Today is the worst day
It started alright, no, maybe, okay
My daddy called yesterday
He said he loved me
He said he's just way to busy
Well isn't that the story of my life!
I apologized for things I didn't even do
All he said was a simple Thank you
He said he would call
Today of all days
Sitting here waiting
Hating my life
I just wish that people I miss had more time
Sitting in this homeless shelter
Wanting to just already die

Today is the worst day
It started alright, no, maybe, okay
My daddy called yesterday
He said he loved me
He said he's just way to busy
Well isn't that the story of my life!
I apologized for things I didn't even do
All he said was a simple Thank you
He said he would call
Today of all days
Sitting here waiting
Hating my life
I just wish that people I miss had more time
Sitting in this homeless shelter
Wanting to just already die

Everyone says I should love myself
But they don't realize this life I call hell
I'm supposedly part of West Medford's ghetto
I don't think of it that way
I've lived in it my whole life
I didn't even have the thought to ever cry
People would tell me not to be weak
Not to cry, keep an eye open when you sleep
My grandpa died and everything went down
I hated my life
I learned how to cry
And my daddy saw
How bad I wanted to die
We didn't do anything
Until I was 13
Now I love my life, most of the time
I think about my Great Gramma and I have those bad thought
She died while I was in treatment
I still can't believe it
I didn't talk to her before she died
I feel so bad for all the lies
I just lay there and cut and cry
I'm trying so hard
I even stopped cutting
But it's getting bad when I don't have anyone with me!

There is this little girl
She's living in this big world feeling all alone
Most say she's fine
But there are those few who realize her
That she's all alone
They want to know who
Who would put her in this danger?
Who would let this happen?
They must be a bad person
I look at myself now and realize
It's really is my fault she left
It's my fault my dad isn't here now
And I should just get used to it
Some people may be on the contrary, but I believe this
It's all my fault...
I'm just a *******...

So there are these kids
At the shelter where I live
One is older than me and so cute
He isn't like a little kid
Well enough about those people
Who remind me of my siblings
More about my sister
Who is my little Darth Vader
Her name is Vayda and she's my baby girl
For her I would give the entire world
She's in the best family
Well duh I'm her big sis
But I'm scared that I will fail her
For I cannot stop all this ****
I smoke, I drink, hell I even fight
But I don't want her to resort to that
I'm afraid that she just might..
I do this 'cause I've done it for so long
I cannot stop, but one day it will **** me
That's how I know it is wrong...

My vision is blurred
Like i'm going blind
You aren't around
And i'm wondering why...
Why did you leave me?
I thought you truly cared
I thought you would stay with me
I thought you were always there
If I had a chance, I would jump for joy
To get you back, hopefully not as a little boy
You need to own up and say that you didn't care
I still wear your clothes
But how would you know?
That I really loved you
There are many fishes
Out there in the big blue sea
I can find one that is better for me
So ******* and all your little friends
I'll find better than you in the end

The cops may say they're the good guys,
But they don't even know
All the **** we go through
Like all those punches we throw

The cops came and got me last night
Brought me to the psych ward
Gave me a hallucination
Bruised my hands, of course

I struggled and I fought
I didn't wanna go
Get sent back to treatment
Nobody cares about me though