You spin my thoughts cursive,
speaking to me through blurred lyrics.
Your bright eyes sink into me
each nightfall when the notes echo.
You are my muse,
chosen by fate.
I wish to know your name,
in a way others fail.
I would give you the heavens
if I dared speak about this fire inside.
The bravery I once possessed
falters and shakes in your presence,
even when you called me
the prodigy.
More than just a chemical romance,
I wish you saw the yellow card
I hold in my heart for you.

The silence that fills
every crack within me,
threatening to suffocate me
decimate me &
never elucidate.
Your voice,
now just a memory,
is over there
and not here.
Time is precious
as the blazing sun,
and your warmth,
once radiant,
is now vacant
and blanketed
in nothing.
You’re not here,
and you’re gone
just like the radio
sung in a
discordant
melancholy
that only
grief knows.

The timing of life
is relative.
Its appearance
beams with youth
despite the years.
Distance between
two
stretched for years,
weaving through the cosmos
until the day it caught fire.
Time passes differently
here,
but connection
is igniting
and is inviting.
Time is young
old
beautiful
new.
It bends and flows
naturally,
finding itself
in the right place
at the right hour
for the right feeling.

Writing about love
follows the known path;
oh, how sublime love is,
how everlasting–
how ethereal.
Love shines
with a halo,
enveloping the lovers
with its sensual wings.

Ich denke an dich
und die grelle Nacht
hat keine Stimme mehr.
Alles was ich höre,
kann ich nix mehr.
Die Farben der Nacht
leuchten nicht so wie
deine Augen,
Alles was ich will—
Alles ist Liebe.

Deine Rührung
sehne ich mich nach.
Der Mo-ment
wann alles kl-ingt,
Warte ich noch.
Ich weiß, was ich sehe,
was ich fühle,
aber mein Wunsch
ist mein Schicksal.
Doch du könntest es auch sein.

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He was a soul
crafted by Jupiter:
limitless,
wild,
and always  
searching.

I am a soul
crafted by Mars:
driven,
unforgiving,
and unyielding.

When you shunned him
for discovering
our existence
our meaning
our joys
our sorrows,
I watched
for years
and years,
a fire inside
my blazing chest.

Now, I hold the scythe
in my hand,
untouched by the flames.
I hold your fate in my hands
and watch the flames
consume you
as you await your retribution.

today marks
day 903

903 days
since you’ve left.

the first day I met you
I was tiny, barely a
fragment in this universe.
You held me
and shouted,
“She has my eyes!”

days collected together
just like a dusty library.
the memories we had together
are now ink, written and
unwritten.

how can I fit
8,035 days of admiring
your soul
learning your ways
into 78,083 pages?

yet I hope
that I got it right.
the way your heart
adored the small creatures
that purred
and deferred
your pain.

the way you
radiated joy
every time
you heard thunder
echo in the distance,
lightning splitting the sky.

the way you
carried the 10 of Wands
for days upon years
and released
finally…
this lifetime.

here I hope
that one day,
all of our days
will be held
in the hands of those
that were made
from the same
stars as us.