So thoughtful am I sometimes I can't even hear you.
When your words are running into my eyes  my mind can only see your lips move.
The sound drowned out by the emissions from the stars
And  all the things I wonder of
And all the half healed scars

Your golden era presence
Streaming around your eden planet
Like wisps of spider Web
And Spanish moss
Blowing in the wind and catching light
In shades of purple
And demensional rainbows
All cross hairs and cross hatching.
Reaching toward me
And I want to touch your light
But I'm scared my shadows will absorb it.
But maybe that's what's meant to be.

Come with me into fantasy
Those thoughts we think
But never speak
And how they move our innards
And unfurl our minds .

And how they pass so quickly
All we desire runs and hides.

Insecure to show my ventricles
And Would it be to close to home
To call you into my dream
And show to you more than Flesh and bone.

Oh it's invigorating to destroy the vessel
And with hold the oxygen
And disrupt the flesh.

How intense and complete it feels
To feel only the impending idea
That perhaps it's all to much

And you survive
And your breathing slows.

And you feel peace you've never known

You're  five years in the making.
Prison has done you well.
Same boy I always knew.
Just kind of hard to tell.
I couldn't look away from you.
Your eyes just so familiar.
Strange to think my best friend
Is in prison, a killer.
And I would never judge you boy
My friend ship has always been yours.
And the ties we have in this life
Go beyond all the static and noise.

Something spiritual about you
And the thing that you did.
The person you killed
My own shame that was hid.
And i don't think I ever loved him.
Not like I cared about you.
My friend held far above
The boy who was never true.
Or fair.
The boy who abused.
And so I feel no sorrow for his slumber.
But my heart is wrenching for your soul.
My friend those years ago.
Aging in enslavement
For the taking of a life
That was better off taken.