A letter to a distant friend
I don't know if I'll see you again
Sometimes I think of you now and then
The good times way back when
I didn't think it would end
Now life begins
And you seem so far away
But you'll be in my heart everyday
And our memories will never fade

Lord forgive me if I don't love my life enough
The last few years after high school have been so tough
Before high school I didn't think so but I had it made
All I had to do is come home with good grades
I remember a lot but after the drinks and drugs the memories fade
Day after day I wish I could just fly away
But I have to stay and make this money to make sure my family is straight
I don't want to let them down
It's hard to hide my frowns
Nobody really cares but you God
Nobody loves me like you God
After high school it's been so hard
Things will get easier, so I thought
But in this reality everything gets harder
Looking back on my mistakes knowing I should've been smarter
Show me your light God
The light that gets me up in the morning that shines through my blinds and opens up my eyes to see that I'm here for a reason and I shouldn't always cry because while life goes on my strength builds inside

Life isn't perfect and neither are you
Don't worry about what I'm going through
I'll be fine while your still wondering
Too intimidated to speak to me so your left pondering
Making statements and assuming
It's your life that needs grooming
I'm already ahead of you within my mind state
Just because our problems are different doesn't mean we can't relate
Everybody judges everyone it's an inevitable defeat
If you don't work you don't eat
Even if you have to walk with your own feet
It's levels to this ****
Too legit to quit
If the status don't fit you must acquit a suffering culture whose lost morals and gained vultures of dishonesty selfie roller coasters the world is falling over cliches about beauty and how it's made if you want call a doctor to make a change parts of you rearranged cause of your inner pain something has to change.

Now I lay in bed lovelorn
Cause my heart has been torn
Maybe not TORN, but a little bruised
Ever since I kissed you, I've had the blues
Your lips were as soft as I always imagined
Thought I'd forget by now, but I haven't
Then I wonder if you think about it too
If your heart cries out for me, the way mine cries out for you
I wonder if you think about my smile, and the way I laugh at your jokes
The way I say hello to you, our shared cigarette smoke
The way my lips felt against yours
The way you felt me bra-less, if you wanted to take off my clothes
Didn't think you would oblige me, in such a passionate kiss
I was "out of whack" cause you kissed me back and now my heart's in bliss

Then I bring myself back to the reality
Where I need to face the truth
You wanna stay friends, but I still need PROOF!
I wanna know if you REALLY meant that!
If there REALLY is NO hope
In making you mine
I'll wait we got time
To tell me that I don't have to sit around and mope
That maybe one day you'd give us a try
Make me your girl, make you my guy
But I've decided to let destiny decide
That way I don't have to cry
Cause you'll never know, things could change
One day your feelings could get rearranged
One day you could look at me in a different way
One night I might be over, and you'd tell me to stay

But now I lay in bed lovelorn
Cause my heart has been torn
Maybe not TORN, but a little bruised
Ever since I kissed you, I've had the blues

I like how you acted like you didnt notice me
What the **** is wrong with you, I got feelings can't you see?!
You make me angry nd you make me sad
Your the worst heartbreak I ever had
Do you know what you do to me? Do you even care?
We used to go everywhere
Ridin in yo whip
The bad ***** in your passangers seat
Your down *** chick
You always used to call me, just to see what I was doin
I miss that ****, so who the ******* screwin?!
Yeah I'm the jealous type, I guess you caught up to that
The way you treat me is so wack!
You said things wouldn't change and that you didn't wanna lose me! Your a ******* liar and emotionally you abused me.
But that's cool, cause I got my superman
He's always been by my side and does the things you can't
And one day I hope you meet him, the man who rocks my world
The guy who fufils all my ****** fantasies that I've had about you that never happend cause of you cause you didn't want them too!
Tired of feeling like a fool
Callin you, no answer
Texting you, a cancer
Hurts my muthafuckin feelings cause you don't care no more
Was once adored, by you
Now someone else wants to
I never should've told you my feelings
I trusted you to let me open up
My heart just won't shut up, it keeps flowing with hurt and pain
You hurt me so bad its a shame
And now I can't stand it when I hear your name