Glayz Welch

Glayz Welch Jul 2013

Why doesn't anybody love me?
Why doesn't anybody care?
Why doesn't anybody acknowledge me?
Even when I'm sitting right there
I bawl my eyes out every night
Wishing that I could make it alright
I thought he cared
I thought she could share
I thought everybody knew I was there
There's a boy
At my school
He says I'm fat, ugly, and he's very cruel
I hate myself
Nobody cares though
I loved him
He didn't loved me
He told me he was in love
With another girl
Who is pretty, skinny and out of this world
I hate being a lonely little girl

I'm having a really bad day.

Glayz Welch Jul 2013

Boys

Boys are the best
Sometimes the worst
Everyone says they need 'em, but really they don't
Some really need them, like me
To keep me safe and tell me they love me
Tell me I'm pretty
And keep me in high spirits
Boys are the best
No they're the worst...
They're decent

Glayz Welch Jul 2013

Dear Little Elias

Dear little Elias,
You're still not born into this wonderful world
We wish upon you all the strength to get through
The hard parts of life
It's okay to sometimes just cry
We hope you can be honest
Through all the hardships
Life will bring to you
And have the integrity
To get through it too
We hope you do have kindness
No doubt that you always will
We want you to be trustworthy
So we can be honest too
We wish the best of happiness
We know you will always be loved
Keep faith in our heavenly Father
For he has blessed your family with you
We want you to have endurance
And for you to be respected and give respect too
We care here little Elias
HWAM is your biggest fam
We pray that you will grow up Wise
So that you can pick the choice that is right
We wish that all of these will show: Wisdom, Trustworthy, Integrity, Happiness, Kindness, Honesty, Endurance, Respect, Strength, Love, and Faith
I love that you have parents who are truly great

This is for my pregnant councilor who is having a baby boy

Glayz Welch Jul 2013

Sometimes

Sometimes we don't understand
The difference from fantasy and reality
Until your wake up call is done
Be aware of all your actions
Some you may regret, some you may not
Be cautious when you decide
How to share your thoughts
Love yourself
Accept your love
In a moment in time
You may find the one

My favorite quote is :
"Never regret anything because at one time it was exactly what you wanted"

Glayz Welch Jul 2013

Friends

Keep good friends by your side
Leave bad friends way behind
Support each other
For today you are together
But tomorrow you may be far apart
Cherish your friendships
Some may fade
But they will never go away
Don't be sad
As the saying goes
*"It's better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all"

Glayz Welch Jul 2013

Pain

In the moon and the sky
You take your life, so I risk mine
They're all so worried
They try to talk to me
I do not answer
But they can see
I'm in pain
Not sure exactly what I need
I hate myself they all hate me
After a while
I realize
They do care about me
It's okay to just grieve

I wrote this in residential treatment

Glayz Welch Jul 2013

I'm sick...

I'm sick of all the looks I get
Like they know I'm a treatment kid
Like they think I'm a *******
I'm sick of being underestimated
Being told I can't do it
I'm sick of being here
Not able to get out...trapped
I'm sick of being told what to do or what to wear
Truth is, I really don't care
I'm sick of being judged when, don't you know?, I'm my biggest critic
I'm sick of all those pretty girls who think they're "so cool"
Truth is, STONERS RULE
I'm sick of having a ****** up life
Can't get rid of it, isn't that nice?
I'm sick of being nice
What's the point, you make me wanna cry
I'm sick of feeling, seeing, or hearing

I'm turning 15 soon
It's a sight I thought I never wanted to see
But look I'm here
I may have emotions
I may sometimes wanna die
The list could go on and on
But it's a waste of precious time
I value my life, I may even love it
I may be stuck here
I may even have dark days
But I will NEVER risk my life again
I've made it through mine and other's horrible ways

I wrote this when I was in residential treatment.