I've been slapped, hit, and kicked by life
Several times over
Until I kneeled in surrender
Exhausted, defeated, empty

I don't even recognize myself anymore
Bruised and battered, Sore and bleeding
In pain, in so much pain...
the depths of which I cannot comprehend anymore

You tell me I must stand on my own
That I should fight back
That I can walk away
If only I wanted to

I do, I really do want to be free of this hell I'm in
It's just that...It's been like this for as long as I could remember
I am frightened that I may not know how
I am terrified to fail, and suffer the repercussions

I look in the mirror and see
Haunted, sad eyes, filled with the past
Never hoping for a better tomorrow
A prisoner in my own skin

I have nothing to offer you, no promises to be made
This is me...imperfect, damaged, maybe beyond redemption
But please don't give up on me, please be patient with me
You're my little piece of perfect in my messy life

I pray for strength, I pray for courage
I pray to God to make all the pain go away
But I think, that I may be able to endure
As long as I have you with me.

The music was so loud that night
And it overwhelmed all of our senses
Minds unable to think
And hearts unable to feel
Anything but what the music was
Telling us to experience
Together

The pain in his voice
Calling us back to
His memories and life
Tales of heartbreak and horror
Triumph and love
We are no longer ourselves
And it is good

Escaping from our bodies
Entering another's reality
So much less painful
Than our own battles
It keeps us sane
Gives us strength
Allows us to carry on living, for another dawn

I said I'd love you until death due us part
But I swear I've been dying every day
since the first time I saw you and I
still love you more than a punk show
or a cigarette; a warm hazelnut coffee
or a fresh tattoo.

I said I'd write about you until my fingers break
But I swear I don't have to
Your voice is my favorite poem
It sounds like beauty
And tastes like pain

There came upon this mornings sunrise,
An unexpected smile,
Someone so distant,
Yet so near,
I could hardly open my eyes,
In dreams and dreams and dreams,
I had prayed a million times,
Best wishes and my sympathy,
For you my little child,
Remove this blackness from your heart,
And sit in stillness for awhile,
Remember the voice inside your head,
And smile.



Long ago I lost her,
Today she seems she's found,
A simple kind of life,
Unbound.

We are all heads floating in a tunnel,
For split seconds on ends, our shadows fit perfectly with the holes,
In the walls.

Let us cheer to the sweet decay in
our childish dreams.
Turn up the volume and carry on
Stuttering, sulking, seducing,
Snarking or just swim against the current with all of the baggage of the
Morning still crackling through your eyes.

Hold onto the rails, and dance across the nightmare of endless consumption
Sandwiches upon sandwiches within
Sandwiches.

We are all shadows in motion
To the gods of gravity and brevity
Our lives on hold a midst the commotion of gasoline tanks whirring
And, the forthcoming shortage of ambition.

The war is marching on
But who's got time for war,
In between the decadence of these slime-y streets?

Who's got time for war,
When you've got to put the kids
To sleep?

My head pounds, her words like sticks of dynamite.
we broke off the fantasy,
frustration would become my savior, or would anxiety
angst continue to become my true self?

Pain has never felt so embracing, as to want to kiss it.
leaving behind the dreams that meant so much to me
rain falls from the sky
whispering sweet lullabies to our children.

the frequent reality, staying in place
satisfied by the seconds
leaving my eyes as they are
my mind in peace.