Stoke me minted breath.
I want your condensation
Build up on my walls
To soon to say I miss you
But I will.
Because I do.
Linger with me here,
A thousing gazes
A thousand stars
A thousanded guesses
About who we are.
And still just ideas.

I dont fear my meaning,
Even if it's obscure.
I just want to try.

Water banks above me
Glistening in the sun
Here I'm below the shallows
Burrowing in the mud
My lungs can't breath the water
So I'm gasping clenched.
Water banks above me
You'd think I'd be drenched
But the water all around me
Is not the swimming kind
It's all the **** pollen
That's accumulated
In my mind
See I'm slowly suffocating
With the stress induced
From being alive
And having to choose.

Movements chaos
Even the ocean tides
And I'm trying to live
But it's hard to survive
And I try to keep mine
And give when I can
But it's hard to find another
With a clean hand.
I feel like every ones red
Bright shades like blood
And it makes me remember I'm burrowed in mud.

Pointless existence
caught some where between
wanting to be
and ceasing to exist.

Each day seems more like
An imagining.
Who am i,
but these the thoughts
And restless energy.

Days when I am tired
Surrendering to death
So sleep indefinite.

I would come back better
Cleaner than before.
Be a new imagining

Yet who am i,
These thoughts,
This restless energy.

I expend at the plight of my desire
Edging toward meaningful attatchments.  
And this is what I make.
Caught in between
Pointlessness
And purpose.

Yet who am I
These thoughts
Or this restless energy.

Bipolar opposites attract
You fill in where  I lack
I take your hand to have and hold
Eternity no growing old.

You give me everything I hate
I had all of what you ate
You dried up and I am soaked
We were serious when we joked.

Break my lungs no ex in hale
You for the win me for the fail

Love you for what I am not
I do not want what I have got.

Cast me from the heavens

And allow me to rise before you in
Fury and flames

To a thousand heights beyond
What you had ever planned.

You know me as your fallen child
Before you know me as your king

When evolution takes me
Far from suffering

And I become the Phoenix
Rising from the sea

Cast me down from heaven
And allow me to be .

Shatter conclusion
Mind revolution
New thought
Revelation
Movement
Then swaying.
How long am i staying.

Cast me from heaven
I will fall to the ground
Bury myself
And vibrate with sound.
Out of the dirt and into the sky
Over again
And never die.

Spoken like a true martyr  
Suffering taught fully and for most
This life is not for you.

But for those who degrade

Innocence and youth
Beyond compare.

I suffered for the sins of my ancestors
For those mistakes made in mind.  

At the hands of my gaurdians
I was splayed before the Satan
In my own mother
I was the blood shed and hate
Receptical.
I was the hang man dangling
I was the beaten fool.
For my whole existence at one certain point.
I was the center of distress for this world.
At what cost to my own growth
Did I sacrifice my self
For the wrath of intolerance.
I would always let you walk on me
For I had no other choice.
But you were the one whose will
My existence ebbed on.
And you were the one who gave your only begotten daughter
To the **** with In you.
I stand tall.
I am lucifer
And then I am jesus christ.

Lust danced fire and flames
Broke the emerald lock.
Serpent danced up the chains
Broke through sedimented rock.


Spectrum after spectrum
Personality shift.

Here I am and there you drift

If things are intertwined,
Where am I.

I hope it's next to you.
I want to be the closest strand
In and all around you.

Lust danced me to the end of love
And wide and shining
I saw your face
If things are intertwined
I wonder where  is my place?

And if it's layered
And organized
This next to that.
I want to be layer in with you
Right hand at your back.

I would always be the failure
And you could be the win
I could be the outside edge
And you could be with in.
I can move in shades of vigor
Strength and stretch and pride
You can move further inner
Show me what mind hides.

If things are organized
Then where am i?