I have become obsessed
with living in this world of dreams
don't ever let me leave
and keep me awake
this is where I am suppose to be
Dreams will die
if I keep falling asleep.

Here my heart beats.
Here I am truly alive.
I never want to leave.

Come walk with me.
It's a gift, you see.
A gift only some receive.

Half the world is awake.
Half the world is asleep.

Legs of skin so smooth
thin, and small *****
Thighs of muscles firm
sleek cheeks the perfect size
not fat and not white
speckled with hair.
hips of balance
never protruding
ideal for the lovers hands
belly firm and skin free of  
more dreaded speckled hair
steady hourglass torso
******* that perk
shoulders and bisceps
that cannot be pinched
arms soft and frail
for gentle strokes.
A smile of teeth, not gum
A face small and round.
Lips that know how
to kiss.

Like her.
or her.
or even her.

I am just waiting for something to happen.
that will save me from the demon.
he has followed me
for more then five years time
you may as well be my shadow.
Amidst my times of joy
he will strike
and consume me.
weak and broken,
I am just waiting for something to happen.
Over and over again.
When will the demon leave me be?

Alone with you in a small dark space
I don't know who you were,
I only knew you were shaking with fear,
hiding from everyone
because you thought you were a monster

I wrapped my arms around your torso
I wrapped my arms around a  stranger
Feeling your rapid heart beat against my chest
Sending the rhythm throughout my body
We stood there, unmoving
Just holding each other, so close.
It was beautiful.

Your rhythm began to calm
as my hands gently stroked your back
as my voice whispered a hush
and I sang to you ever so softly
with a voice only angels have
I tamed your heart.

I only wish to feel that again
with my head against your chest
I never saw you before in my life
You only exist in that dream
and you were beautiful.

Who were you,
Why did I see you,
I don't even know your name
and the memory of your face is fading
Your heart felt so real
Do you exist in my world?
Or will I onlyremember
those moments together,
I was alone with you
in a cold dark space.
And it was beautiful.

I am flying
far away from the surface
where the monster can grab me
I am walking on water
I am just like Peter.
I fell.

But I did trust you.
What did I  do to lose control?
To crash?
I broke my wing.
The monsters  won.
Again I wait to be rescued.

But I don't know
Who I'm waiting for,
or why,
or if I should.