They won't ever understand.

well didn't you like the rain!
wasn't it soothing?
when it fell straight into your fancy receptacle,
cooling your blood
as it ran through those luxurious tubes
that surround your body?

well isn't it soft,
when a pretty girl lets you bottom out
in her bed
and on her couch?

well wasn't the rain so lovely,
when November couldn't be everything you wanted,
you had to reschedule that brunch with Bernice--
and you wrote a little poem
about how nice the rain is
in the fall.

well i don't like the rain at all!

it's wet and it's cold
when you can't sleep
and you can't get a job.

and i tried
a lot harder
than you did.

Darna Trainer
makes me feel
Like a Fwanche

I'm not sure why
You got black and blue eyes
Mine stayed pink
I stayed long enough to think

Cause I don't want to cut
I mean I'm pretty sharp but
If I stay here in a puddle maybe I can recollect

So I live like a puddle
All my thoughts stay muddled
But one day I'll get up
I'll be standing like the bell

In layer zero of hell
I'm a hero if I make it out of bed,

You thought

Mirror man was convincing
When he told me to die
He gave such good reasons
He had such sure eyes

Solid and angry
And black in the middle
Cute but he's evil, with razors
In his mind.

Razors pointed the wrong way
But just right.

Something like the antichrist.

But it left me confused.
I just don't see a reason to.

i was born the guy that should really hate you
that should really just feel nothing but ire and apathy
but my phone regurgitates the memory of you
and i'm reminded
that cute little voice i use
is how you spoke to your cat
the one that died in Oregon while I wasted your time

I'm sorry

I'm sorry I wasted your time
my eyes are wet

You are a world full of beauty
There is so much to you
I just want to exalt your name
And the fact that you exist

Keep going, don't hang on to needless negativity
Please power on, in case you're doing anything but
Because you really pack a punch--
You're so full of it!

Darling don't hang on
To clown trinkets,
And let a mad druggist ***** clunker
Go hurling off into the night

When we connect
We break apart

Here's to healing...
There's to art.

YOLO
doesn't apply to me
because I
am a cat,
and cats live nine times.

(the poem is over)

YOU *******' *****,
look at you!
reading poetry

*****

That's right miss Turner
Who has been hanging on all this time...

She gets it.

What they thought was dead
Will surely come back to life
In an instant of fire
In an instant of life

What they thought was dead isn't dead at all
What they never expected was about to fall

Grave is as graves do
I made this
To make you

Such serious desperate pleading words
Surely backed by something robust, important and
Respectable !

I think he loves you
But I cannot say for sure
I wouldn't trust him
Have you seen the things he's done?

Oh but it's all your fault
You, who set the ball to spin
I think he hates you
What an awful, awful sin!

you're a ******* though,
and you know it
but you carry on with this *******
because you just can't take it anymore,
and you just think that's really cool,
or something...

i guess--

yeah.
different points of your life are so **** awkward,
but you live to pierce the atmosphere with your ruby glow
or ride through the night on your burrito-bought CR-V
you pray for fame but you won't receive it if you don't work for it
you just have to get through this time
oh, what a *******

in your clothes,
life is different
i can leave my body
and pay yours a visit
what i can't see
around your eyes
tears at me,
an Obscurity.

but without Me,
you'd be a void
at very least,
i'd be annoyed...
an envelope,
signed and sealed
empathy
is it a thing
to avoid?

but all the way,
you start to realize
starts to fray
starts to unrealize
false apart
you'll never get there
nerve on a nothing
nothing on--
the nerve!

so would you like to dance with me
sweet adeline, sweet mary sue?
sweet jessica and macy lou?
and emily and rachel too?
penelope and hot winona
soft-skinned grace
and fine fiona?
but never stacy
sorry, love
avert your eyes & kiss the sun

she rolls around her rock
her radiation cup runneth over
waterfalls, lush green, freshly
ground
sand...

wet clay

with all this activity
her core should tighten
she's eating leaves
with electron transport chains

but round and round she goes
and she has forgotten
the morning dew
the joy of life
the laughter of children
toothless people
confident speech
the push and pull
the way to say
i love you

Stroking ego, don't disturb me
I'll cry real hard if you ever hurt me

Let's cut a deal as straight as we can afford:
I've heard about Kochs and Madoffs, Fords
And I'll scream real loud if you even scrape me,
But let's not lie
You can always escape me

And it's actually a pretty ...scary thought
The kind of thing that I think about lots
Cutting around my
Bloated ego
Trying to see the world
Correctly

As I siphon out this sick self-pity
And spit it in the grass for you,
I'm trying hard to see you normal
That **** don't hold up in board rooms

I look over at her around 2 am and there are flames.

She stirred. She's constantly having nightmares fueled by past abuses
Traumas beyond any pain I ever knew...

But so much of his cardiac tissue has petrified...
The jagged edges cut into the soft parts as it tries to beat-- *******

I can't feel anything anymore.

The flames.

They're licking everything up
How does she just sleep through them?
Negating everything as the plasma shreds its chemical structure
Pulling apart molecules and sending them off into the sky

Licking my eyeballs, licking her face
Licking what it means to me, combusting this bed

I fill my rocky heart with as much guilt as I can muster, trying to contain these flames with an emotion
Up to my eyes, you know...
Trying to tell myself I'll put out that fire for good.

My eyes just sort of leak.
I watch the bedroom burn
My nerves pop and crackle
In the growing inferno

I become a marionette of the dancing fire
Confused by my own flickering actions
And sick selfish dialogue

Laying still, I watch my life get mocked by twitching shadows
And I can make the flames go away but they're there

Autumn leaves sort of half-crunch in my ears
I never really absorbed the full colors of a show

Never really had the drive to show them what it was all about
I was always waiting for you to tell me

And that's why
The world was made for her
With things left for me to do

We used to sing together,
But now it's just you.

You are walking ******* ambrosia with nectar running through your veins
And I am an American God

**** me up into your ******
Fill me with fear and hatred and disgust til I burst like a bubble inside you
Filling you with laughter and *** and every last drop of innocence

Then I will eat you from the inside out
And you will toss your head back and laugh
And you will seize with anger and pain
And you will be forced to transmutate
And you will feel emotions you should not have ever felt

And you will give birth
To a new son

i should be happy. i am.

like the black crayon that smeared into your yellow
will you remember next time
to use the yellow one first?

Reek is squirming again
I can’t get him off my back
He clobbers himself in the head with
Sticks made out of bacon

I swear my life would be normal
If the world would just let me
I talk to myself all day
And **** your autumn moon,

It’s a little distant from me now
As I settle into this luxury deathsack it’s weird,
I find I’m still ****

What a load of crap

We worship beans like it's Bobody's business, and
Beans are my hero

Beans are fibrous
With protein and tasting
Them makes me ready

Beans over-acheive
They did not have to be so
Healthy and ****

I would pour beans where
Fate led me to decant them
Anywhere, Bridget

I'd love a salad
Made of just beans and more beans

I'd eat it with beans.

don't you play
"mess is mine"
by Vance Joy
and think of me
and expect the tear
that's running down
your left cheek
to mean nothing to me.

don't strike me like lightning
and expect me not
to worship you like a god

in my heart

Take me apart
But don't keep me
On your windowsill

Push me from that ledge
And I'll dissolve into the dirt

Take a couple songs
But don't act like it's a thing
I knew that I was wrong
That's why I'm not selling t shirts

It is illegal to love me
It is wrong that you care
You can squirm and you can struggle
But I'm just
Very simply
Not
There.

No, I don't love you
No, I don't want you
I just can't trust you
No, I don't love you.

Yeah I'm too cold now
I don't even know how
I'll give her the low down
I'll make her explode now

No I don't want you
I can't even trust you
You gotta go now
You gotta blow now

Just want to love you
The way that my hands do
I don't even know why
Just stare at the **** sky

These days, my veins choke on the poison
My crumbling lips could never afford you
These obtuse vestiges want recognition
But their arms just flail about
Not even feeling for a turnaround
Just twitching there, like a crushed bug

How very sad for him

But my relentless core
Was spun around yours
To the point where your face
Is graffitied over Polaris
And every sunrise pour a splash of you
Into my morning coffee

No, not today
But maybe eventually
You could be my girl.

Cheshire cat, Cheshire cat
Your smile lights up these nights
Send down a long golden braid
And pull me up
To the sunshine island
Where two lovers can shine

They roll over in the morning,
Then slither through town like snakes
Tongues flicking to sniff out pools of sun

Then on the couch in the afternoon,
Roll over
And again on the counter--
He cooks the way she always wanted
Her muscles wrapped tight around bone,
Muscles like porcelain,
She is very smooth

She tucks him into bed
(She is very snug)
And kisses him once more, slowly
Before sleeping
Cheshire cat love, a secret
He is no longer keeping

oh, you let me down
this is as far as i can go
oh, you make me sad
what a sad world you've created

oh, you hurt my stomach
you're one with my pain
i just need a scapegoat
i don't need a name

Keep those wrinkled eyes in soft
And keep them friendly with the moment
Perhaps we're more acquainted
Than we can really say we're friends...

I know you've got a lot to chew on
Don't you lie, you saw it coming
Please try hard, don't be so bitter
Please just try to enjoy life

Don't look back too often, quitter
Don't you want a better life?

Spin that rabbit hole to the periphery,
It is surely not too late for eudaimonia.

Make secondary that shameful stutter of yours,
Bring the pillar of the thing to the front and rest on it.

Don't focus on gaining humility, that's a paradox
More to the point is not overextending yourself
Not making this more complicated than it has to be...

Deleterious rabbit, run your course and leave me loose and ready!
Because I...
Am on time!
And I don't know what you're talking about.

I heard someone crying but I was a ghost.

I sat and watched them.

I couldn't understand what it was about.

The trees standing around
Were just as eerie at night
As in broad daylight

Pieces of me falling off:
Flaking skin
Bits of bone
Nervous slop

I wonder what it's all about

...

The moon cuts into your sky like a vanilla flavored razor
Wrapping your ******* blanket of warm sugar saliva and blood
Like a balmy breeze,
Blowing over a dead body
That wants feeling but can't rejuvenate

But hold a babe to this sugar moon at the right angle--
A saccharine disc atop such decadent confections,
Or a drug wafer melting in the glass of Bacchus
Who was engaged in vibrant conversation with my own friend Apollo
All of these pleasantries
Rest assured, were meant to be

...

I'm sorry but your tears reminded me of my own
When they ran over scars from the moon nobody could understand
And I cried because I'm not a millionaire
& I'm scared
I'm scared
Because moon tears
Don't exist

"your bloom will only reach so far"
yeah, that's what the warden'd have you think
you may just find from your guitar
entire universes spring

you'll only speak so many tongues
you'll only be one human song
how small you are indeed, my friend
but there are songs that never end

where surely definition stops--
but wait, that's flowing through your mind
i'm wearing out this lyrical style!
i wonder what else i could find...

but settle down you ******* madman
the passers by, they'll start to stare
oh, settle down you worry wart
and don't you know i never cared

Jayson, Jayson
Jayson knows
Oh Jayson he knows what I mean
He'll beat his drum all the way 'Om
something here should rhyme with 'mean'

But Matt, you really should consider
Crystallizing something, bitter
Tastes the moment when you ramble
Ramble, ramble
Ramble, ramble.

I have seen the sunlight go stale
You have to work your way around it
And keep it as alive as you can

Stale yellow sunlight
Death in the daytime
Break me on your knee
And burn my skin ******* pale.

I see it coming
They want to take ME
and paint ME black.

I see it coming
That guy watching me,
Eyeing me up
Do you see him!?

He thinks he's so intelligent

He thinks he's ready to take me down

Find him, you know what's happening to me is wrong

Rather than have them raise me up just to lie about me and make me out to be something I'm not,
Stop that from happening and let me be known for who I am.

There is the way it really is,
And there is the way I see that you could spin it
I just feel vulnerable
No one is fully innocent but my life is void of heavy sins like that
I'm pathetic but I am not an evil person

Ripples give to swells
Amongst the cracks and splinters
There is the ghost of a liquid
Wanting to seize the jagged mass
And to woo him with watery magic

Bring me to my knees, sweet Jupiter
And coax this lonely Ganymede into your golden sunlight
Once again

I'd rather spend my life wondering
Than to wound you in good conscience
Because they act like it's cool
Say it's just another broken rule

To pick it apart... is good!
Because you will see
The truth will rest on bare bedrock
The responsibility rests on the body you haul around
Driving that car places you know you shouldn't **** around

And we will end your vacation quickly,
Pull you in close and tell you how we really feel,
O Times
Because you are a *******,
Never meant to rule the world with plastic hands.

Don't imbibe something a
****** idiot swallows angrily...

Drink it slowly, and
Dive into something articulate

//

Make a real intentional effort.

Make art. Rise into existence.

//

This universe reaches North,
Expanding reality.

they say it's best to live with no regrets--
i haven't much to give you yet.
just give me time to straighten out
i ****** the turn,
i've much to learn

i'm driving into your sunset--
it's yours because you wear it well
floating intricacies into the Deep
like you tried to teach me
but i couldn't see

i've evolved into the consequent man

you can tell by the way
the orange light
touches my eyes

whether you're coming back or not, old friend
i will make you mine.

walking round the
street picking
up dead rats
with his feet

he was
the night rat
killer

gotta keep em off the streets
of Mumbai

Something in me melts with Richard Feynman everytime,
I wanna get excited about life.

Flowers shoot up when the man speaks about physics,
A new puppy is born whenever he finds a good analogy.

<3

you don't have to **** it
to have a good time

it's been a while since 1984
i watched them pull the twisted wreck from the atlantic,
the virus we once called your heart--
it's been some time since the mainframe went rogue,
tore it apart

it's been a while since 1984
now, there are needles in my eyes
so i turn and run from the truth
blinding myself, running from

the sands of time make Ares blush:
the sands of Earth are green and lush,
i remind myself
as chains pull up

it was the missing part of a war machine
it was the instance where you could, and did
it was the fatal blow that killed a king,
the pipe dream of some hipster kid.

Touch me and you'll know me
Where and when you touch me
Do you feel what's steady
And what's softer, giving way?

Do you feel what's present
And have you daftly learned to trust it?
How will you ever know, my love

What I really was?

So wedding rings have melted,
Or else they're just like roses.
And vouchers of commitment
Need I say another word?

But solid as my bones are here--
A skeletal opinion.
Not that it really matters
But is this a sacred stance?

She laughed and tossed her hair aside
And speaking to an alien
She said, "This man interesting
But never learned to dance."

There's fruit floating in your red wine
Bobbing up and down
Drifting around
Swimming through this town

One of them is me
A single mango cube
Soaking in the deep red drug
Waiting to be plucked and cleaved
Beneath your lipstick lips,
By teeth

The palm trees sing a soothing song
They cannot see our skeletons
They cannot see our pasts, the breeze
It pushes us along with ease

So nevermind this silly thing
I'm dipping out and diving in
Vacation calls, vacation calls
I'm never coming back.

i love the way you think,
i just wanna *** inside you.

oh i have it,
i'm just not giving it
oh, i heard you
i'm just not listening
oh, i'm a star
but i'm just not glistening
i've got a lot of love
for the kids who ***** and hiss.

There are things we can write
With your coccyx as the nib,
Picking you up like a pen by your ribs
Pick you right up and they'll fill you with ink
And give you ample time to think