When right becomes wrong,
when light turns to dark,
when my mind can't restart,
this is what I fear.
This disease eats away at me,
and makes it hard to see,
it blinds me from reality,
and leaves me to die.
I feel it seeping through my pores,
and into my blood stream.
It strangles my heart and lungs,
consumes my mind like a bad dream.
It slithers under my skin,
like barbwire snakes.
I fight to make it go away,
but it takes much more than that.
Sometimes I think I'm better off gone,
better off dead,
why stay alive?
This disease will never let me go,
it will always hold me down.
Sometimes I think it would be easier,
to be underground,
than here.
This disease is stronger than me,
and will never let me be.
But for now,
I live,
till the day comes,
that I'm strong enough to pull the trigger.
Facing the demon is easy to do,
but pulling the trigger is easier.
Copyright Barry Pietrantonio