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Feb 2015 · 352
Little Spell
Fenix Flight Feb 2015
With these cuffs
I chain the beast,
only loosen
with sparks
of Humanity seen.
From My Short Story SAVING PETER, Its supose to be A spell/ Incantation
Feb 2015 · 3.7k
Saving Peter (SHORT STORY)
Fenix Flight Feb 2015
.               "Peter Look at me." Lexi whispers moving closer to him, The hot spray from the shower head scalding her back. Peter had his back flushed against the back of the shower, his eyes, the red of an Alpha wolf, wild with pure animistic rage. He's lost his humanity, she thinks, I have to bring it back, Peter Snarls and lunges for her. Lexi just holds out her palm and water tentacles from the streaming water behind her snake out and wrap themselves around his wrists and ankles, locking him in places, vicious snarls escaping him, his eyes burning red. Anger wells up in her chest making her own eyes Flash violet, her powers rising inside her. She closes her palms and the water restraints tighten cruelly against him, a small whimper coming from him. She looks him in the eyes and steps even closer, leaving the comfort of the water. "Peter please, come back to me my love." She whispers moving closer still until she was standing right in front of him, his breathing echoing off the shower tiles. She stretches her hand out and touches the hard muscles of his stomach, making him flinch violently, struggling against his restraints as he tries to move away. Lexi thinks back to the time when he would have done anything just to feel her touch, now with his humanity lost,  and the wherewolf taking hold he couldn't bare it. She splays her hand across his abs, tracing the hard muscles, trying not to wince as sounds of pure distress came from him. Looking back up into his eyes she searches for the Peter she had fallen in love with, imprinted with, and found nothing but a cruel cold hearted Animal staring back at her. She takes her hands away and sees the distress turn quickly back into a murderous glare as he pulls against the restraints trying grab her, his claws glistening with spray from the water. With a flick of her wrist the tentacles pull at his arms until they are spread out, far from touching her, another viscous growl, more tugging against them. "Peter I know you can hear me,try to fight this I know you can." She says pleading to any shred of humanity that might still be lurking within his soul. For a split second his eyes lose some of the bloodlust as her words penetrate the wolf that was rising, his face twists in concentration

               "Lexi- I can't Save yourself" He gasps through clenched teeth, His eyes begging her to run before he closes them. She steps near, her heart soaring with hope that she might be able to save him. When he opens his eyes again though all hope she just had shatters as the cruel animal returns. With renewed strength He lets out a harsh howl and yanks his arms, the water tentacles turning to puddles, slipping down the drain with the rest of the water, in the small space of the shower he lunges toward her. Fear ripples through her but she quickly shakes it off and once again lifts her palm stronger tentacles obeying her command wrap themselves around him just in time, as his sharpened fangs came three inches from her face. His body is slammed back against the shower wall, his head bouncing painfully off the tiles. As he trashes and pulls at the restraints Lexi moves back close to him, shutting her eyes in concentration. "His ego cuffs concatenata bestiam, relaxare scintillis humanitas seen, With these cuffs I chain the beast, only loosen with sparks of Humanity seen." The Latin words falling easily from her lips as she casts her spell on the water, knowing they would hold and only lessen their grip when the Peter she knew and loved came back. Her strength leaves her as the spell takes hold and she sags against the other wall, seeking its help to keep her upright. She leans her forehead onto the water slicked tiles and breaths in the steamy air, her eyes drift close. Knowing she was safe from anymore escape tempts she turns her back toward the beast that wore Peters face and steps back into the scalding water of the shower, letting the heat seep into her cold riddled body, and washing away any remaining fear as she lifts her face to the spray. Anger toward herself bubbles up inside her, how can she be afraid of the man she loves? whimpers fro behind her make her sigh and step out of the comforting spray. Turning around, she opens her eyes which were flashing Violet with her rejuvenated powers, she once again faces the love of her life. Hope once against swells inside her as she faces her task of Being Back Peter's humanity.

               "Peter I know you are still in there, I'm going to touch you now." She says with confidence as she steps closer once more. Hot spittle flies from his mouth as a deadly snarl comes from deep within, his fangs fully elongated, his claws at full length, clawing wilding at the air trying to tear her apart. She ignores the snarls and the beast and focuses souly on her task, She reaches out and touches his chest, right above his pounding heart. Moving her hand upward she runs her hands up his muscled well toned arms and with her left hand she places it carefully on his cheek, keeping away from his deadly venom coated fangs, knowing that one bite would have her transforming into a werewolf like him. The terrified whimpers he made makes her heart squeeze, knowing that the touch of a human in his wolf fill brain was torture for him. She looks in his eyes and silently pleads for this to work, knowing that with each touch the Peter she loved would have a fighting chance to break through and once again take hold of his body. She steps closer and kicking his feet apart she presses flush against him, the roughness of his soaked jeans rubbing against her naked body, his shirtless upper half smooth against her own chest. A strangled growl leaves him as he tries to shrink away from the closeness. She takes her hands and places them on either side of his face yanking it back to look at her. "Peter come on love FIGHT THIS!" She hisses pressing herself closer to him. The blood lust fades slightly, his arms sagging slightly as the restrains register a spark of his humanity. Her eyes shine with joy when she realizes it was working. She takes her hands away from his face and wraps them around his neck, stretching up on her toes to reach his mouth with hers. She kisses his mouth, not afraid of the snapping teeth, and feels the growls dissipating in his throat, as his arms continue to sag with the loosing cuffs. She watches as his eyes close and feels his lips returning the pressure to hers. A small gasps escapes her as she feels his arms finally wrapping around her body crushing her to him.

               "Lexi Stop, I can't fight this for long," he pleads against her lips, and on Que his arms are softly yanked from around her as the restraints sense the animal rising again. Going against her intuition she lifts her hand and the spell is broken letting his arms sag fully to his sides, giving him full use of them. He growls "That was a mistake, Lexi AH" He chokes out shutting his eyes and shrinking away from her half turning his body, trying to keep himself from slipping away. She moves, easily deflecting his feeble attempts to push her away, she takes hold of his arm and turns him to face her again and softly pushes him up against the wall which they had started to stray from, pressing herself firmly against him.

               "You can fight this Peter," She whispers in his ear before claiming his mouth again. It was her mistake. He kisses her with desperation trying to fight back the Wolf that was clawing it way through him. IN a split second He looses control and the beast takes hold. Giving off a murderous howl he sinks his claws deep within her back, Her scream tears through her, echoing off the tiles. She sags against his claws, making them sink in deeper as whimpers of agony spill from her kiss swollen lips.  With a grunt he rips his claws out and watches as she crumples to the ground, her strength deserting her. She splashes in the water built up in the tub , barely noticing the sting as her knees and hands hit the porcelain. Her arms wobble as she tries to keep herself up, her eyes cast down as she stares at his bare feet, the hem of his jeans dark with the water sloshing around him. "Pe-Peter Fight, pl-please" she mumbles as a fog starts to creep into her mind. Her arms fail her and she splashes face first into the ***** water. The water was tinged red and tasted like cooper with her life's blood as it oozed out of the ten claw marks on her back. Her breath quickens as it become shallow, the fog creeper faster, her vision starting to unfocused. Tears spill down her face and mix with the ****** water as she realizes she was going to die, and without saving Peter.

               "I failed you Peter, I'm sorry, Forgive me," She whispers unable to lift her head to look at the beast that claimed him. " I- I love You" She manages to sputter out before the fog took hold of her, rendering her unconscious.

               Those three words reached the beast, traveling down to Peter who was growing weaker by the minute LEXI! he screams mentally and pushes past the beast. He throws his head back, letting out a tortuous howl, as his eyes go from blood red to the Ice blue some Beta wherewolves posses, his original state. The beast retreats, never fully gone, just hibernating until the next best moment to strike. Peter looks down at the naked girl at his feet, and he drops to his knees in the red waters.

               "Lexi My love" He whispers his voice full of agony. He lifts her limp body out of the water and cradles her in his arms, He wipes away the hair that was plastered to her face and rests his hand against her cheek. "Open your eyes my love, you didn't fail me, you saved me, I'm right here, just open your eyes." He says, his voice choked with unshed tears. When she doesn't respond he cries out , placing his head on her chest, taking his hand away to wrap around her body in a tight grief stricken embrace, his blond hair making a curtain around his face as his grief pours out of him unchecked. A strangled Gasp makes her chest rise and he wipes his head up to find her eyes fluttering open, focusing weakly on him.

               "Peter, you're-" her words fade away as her strength seeps out of her. she lifts her hand and he quickly grasps it in his lifting it to his mouth kissing the fragile pale skin before putting his face in her hand, trapping it between his face and his hand.

               "Yes Lexi I'm me, I'm here, Don't give up" He says smiling through his tears. A faint smile spreads across her bloodless lips as she closes her eyes, her breathing was struggled but she clinged to the last bites of life in her as she pulls her power in, drawing strength from the water around them, the air that fought it's way to her lungs, the Fire from the small candle she had lit in the bathroom earlier for strength, the minuet grands of dirt that always managed to find their way in the house. But most of all she Draws on the Spiritual world the one that swirled around every living creature. She draws all this power inside her and wills her body to heal itself, Fighting for her life. Her power pulls and a soft warm glow fills her body as the wounds slowly pull themselves closed healing themselves. Her breathing becomes easier and she gulps huge mouth fulls, coughing as she takes too much in. Peter tighten's his hold on her and stares at her in wonder as she pulls her broken battered body together. "Oh Lexi," he gushes as color returns to her body, making it flush a pale pink, her eyes going from their crystal green to the purple as she works her magic. Finally the wounds were sealed shut, and her eyes return to their crystal green, her body sagging in exhaustion in his arms.

               "You're you, you're really you." She whispers, happiness ringing in her soft sleepy voice. Peter smiles at her and strokes her cheek, his fangs had vanishes and his claws had retracted.

               "Yes Lexi I'm really me."

               "I thought you're humanity was lost,"

               Peter just shakes his head at her, tightening his hold on her he stands up, carrying her bride style he steps out of the shower, not bothering to shut off the water. Holding her close to his body she rests her head against his bare chest and sighs as she hears his heart thumping at a normal pace. Leaving the bathroom he pads down the hall to their room. Once inside, with one hand he pulls back the covers on their king sized bed and gently deposit her onto it. going to his side of the bed he quickly strips out of his wet clothing and slides under the covers with her, drawing her close to his body, skin to skin. Lifting her eyes to his he smiles at her.

               "NO Lexi, I don't think I can ever lose my humanity again, want to know why?" He says, his eyes hypnotizing her. She snuggles closer to him, her legs tangling with his,

               "Why?"

               "Because YOU are my humanity." He says as his lips crush her in a passion filled kiss.
This was A Dream I had. I have no other back story or anything This was jsut my dream and I was Lexi. Peter was Peter Hale From TV show Teen Wolf. ( IDK why but my dreams awalys end up staring someone from that **** show)
Feb 2015 · 467
Where Did My Sister Go?
Fenix Flight Feb 2015
Where did my sister go?
I barely see her anymore
Have I done something wrong?
We use to be so close, our secrets we once shared.
Now It's like pulling teeth to get her to talk to me.
Plans We make vanish to the winds,
Our little show hung up to dry.

She sits next to me the computer screen lighting up her face,
but she might as well be a thousand miles away from me
Lost to me in her wrold of Tecnology.
Has she outgrown me?
No longer in need of her big sister?

Am I being childish? selfish?
Am I being Paranoid?
I dont know
But what I do know is
I
Miss
My
Sister
Terribly
I miss you Summer Skye!!!!!!!
Feb 2015 · 310
I Say Goodbye
Fenix Flight Feb 2015
{VERSE 1}

I hear your voice in the darkness
But I cant find my way out
I hear your pleads echoing
but I cant find you my love


{CHORUS}

With a thousand things between us
Tearing us apart
I say goodbye


{VERSE 2}

We put up a good fight
but they were tearing us to pieces
flaying us alive
We held on to eachother
no matter how strong the winds


{CHORUS}

But With a thousands things between us
tearing us apart
I must say
Goodbye


{Bridge}

All I want to do
Is hold on to you
Cling for what we once had
But that's not in the cards
not anymore


{CHORUS}

But theres just a thousand things between us
Trying their strength to tears us apart
so with a thousand things between us
I say goodbye


{VERSE 3}

All those words left unspoken
now falling to the ground
Trying to pick up the pieces
of this shattered broken heart
I must say

Goodbye
I was reading a book and the guy in the story was singing a song and he said the line "I say good-bye" and BAM this song popped into my head and I quickly Wrote it all down before I lost it. I hope you like it
Fenix Flight Feb 2015
The emotions inside of me
are clawing free
streaming out of my mouth
in a twisted mournful wail
Piercing the night air with their cries

Their soulless voices begging to be heard
As I try to stuff them back from whence they came
but they are too powerful, built up from years of neglect.
Demanding to be heard where I want them to be or not.

Their Rage and their pain sail through the night,
leaving tears and agnoy,
Shaking shoulders and hollowed chests

nothing can stop them now.
The title of this poem I got from a line in the song BREAKDOWN by a band names PROSPECT HILL
Jan 2015 · 714
Wooden Playground
Fenix Flight Jan 2015
Wooden structure that plagues my mind
I sit and watch them tear you down
Rip up your swing set, crush your slide
It's all to much I just want to cry

You were the one my grammy took me too
My cousins And I ran around your grounds
Our laughter now haunts your gravesite

They said you were getting too old
creaking dangerously and giving kids splinters
Parents were yelling at you left and right
But I rememeber you in all your glory

You're tire swing and glimming slides
the "wave" bridge and the little cubby holes
The ones that were perfect for hide and seek games.

But now you are gone,
torn down and thrown away
Crazy colored plastic now resides
where you once stood so tall

Even though you are gone
You will never be forgotten
The joy you brought will forever be treasured
written for a writing promt from the poetry club I am in
Prompt was:A place from your past or childhood, one that you are fond of, is destroyed. Write it a memorial!
Jan 2015 · 1.1k
17 years
Fenix Flight Jan 2015
17 years have flown by so fast.
I've watched you grow,
from a chubby little baby
to a handsome young man.

My partner in crime when we were little
is now almost of age.
Where has the time gone?
I hope you know I'm proud of you!

My baby brother
whose been there for me
through thick and thin
is 17 today.

My baby brother
isn't a baby anymore.
To my youngest/ baby brother who is turning 17 today (January 28th) I am so proud of you Zakary! I love you <3
Jan 2015 · 1.2k
Tear Me Down
Fenix Flight Jan 2015
Why must you tear me down
Who cares if I am not perfect
Perfect is boring

why must you tear me down
throwin insults at me
when I'm trying to be strong

Why must you tear me down
Nit picking my appearance
when I finally feel beautiful

Why must you tear me down
I thought we were friends
or at least on good terms


Why must you tear me down
What did I do to deserve this?
(written about a women at work who decided to point blank say that I look bo legged while wearing these beautiful HIgh heels my sister let me barrow and then had the adacity to Laugh in my face)
Jan 2015 · 408
The Cutting Stall
Fenix Flight Jan 2015
SNICK*

The blade snaps open,
the serrated jagged metal
and blinding yellow plastic handle
My salvation, my knight in yellow armor.

Metal cold and unforgiving
meeting the innocent flesh
just below my knee,
the back of my calf.

Slow painful cuts
cutting to  the beats
of my breaking heart

Blood  a pulsing living thing
weeping out of the cuts
running down my leg
Crying the pain I feel inside

Remembering their joyous laughter
turns slow to furious slashing
as tears streak down my face
cutting deeper and deeper
with every touch of the blade

The tears freeze as the pain becomes blinding
Close the blade, tuck it away,
My leg a maze of angry weeping
showing the feelings I feel inside
showing the feelings I'm to afraid to admit out loud.

Take a piece of toliet paper and clean up the mess
Exit the bathroom stall, stand infront of the mirror
Put on my eyeliner, gloss up my lips.
Plaster on a bright smile.
Exit the bathroom all together

Walk to my cubicle, sit at my desk.
Log on to my work station
with that smile still on my face.
Jan 2015 · 511
Harsh Cruel World
Fenix Flight Jan 2015
The girl who is too freaky
even for the misfits and outcasts
she doesnt belong anywhere
so she wanders the night alone

Her eyes watering with unshed tears
but she steels herself away from the pain
She locks her emotions deep down inside
Hardening herself to the world.

Her pain went unoticed
no matter how much she screamed
no matter how much she pleaded
on her knees begging for somone to listen

She might as well have been screaming into the wind
Her words fell on uncaring deaf ears
her cries and pleads brushed under the rug
Her heart breaking into dispair filled peices.

picking up the pieces of her heart
she took them and hid them from the harsh cruel world
emotionless and empty is how she now survives
because of the world the chewed her up and spat her out.
Jan 2015 · 551
What The FUCK Do You Know?
Fenix Flight Jan 2015
I'll never change
I'll always be this way
I'm to childish
I'm to young to understand

I've grown up more then you will comprehend
I understand more then you realize
I've grown up right in front of your eyes.
You're just blind
to what you're little girl has grown up to be.

I will admit in some ways you are right
I don't have that much responsibility right now
and no real bills to speak of.
But that will all change soon

Got a job 40 hours a week
And don't forget the overtime.
200 dollars a month straight to the electric bill
115 to my old collage loans.
Studying in the dead of night
to go get that learners permit.
saving up the cash for a licence and car.

No more relying on the dear sweet fiance
I'll save up my OWN money to get my little place
These steps may be small and baby
But they're steps in the right direction.

*You say that I'll never change
But what the **** do you know?
The last line is a quote from the song Remember Everything by Five Finger Death Punch
Jan 2015 · 284
When Summer Smiles
Fenix Flight Jan 2015
When she smiles she lights up the room
a 100 watt smile blazzing with power

when that smile disappeared
it was like living in hellish darkness

It went away for so long
I thought it was lost forever

But now that smile has come again
brighter and wider then ever before

I have never seen her this happy
I've never seen her glow like this

She blushes just at the sound of her name
her love shining through everything she does

When Summer smiles
it's better then cloud nine

I'm so happy for her
I'm so glad her smile is back
This is about my sister summer, she was depressed for so long, unhappy and misrible. But then she met this Beautiful women who has brought life back to my sister. her smile is back, her happyness is back. I have my sister back.
I love you Summer <3 <3 <3
Jan 2015 · 337
To Anyone Who Listens
Fenix Flight Jan 2015
Did you ever just have a day
Where you nick yourself shaving
Just a little too closely.
Hoping its just a little too deep
And everything can end?

Did you ever have a moment
Where you fell down the stairs
And for just a second
Wish you could fall down
And land in just the wrong way
So your suffering can end?

Ever go through a whole day
Going over all the possible ways
You could die accidentally?
Because you cant bring yourself
To end your own life

I have

I do it everyday.
Dec 2014 · 467
Reminiscing
Fenix Flight Dec 2014
That moment
when everything you once knew
is stole from you
and you don't know how to get it back.

And all you want to do
is just jump into that black void
filled with shadows of the past
Just to keep the pain of the present at bay.
this was thought of off the top of my head
Dec 2014 · 909
Horns Behind The Halo
Fenix Flight Dec 2014
Innocent blue eyes
and an angelic smile
people always saying
"So sweet, So kind"
But they don't know
what lurks behind.

Behind the halo
two little horns,
a forked tongue,
And a heart tipped tail.

Devilish thoughts shrouded
in Hell's dark flames.

What's in my head
would make grown men cry
and sweet old ladies cringe.

I'll have you down on your knees
There's no escaping
the she devil in me
Once she's out of her cage.

My appearance so fooling
to the foolish mortals around
so do try to remember,

There are horns behind this halo
This was inspired by My Avatar look on IMVU a online chat site. (my Avi looks like a she-devil)
Fenix Flight Dec 2014
That moment when panic strikes,
those voices creeping in,
from the shadows of your brain.
Weaving their ribbons of doubt,
whispering to you their deadly sins.

Make the cut
Tighten the rope
Take the dive.


Just close your eyes
block 'em out
Breath in
You can do this
You're stronger then them.

Push them away
Make 'em run
with their tails between their legs.

When Panic sets in
It's easy to cave.
To listen to the voices
sweet like candy.

But it's just candy coated doom.
Hold onto your will
You can do it I believe in you
You'll come out of this
A Winner.
To my Friend Thenay Cora. When Panic sets in, Just close your eyes and block em out. You know you can always talk to me. I'm here for you. You're not alone. <3
Nov 2014 · 658
Immortal Love
Fenix Flight Nov 2014
Pale skin So delicate
One touch can bruise it

Full lips cherry red
One kiss can make them swell

Big eyes baby blue
One move can make them tear

Precious life so fragile
In a blink of an eye it vanishes

My love so beautiful
Lush black hair Smooth as silk
Gentle voice and big heart

Her heart,
Counting out the beats of her life
Her mortal soul and numbered days

Where as I
Immortal creature of the dark
Forever laid out before me

Why is it my fate
To fall for someone
Whom I can never have  

All I have ever longed for
Placed in this mortal women

Love, comfort, trust, safety
Harbored in her heart
Reach out to me without fear

But it is I who is afraid
Afraid to love her
Afraid to lose her

Her life is a fracture
A blink of an eye
Compared to my damnation

Curse this immortality
That has been spelled upon me
This came from a prompt from a poetry club im in. The prompt was:

Imagine the life of an immortal...
the inner struggle if they should fall in love or not (maybe with someone they are currently falling in love with)
Nov 2014 · 578
Staying Strong
Fenix Flight Nov 2014
Even in the face of hardships
I will stay strong and smile.

Laid off at work
Right before the holidays
Cant pay the bills
Let my brother down

Relaying on others
To pay my way
Waiting for unemployment
To honor me with a phone call

Electricity shut off
Freeze for the night
Got no money
Tears run down my face

I will give myself ten minutes
To wallow in self pity
To hate myself
And be blue

1...2...3..
4
5
6
7
8
9
10


Ok enough is enough
I will drag myself up off the floor
Dry my tears square my shoulders
Keep my head held high

Keep my smile and sparkles in my eye
I wont let this beat me down

Because

In the face of hardships
I will stay strong
And
Smile
November 4th 2014 I was laid off at work.
Nov 2014 · 253
Jagged pieces of my mind
Fenix Flight Nov 2014
Fragments of my mind
Falling to the ground
Piece by piece
Bits of my sanity
Scattered to the wind
A mental break down
Nov 2014 · 567
What We've Become
Fenix Flight Nov 2014
I hate what We've become!
The type of couple who never speaks
Growing so distant
That place in my heart where you reside
is growing so cold

I hate what We've Become!
The type of couple living completly different lives
Do you even know me anymore?
Do I know you?

I hate what We've become!
The type of couple where love hurts
I love you Whole Heart soul and being
But its starting to hurt my heart

Next valantines day will mark three years
But for two of them we've been living in two different states
eight hours away
and so many miles between us

I'm so afraid
I dont want to lose you
But its hurting my heart to stay

****
how did we let this happen
How did we end up this way?
What have We become?
Nov 2014 · 334
My Shadow Speaks to me
Fenix Flight Nov 2014
Dear You,

This is your shadow speaking
Remember Me?
The one who you use to take comfort in?
The one you said "would never leave"?

I was Always there for you
In your darkest moments
I know all your secrets
The ones your too afraid to speak of

When no one else was around
you took comfort in my presence
Knowing you always had a friend
one that knew you inside and out

I may not have spoken
But I always Listened
I loved you for who you were

Why did you turn your back on me?
Now I am something you fear.
Is it because you lost your way
Is is becuase you dont know who you are anymore?

Whatever it is I understand
Just know I am Always here
In your darkest moments
And even when you cant see me
just know I am always around the corner
Here for you no matter what.
This came from a Prompt from a poetry club I'm in on a different website.
The Prompt was: Write in the point of view of your shadow.
Oct 2014 · 407
Old Hollows Eve
Fenix Flight Oct 2014
The dried fall leaves swirling in a tornado
in the frigid october air

The Old oak tree branches whispering to one another
In a crickity Old time language

The Witches brewing brews
in their black at night cauldrens

The Wolves and monsters howling
In the light of the Harvest Moon

Oh How I cant wait
For Old Hollow Eve's Return
this poem popped into my head a few weeks back when I was helping my mother on her paper route, the trees were creaking in the wind and the leaves were blowing around in the street and this just popped into my head..
Oct 2014 · 369
The Joy Of Reading
Fenix Flight Oct 2014
The Joy of Reading
Is like no other
its a peaceful fullfilment
that lights you from within.

It Transports you
to strange and wonderful places
Some you've heard about
some you never could have dreamed of
even in your wildest dreams

It can take your stress away
and leave you in a happy place

It settles around you
like an old familair Blanket
Comforting you and soothing you
in ways only reading can
Inspired by a conversation I had
Oct 2014 · 243
World Veiws
Fenix Flight Oct 2014
There is NO
Good
Or
Evil
In this world

Just
Shades
Of Grey
Oct 2014 · 612
Just One Of Those Days
Fenix Flight Oct 2014
Its just one of those days
When it feels like someone
is taking a jack hammer
to the inside of my skull

The room starts a spinning
and I'm starting to see stars
"oh look there goes Johnny Depp"

My head pounds
Boom Boom Boom
So strong So painful

I can feel all the way down to my stomach
making it feel all squishy
threatening to empty itself
all over my desk YUCK

I
Guess
Its
Just
One
Of
Those
Days
ok the whole look there goes johnny depp is an inside joke in my family.. one day when I hit my head hard my little brother Zak got all scared and started to cry cuz I was hurt so I tried to make him laugh by saying that I could see the "stars" and started naming off random celebrities and when I said Oh look there goes Johnny Depp he started laughing his little **** off. So now its a running joke in my family.. every time one of us gets hurt we ask the other if Johnny Depps gone by yet. :-D
(PS I HAVE A FREAKING MIGRAIN!!! NOT a hangover!!!)
Oct 2014 · 392
All Weekend Long
Fenix Flight Oct 2014
I weep
Sleep
try to eat

Curse
Sigh
Admit Defeat

Toss, Turn
Simmer
Burn

Rant
Rave
Repeat
THIS IS NOT MY ORIGINAL WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is from the Verse Novel "TO BE PERFECTLY HONEST" By Sonya Sones.

I just LOVED it so freaking much and it explained my feelings perfectly so I posted it...
BUt I want to give credit where it is Due... This is a poem written by SONYA SONES!!!!! NOT ME!!!
Oct 2014 · 489
Shattered Tales Old As Time
Fenix Flight Oct 2014
Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Beauty and the Beast.*

A tale told so long ago
Different names, same old tune
Of the Beauty and the Beast

The Beauty so grand high up on her pedestal
The bad boy Beast with a mean reputation
drawn together by some mystical force.

The Beauty so proper so poise
the Beast rough and tumble
Falling in and out of love

The Beast does something
the Beauty runs for the hills
The Beast goes to claim her back

Same old tune
its getting a little old
When will that Beauty learn?

Maybe that Beast is nothing more then a Beast
Never going to change his ways so why try?
Why does she always have Beauty but never brains?
LAST Poem in my POetry book SHATTERED FAIRY TALES
Oct 2014 · 389
Scarlett
Fenix Flight Oct 2014
I know right now is stressful
and its tough day by day
Don't worry I'll be here
Always with a listening ear

You can talk to me about anything
and everything that comes your way
I'll sit right here and be your friend,
I wont judge or toss you away

I'll hold you if you feel like crying
And then I'll wipe away your tears

You got a friend right here in me
I'll be loyal until the end
just say the words and I'll come running
When ever you're in need.

My friends and family are everything to me
And guess what you fit both categories.
So don't worry I am here
This I know I can promise you.
To my Friend Scarlett
Oct 2014 · 504
RENEGADE
Fenix Flight Oct 2014
Oh, Mama, I'm in fear for my life from the long arm of the law
Hangman is comin' down from the gallows and I don't have very long

The jig is up, the noose is out
They finally found me
The renegade who had it made
Retrieved for a bounty

Never more to go astray
This will be the end today
Of the wanted man
Renegade from the band STYX all rights belong to the artist
Oct 2014 · 381
Just Breathe
Fenix Flight Oct 2014
Spinning Dizzily
In a whirlwind of confusion
As your breath is ripped from your lungs
and your screams are scattered into the raging winds.

Just close your eyes
Breathe slowly
counts to ten
1...2...3...4...5
you know the rest.

These winds inside you will still
when and for how long I wish I knew
But just hang in until then I know you can do it
Your stronger then you give your self credit.

Just Breathe in and out
that tightness in your chest will lessen

Your life is a kaleidoscope of crazy
all those colors and emotions raging inside
creating that whirlwind to fast to control.
Or so you think.

Just stand still and breathe
some day there will be a shining sun.
It ***** right now but I promise you
Someday... SOMEDAY..... Things will get better
To everyone and anyone who feels like their life is spinning out of control. I know it seems scary right now but believe me. someday it will get better. just please promise me you will stay here for the ride of hell until that day gets here. It will be worth it I promise you :-D
Oct 2014 · 553
My Revelation
Fenix Flight Oct 2014
I've been away
or I guess not really
But I've been thinking
About who I am lately.

I've had the time to think me through
Go over every vessel
over every nerve cell
Everything that makes up me

I dug around in my brain
To figure out how I ticked
How I worked

Nothing I did
could have prepared me
For what was in store

I saw myself
truly saw myself
I started to cry.

I'm not the person I always thought I was
yes I'm annoying and childish
immature and "rude"
But there is so much more to me.

I have power held up inside me
With the tip of my pen
paper and below it
I have the power to help.

Not just with my jokes
and stupid scenarios  
But with my words of poetry

Someone Once told me
that I changed her life
with just 2 verses
that because of me
She's still here

So I will take off my court jester hat
and take up my pen
grab a fresh white sheet of paper
I will put myself to work

This is my revelation
This is the real me

I wont hold back anymore.
**I will let my words flow free
"I'm sorry. You don't deserve this. You are such a special, beautiful, smart and creative girl. Bad things happen to good people too often. You changed my life with just 2 verses.
If you ever need ANYTHING I am here for you. I owe you so much. When sadness gets the best of you think of all the lives you've touched and changed. And think how many are still there for you to help. "

A ******* Here (THENAY CORA)  told me this yesterday. When I saw it today I sat there and stared at her words and started to cry. She opened up a door in me that I never even knew existed.
Oct 2014 · 461
On/Off
Fenix Flight Oct 2014
Mask On:*

happy
laughing
smiling
joyful
cheerful
hyper
perky
bubbly
proud
sparking eyes
Bliss

Mask Off:**

Tears
cutting
depression
suicidal
crying
hate
insecure
howling
emotionless
lazy
sleepy
despair

The mask is on
The mask is off

Which one will show tonight?
Sep 2014 · 1.4k
Hawk (story not poem)
Fenix Flight Sep 2014
All those I-hop visits in the middle of the night, all those nights sneaking out of my room and hanging with you until 4 in the morning, or saying I was sleeping over my friends house when I was really sleeping at your house, OR OR OR you sneaking into my room at night and crashing on my floor till morning.

I never regretted any of it. I still don't. I didn't think it was wrong. I still don't. You were like my big brother you still are. Yeah I knew my father and stepmother wouldn't approve of you as a friend (nor would the approve the misfit gang our friends) so I kept you hidden, hence all the sneaking around.

You called me panda growing up and would "******" anyone else who even dared to try to call me that. And Hell I was one of the few people who was allowed to know what your real name was (don't worry I wont put it up here).

We've been through hell and back. As Mistress and sub, Enemies, romantic interest, then siblings. We've been on one hell of a roller costar. But through all the yelling and the fighting that we seemed to always do, We always would find a way back to each other and bee there for each other through thick and thin. We always had each others back and would look out for one another.

You would sometimes take me on your dangerous jobs. I was always in that beat up old ford focus you had with an oversized hoodie on and your iPod blasting in my ears. You taught me how to fight with a Tanto (the dagger version of a katana sword) well two tantos, so now I am quicker throwing a knife then most people are pulling the trigger on a gun Something I am VERY Proud of, (See you don't need Hideous disgusting GUNS to defend yourself) AAAAANNND I am very deadly with just my hands and body (AGAIN you don't need stupid pointless nasty guns to defend yourself). And I taught you how to keep your temper in check (which rarely ever happened so maybe I didn't)

We let the other see sides of ourselves that we never showed anyone. You were for the longest time the ONLY person who knew what my ex boyfriend Jim did to me, and so there for were the only person who understood why the song DONT STOP BELIEVIN' By Journey would make me curl up in the fetal position and have such horrible flashbacks I would hyperventilate and cry my eyes out and shake uncontrollably  (Still get flash backs but no more hyperventilating or crying, now I just freeze in the middle of whatever I'm doing and shake really badly). I was the only person you would open up about what happened to your family, about the car crash, that is until a few months ago when you finally wrote a poem about it and started coming to terms about it.

I was the one who stood up to you and got you to see that your drug addiction was destroying you. that youw ere better then the "low life" **** you were portraying yourself as. I was the one who made you see the light (your words not mine)

You were the one to show me that I wasn't worthless, or a **** up, or a waste of space that my family was better off without (though I still struggle with that everyday).


I met you when I was only 12 turning 13, you were 15 turning 16. Now I am 21, you 24.

THATS 9 YEARS!!!

you left my life from the time I was 15 to 19. FOUR YEARS! you left my life because of your drug addiction, Those four years felt like A part of me was missing. My big brother was gone. The person who had been there for me through everything. The one who would always make sure I was ok and had a smile on my face. the person who when I was mad would sneak me I hop pancakes into my room when my stepmother or father wasn't looking. The person who was always there in the shadows making sure I was safe, Always protecting me.

But then you came back and I welcomed you eagerly. You promised me you would never leave my life again. that you realized that it was stupid. that you missed your sister to much. I was fine with that. I missed you too.

You finally got clean and free of your addiction. though you still did dangerous jobs... Which led you to getting shot and almost dying. But when you got better you quit those jobs and focused on other things. Like your Boyfriend and the love of your life who later became your wife.Then you started a family, You wife and your beautiful daughters. Gosh I love my nieces. You started to see the light. And I was happy to be a part of it.

But then Magnum (your kinda father figure) got hurt really badly and BAM you changed. You started to revert back  into your old self, dangerous jobs, cold hearted, distant. And nothing anyone would say would get through to you. You wouldn't listen to any of us. Not Mags, Not your wife, not your boyfriend. not even me.

THEN CAME THAT DAY

It was  September 15th 2014.


You posted a poem on here and I commented. and we did our usual Banter back and forth of you saying something and me being stuborn and not letting it go. you FLIPPED out and told me "I DONT WANT TO BE YOUR BIG BROTHER ANYMORE SO ******* AND LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!" Goddess that hurt so badly

It felt like you had shot me, stabbed me, ran me over with an 18 wheeler. You ripped my heart in two. You told me to get out of your life. But you Promised you would never leave mine! You've been there since I was 12 years old and now you just want to leave? AFTER EVERTHING WE'VE BEEN THROUGH! you want to just wash your hands of me and be done? You want me gone? You want me to leave? DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THAT HURTS ME??? The ONE person THE ONE ******* PERSON who has always been there for me is now GONE!!! **** VANSIHSED DISAPEARED!!!

My big brother. the person I could always count on. :'( Gone... just Gone.. it left a gapping whole in my heart.

I tried to be angry. And I still am. THIS ISNT FAIR TO ME!!!!!! I DIDNT DO ANYTHING TO DESERVE THIS **** IT!!!!

WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME HAWK???? WHY??? WHAT DID I DO WRONG???? HOW COULD YOU HURT ME LIKE THIS??????

I've slammed the door on you. I cant handle this pain anymore. I cant do it without falling apart. I've slammed the door and locked it. And I don't know if I can ever unlock it. You've hurt me. Worse then you've ever done before. I don't know if I can ever let you back in. Yes I love you. That will never change. Yes even though you don't want to be you will ALWAYS still be my big brother through and through. That will never change.

But sometimes even though we love someone. we just have to let them go. Some times we have to protect ourselves from the pain they cause. even when we don't want to. Even when we want to cling to them and beg them to stop hurting us.

Maybe someday in the future I will be able to unlock that door and we can start again.. but I don't know. I honestly don't know.

I want to open that door so badly though. I want you back into my life. its only been a week and I already miss you like crazy . I miss my brother.

But how can I know you wont hurt me again? Is it worth letting you back in? You broke your promise to me about never leaving my life again. You broke your promise. How can I trust you again?
This is about me and my "big brother" hawk. I know you can see it Hawk....
Sep 2014 · 877
No.....
Fenix Flight Sep 2014
You wanted me out of your life
You broke your promise
You broke my heart

After everything we've been through
you simply tossed it away
With cruel words and actions
You broke me down

You made your choice
you knew what you were doing
You left me there "bleeding"

You hurt me
And I'm still here reeling
in the aftermath destruction

I'm sitting here, Trying
Not to fall in the gaping hole
That you left behind

You left
when I needed my big brother the most

Its too late
to be looking back now.
its too late
for the I'm sorrys and apologies

So to Answer your question
YES
the door back in is really shut

and to answer your other question
NO.....

......I don't think It will ever open back up
You wanted me to talk to you... Well here is my answer.
Sep 2014 · 298
O-O For Once
Fenix Flight Sep 2014
For once in my 21 years of life
Yes I know that's not long but still
Anyway Moving on. where was I?
Oh yes there I was

For once in my 21 years of life,
Are you ready for this?
hold On Tight

I DON'T FEEL LIKE TALKING!

O-O
yes I know its hard to believe,
The girl who never shuts up
and ALWAYS has something to say
For once doesn't want to speak
doesn't want to open her mouth
and let the words spew

I sit here reading
feeling so anti-social
Praying they don't see me
So I don't have to engage in social exchange

I just want to curl up
grab a book
and read the day away

or better yet sink into
my not so comfy bed
and sleep and sleep
Is it so bad to not want to wake up?

there is nothing exciting going on
So I have nothing to comment about

Nothing hold my attention
Nothing stays of interest.

For once in my 21 years of life
I don't want to Talk.

Where did the old me go?
I want her back.
Sep 2014 · 404
Do You?
Fenix Flight Sep 2014
She smiles
her face stretching into a grin

Do you see it?
Her smile doesnt light up her eyes
like it should

She laughs
its sound bubbling into the air

Do you hear it?
The screams of pain
hidden in between the giggles.

She's Energetic
To hyper for her own good.

Do you notice?
The bags under her eyes
from her endless sleepless nights.

She's happy
Never in a bad mood

Do you realize?
the trails across her cheeks
Where tears of sorrow carved their place
searing themselves into her heart
like a thousand needle ******.

Do you?
Do you even care?
Sep 2014 · 9.6k
Always Here For You
Fenix Flight Sep 2014
I know your life is spinning
so very much out of control
I know your grip is slipping
and you just want to give up and let go.

So I will step on up
and grasp your hand tight
you can let go for a while
Don't worry I'll keep my hold.

Let go and break down
Fall into a million pieces
When you're done
I'll pick them back up
and help you build back up.

I'll hold you
until you can stand up again
because in my arms you're always safe.

You are my sister
and I love you so dear
and I know its hard for you
To show all your fear

but know this please

I am Always here For you.
I love you Summer Skye! I'm right here for you.
Sep 2014 · 424
Shattered Stalkers Reality
Fenix Flight Sep 2014
I know you
I walked with you once upon a dream
I know you
The gleam in your eyes is so familiar, a gleam
Yet I know it's true
That visions are seldom all they seem
But if I know you, I know what you'll do
You'll love me at once
The way you did once upon a dream


I know you
As I stalked you in the night no it wasn't a dream
I know you
that gleam of fear in your eyes is so familiar
yet you should Know its true
Shadows in the night are seldom all they seem
But if I know you, I always know what you'll do
You'll love me at once
The way you do In my twisted Fantasy
Another poem in my poetry book SHATTERED FAIRY TALES
this one is from Sleeping beauty. And I'm sorry but it always reminded me of a stalker so I turned it into it. teehee
Sep 2014 · 252
Shattered True Loves Kiss
Fenix Flight Sep 2014
I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss,
And a prince I'm hoping comes with this
That's what brings ever-aftering so happy
And that's the reason we need lips so much
For lips are the only things that touch
So to spend a life of endless bliss
Just find who you love through true love's kiss*

I've been dreaming Of a true love that's mine
Put He was not the prince I hoped would  come with this
He didn't bring me ever-aftering that was so happy
And our lips were the only things touching
Instead of life of endless bliss, I got a life of misery
So to find a love of hell, find it through "true love's kiss"

Don't be so quick to fall in love
Stand your ground and find someone worthy
If it takes forever then so be it
Don't be so hasty, it wont make you any less lonely

Find the man that treats you right
with all the little things he does
Not the man that's so quick to tell you
what you need to hear
5th poem in my poetry book SHATTERED FAIRY TALES
(The italized stanza is from the movie ENCHANTED)
Sep 2014 · 388
Shattered Mermaid Fun
Fenix Flight Sep 2014
Up where they walk, up where they run
Up where they stay all day in the sun
Wanderin' free - wish I could be
Part of that world*

Up where they run, and fall clumsily down
Up where they stay and get burned in the sun
Are they really free, do you really wish to be
Part of our world?

Do you want to trade your life away?
To be like the cool kids?
Squish down your individualism
Give up what makes you you?
just to be Part of our world?

Lose yourself completely
think with the group, not by yourself
Give up your own unique style for fit and trendy clothes.
Give up your old friends, for all the popular crowds
Just to be Part of our world?

Don't be silly
don't be a fool
Don't give  up you!
You can still be part of our world

Just by being you!
The 4th poem in my poetry book "Shattered Fairy Tales"
Sep 2014 · 1.8k
Shattered Glass Slipper
Fenix Flight Sep 2014
Fairy Godmother:
Oh, now, now, now, now, now, just a minute.
You must understand, my dear:
On the stroke of twelve, the spell will be broken,
and everything will be as it was before.*

Royal *****
With all the fluff
Pretty dressed girl twirling and laughing
Strapping young men Promising them the world
The masks are on.

Girls with their heads in the clouds
dancing in their glass slippers
Slippers that hold all their hopes and dreams

believing the words falling off men's lips.
whispering in their ears
all the things they want to hear
not seeing through their carefully crafted masks

Midnight descends and all bets are off.
Carriages turning back to pumpkins
rich men turning back to paupers
taking away their hard earned money
sleeping in their beds.

Leaving them in the dust
leaving nothing behind
but those awful glass slippers
3rd poem in my poetry book "Shattered Fairy Tales"
Sep 2014 · 450
Shattered Prince Charming
Fenix Flight Sep 2014
Some day my prince will come
Some day we'll meet again
And away to his castle we'll go
To be happy forever I know*

My prince he never showed
Left me standing here alone
Away to his castle we never went
My happy ever after I'll never know

Some day when spring is here
We'll find our love anew
And the birds will sing
And wedding bells will ring
Some day when my dreams come true


Some day when spring is here
From the ashes of heart break I'll be anew
And the dragons will roar their victory
And the bells of my healed heart will ring
Some day I'll Make my dreams come true

All On My Own.
The Second poem in my Poetry book "Shattered Fairy Tales"
Sep 2014 · 360
Letting Down My Gaurd
Fenix Flight Sep 2014
I smile on the outside
when everthing inside
is decaying with each breath

But my normal happy smile
is slipping and falling
as the tears spill over.

I cant take this anymore
I need help

I cant take this pain anymore
its sufficating me, killing me.

I dont know what to do.
I'm tired of being strong
I'm tired of holding this in.

I'm tired of being called dramatic
everytime I try to break down.
I'm tired of pretending

I dont know what to do

Someone please tell me
Someone tell me what to do.
Sep 2014 · 389
Crushing
Fenix Flight Sep 2014
Have you ever gotten that feeling
That you just need to run
get away far far away from where you are now?

But you can't
your stuck
and then this crushing feeling
decends on you

you feel like crying
but you dont know why
your misrebale and angry
but in reality you're not.

Nothing holds intrest to you
But you cling to the things that once did
Trying to submerse yourself into it
Thinking maybe it can take the crushing feelign away

You just want to give up for the day
and curl up back in bed
and cry yourself to sleep.

But that crushign feeling just wont go away
it worms its way in and settles in for a long ride
And you just want to run
Run away, Far Far away.
Sep 2014 · 339
Shatter Me
Fenix Flight Sep 2014
Somebody shine a light
I'm frozen by the fear in me
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me
So cut me from the line
Dizzy, spinning endlessly
Somebody make me feel alive
And shatter me!
Song Written by Lindsey Stirling
Song Sung By Lzzie Hale from the band halestorm

ALL RIGHTS GO TO THE WRITERS AND SINGERS
Sep 2014 · 499
Locked Door
Fenix Flight Sep 2014
I stare at your words,
until my eye blur with tears.

Do you know how badly you hurt me?
Do you even have any Inkling as to how deep it goes?

You told me you didnt want to be
my big brother anymore.
You didnt want me in your life.

You might as well have shot me
The bullet wounds are bleeding
They are raw with pain
My tears are warm against my face.

With every word you spoke
A knife was cutting me up inside.
Ripping out my heart
Ripping my feelings to shreds.

You want me out of your life?
Is that really true?
Is that really real?

I know you
I know how you work
and operate.
there is something you're not telling me
there is something not right!

Why are you doing this to me?
Why now?
why do this to me AGAIN!!!!

You want me out of your life?
FINE!

I will slam that door shut
I will lock it up tight

Just know that once its locked
It may NEVER open up again.

I hope you know
what you are doing.
You know who you are.... Is this really what you want?????????????? this is your last chance
Sep 2014 · 480
Funny Little Employers
Fenix Flight Sep 2014
You think you're wise?
You think you're clever?
Go ahead and take it away
Go ahead and make me
Into your perfect little robot.
I'll find ways around it.
I'll still continue to be me.
You cant stop me
But its cute that you think you can.
My Employers tried to take the internet away from me thinking it would make me "more motivated to work"
Yeah they leared that it made me worse.. hehehe Whoopies
Sep 2014 · 427
Bow Down To No One
Fenix Flight Sep 2014
I will look you in the eye
I will not flinch
I will not back down

You can not forse me
I will not break
I bow down
To No one

Try as you will
Try with all your might

But I will submit
**I will Bow
To
No
One
To all the "doms" Out there who are rude and try to Force Sumission onto others
Sep 2014 · 1.2k
Story of Scars
Fenix Flight Sep 2014
Scars on her anckle
scars on her legs
and on the back of her calf

These scars tell a story  

a story of a girl
so fragile
one wrong move
could shatter her
to pieces

long forgotten scars on her arms
a faded cross on her left beciep
her initials clear as day on her leg

These scars tell a story  

A story of a girl
Whose strong and brave
who keeps pushing on
no matter her pain

Scars so fresh
the blood still flows
down her leg

these scars tell a story

The story of me
Sep 2014 · 630
Once Upon A Time Quote
Fenix Flight Sep 2014
Captain Hook:  Lets just say.. We burried the hachet
*Rumplestiltskin:
  Yes... but why not in your SKULL?
From The TV show Once Upon A Time..... FAVORITE LINE IN THE WHOLE SERIES!!!!!!!!!!
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