When you are born you are on your back till you gain strength  to walk on your own then after that you on your own till you need a shoulder  to cry on but are you looked at as a weak human  or a person  who has patches  in there life and tries to look as normal  as possible  am i really  going  to  let this disease  take over or will I just  get up and show it that I will die on my two feet and not in a hospital  bed ????

A year and a half ago I was good a year and a half ago I was fine a year and a half ago I was in my prime a year and a half ago I was not thinking about dying but I guess everything change when a disease barge threw the door of your life and you start thinking will I live or die but I hiding the pain in my eyes as I look back at my life before all this I can just sit back and cry before the needle before the pain **** I guess after dialysis nothing will be the same