know that you’re busy,
And I know that you’re stressed.
There’s no reason that you shouldn’t be.
The clock’s counting down, time’s pressed.

Our time together is short too,
I simply wish to be relevant in your life.
The petals keep on falling… Love me,
Love me not, they cut like a knife.

I’m sorry that being around me is so draining.
I should elaborate.
Being around me is
Expensive.
Not in the sense that I will cost you a lot of money,
at least
not on purpose.
In economics we learned about costs and benefits.
What is the price of happiness?
It does have a price.
Economics says so.
How much enjoyment do I bring?
What does it outweigh?
The bad seems to always be more prominent
than the good.
I wish that I could have a second chance.
I want to make it better.
I’m sorry that to you I’m just a
Cost.

Sit down at your desk,
take a deep breath. You’re about
to create me anew.  

What parts of me are
worth keeping, and what parts aren’t.
What are you thinking?

Are pretty girls just
petite blondes. The ones that laugh
at all of your jokes?

I want my kind of
beautiful to be your kind
of beautiful, love.

Unfinished words,

unfinished thoughts,

unfinished sentences,  they linger in the air.

"What if…” What if, what? If you wanted me you would be here,
if you needed me you would call.
I can’t be something for you if you want nothing.
I guess that makes me nothing at all.