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Forever i am gratefull and forever i will be
for happiness is just around the corner......if i only give it up and let go

Whatever lies ahead......

Today seems to turn out really good.....
"NOTHING EVER LASTS FOREVER????"
WELL WE WILL HAVE TO JUST WAIT AND SEE

It wasnt how it should have been
Did i not knew to go unseen
It wasnt that my heart was made
To brake unto shattered pieces laid
A thousand tears that ran my cheek
When all i wanted was to be free
Instead unheard the prayer i praid
Instead ten thousand days to face

It wasnt that my self should die
It wasnt in the truth subside
To take away my sense of worth
My self love stolen from myself
Making light of my despair
Taken into count no where
Never letting me to go
Slowly poisoning my soul

Time was flowing each day through
The strength to come in paid due
Had i not knew what heartache was
Would happiness elude me too?

No
For it was the path
The journey fate
For me to travel
To undertake
To discover whom i had to be
The truest essence of purity
Like a diamond facing heavy weight
To shine in worth reciprocate
It was the way to face rebirth
It gave me more of Love's worth
Keeping me for ever more

And in the moment
Let me say
I forgive you
And bare no blame
For what Life deemed
Has given me
A glimpse of peace
Eternally
For every hole that my soul enfolds
Is letting light shine from without
Finding that growth takes place
When cracked the ground
From underneath the leaf takes shape
And freedom reigns within change
What once had died
Bore
Life again

Seldom times
Often
.

"Death is the embrace into "loves" eternal presence?"

What became of Life
Where did i loose the way
How does it seem
That by words i am failed

Where had time gone
And does it mean
I may stay

I didnt know my own strength
till i had no other way
All the words i had spoken
All i still wanted to say
Life only allows so much time
When the sands run out
Life turns on a dime
And you find your chance
Had passed you by
When still i wanted to say goodbye

I didnt know my own strength
When i find myself alone
And youve gone from here
To our Eternal home
And the silence only now
Keeps the words in my heart
When i should have said
What i should have from the start
Yet we are now taken apart
First from Life ,then in Death
Till eternity waits to mend
I didnt know my own strength

You showed me
I didnt know my own strength

Whom will walk beside me now
Now that you are gone
How will i be able to hear
Whilst you used to sing our song
Now that i am alone
The days are all so empty
The nights seems all too long
I used to cherish them both
But silence  now only lingers on

How i used to cherish spring
Yet winter is all im left with now
A lonely coldness in my soul
Now that you have gone
And will i ever find the courage
To pick myself up
And carry on
When it was you whom gave me
The strength to live a life unknown

May you remember me
Where in Eternity
You are now
And may you never forget
That i needed you so desperately
And may you hear
My thoughts so clear
How much i loved you
Ever more
May every breath whisper love
From me on mortal shore
And may you know
That now you are home
And will forever be

My eternal memory

My sweet memory

I used to be happy
Life had not been that bad
But lately the feeling
Turned out to not last
I used to be happy
Saw the silver lining
Of thunderstorms in clouds
now passed
Yes i used to be happy
Nowadays but just down dragged

I used to have light
Now the darkness reign free
Rolling waves washing inside
and ebb of me
I used tò have light
Saw nothing but the sun
Now im locked in a blackness
Not even the moon can undone
Yes i used to have light
Now im shaded from the sun

What else can i loose
What was taken from me
What does it all matter
What once was is gone
Will i ever be free

I just dont care anymore
After all
really.......

«What if Life doesnt work ou5,where would the Truth lie and if the lie Can become the "TRUTH«

I promise i will "Ð83«

Am i??
I hope my answer would be ...

What is happiness?
Where does itcom3 from?