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20h · 18
the war is on.
don't make me hate or love you
or don't make me make or break you
forgiven or not, explained your issues or not
forgotten or not, I don't care

don't make me count the times you made me want to sue you
for all of the baseless accusations you tell me now
hearsays are not enough proof for me to be accused of something i never did.

how hypocrite! you're impure but you acted all innocent
ungodly believer, let's see which fits you most
heaven or hell? I am not one to judge where you deserve to go
but karma needs no address for someone wicked like you

i get what i deserve and success is the best revenge for you, you'll see.
20h · 15
libel or label
blank slate, they say
but no. life is very much figurative
to trust you or not
just like every petal of the flower i hold dear
picking and asking it to forgive them but nah.
NAH. life is one of a hell of a ride or die with them.
it makes no sense at all. pointless to say.
needless to say that I was unworthy of their accusations
for there is no proof that I did it.
but rather a hearsay by someone irrelevant.
said by someone, i was labelled as a thief for stealing food
to feed it to my other half
said i stole his watch, but little did he know that i hate watches and clocks
another said I stole a muffin, but he did not know that I starve myself to eat and contain only a few
I ain't no tabula rasa for you to forgive me
i was once impure and unclean for you to accuse me of something i never do.
21h · 22
libel
expecting for a phone call now
waiting for the bunny to die
deck of cards may fly
but you won't make it out alive

they might burn you, smokes play pretend
just like your crocodile tears would ever know
thinking twice for someone with no brain
drain functions as well in your guttered mind

painted my life red
a crimson red for my blood
shame on you for keeping my name *****
one more thing, when you woke up alive
see yourself six feet below the ground

but why don't you play it right
***** is a snitch, one sided *****
play your game right
checkmate, touch move
play safe now, won't you?

medusa is unbothered and untouched but misunderstood
seems so, the war is on
waving red flags for this feud
white flags, unbowed.
1d · 22
>°<
I respect those people who defended my name without my presence
Even if they talk ***** stuffs in the table
Respect is no longer served
For those who ruined my name
every pathway I walked on feels like trouble
scents I smell stinks like rumble
I hurrah in chaos and mess
I stand up, wear my crown and never be unbowed

penny for your thoughts?
Maybe I need a drachma for the ferryman to take me there
show me what lies behind or beyond your deception and betrayal
1d · 24
labelled
been labelled as a thief
been labelled as a bad person
by something I never did, by something I unintentionally did
been threatened that I was exposed to be a thief
Get it on, bring it on. I am not scared.
Is narcissism inherited or not?
perhaps he got it from his father...
or maybe he got it from his mother...
is narcissism really inherited, because why is he as well a narcissistic *******


but i hope you rot in hell, ungodly believer
i hope you have had illnesses that was incurable
i do not ******* care about the worst case scenario
you seem to be fitting in it anyway
thick faced *******
Dec 2024 · 63
Thicha
yndnmncnll Dec 2024
I dug my own grave
Got blood stains on my shirt and wounds on my face
But I got my way out alive
I wanna run away but
I can't help it, I need to be saved

I plead for revenge
Justice is what I seek
Insanity is what displeases me
No wonder why this became a degree burn

This is heaven compared to where I came from
No you're wrong, I'll prove you wrong
This is hell compared to what you did to me

No matter how many perfumes you spray
Your inner self still stinks as it speaks for itself to expose you
Hypocrite and insolent *****! When will you ever learn?
You carry your own cross and blasphemes everyone

What you show is not really who you are, I think
Your kiss is a bittersweet lie
when you called me I remembered your voice
it was thrilling to **** but nah
it was such a waste of time to pull the trigger

I wasted a lot of good bread
traded for unforgettable memories
wasted a lot of tears for a sobered beer

Transitioned from Chao Praya River bridge to London bridge after many years
I left without saying goodbye
I had you chased me like I'm a predator

Found comfort in an abandoned place
Useless for a mansion and well-lit place
Locking in the eyes of my enemy
I'd **** for that when the right time comes

Turned the yard into an office
Planted a tree to hide thy schemes
You meet me now eye-to-eye
I am that same woman born twice

Black and red can end well
For a smoke on the rain
Dead bodies are underneath, 6 feet below the ground
Which happens to be a good fertilizer for trees

You already know I am not on to run trouble
Feisty ***** seems to be the one to talk
Face to face we meet, I ain't fazed, you are

I live with what I have
You use other people to gain what you want to have

I wasted a lot of years for a good time
Ceased to be shackled by thy embrace
Witness is a statue stuck in your office
Wanting for a good time
Snuck in when others are asleep
Anti-depressants comforts me
For it is the only way for me to die for
But that green gown of yours suits you best
Well it **** defines you for having a snake as its design

Poisons swims now within the mainstream of your blood
***** blood now feels like a deja vu
Look what you did to me reflecting now based on what you see

Shattered glasses in expired red wine
Burn thy identity and bury the past
Tactics of ****** is underrated
Which makes my nerves irated
A poem of warning
Dec 2024 · 57
eyy 🤙
yndnmncnll Dec 2024
Everybody told me what was so good in "goodbye," Our friendship seems to end, but I can't tell you why. Who are we to try, to break it down, or just let it go?

I know, I know, it breaks your heart. Now I see why we are strangers again. I thought you would remain by my side forever, but no.

But there are some lyrics, waiting to be sung
Some stories waiting to be heard
some gossips waiting to be scattered
but no, I'm not one of them.
Dec 2024 · 288
awts gege.
yndnmncnll Dec 2024
There are stories too painful to turn into poems.  
Sometimes, they remain just stories,  
until they become mere memories  
and are gradually forgotten.
peyn.
Dec 2024 · 93
Smoke and f*ck
yndnmncnll Dec 2024
Dusk to dawn, you keep draining me,
Chug me up till I’m the whiskey you need.  
I don’t smoke, but I crave cigarettes after ***,  
Smoke then ****—what’s coming next? 
 
But darling, keep it just between us—because secrets are sweeter when I don't kiss and tell.
Baby, you know I can't control this feeling, but I just want to keep it to myself instead.

**** my soul the way you lick my body,
Kiss the **** out of me, I miss your fire.  
The smell of your sweater fuels my desire.  
When I wear oversized tees, I feel your trace,  
Like your touch still lingers, leaving its place.  

It is making you cry every time
You give your love to me this way.  
Saying you’d wait for me to stay,  
I know it hurts you, but it tastes like pleasure in pain.  

And I’m kissing you, lying in my room,
Holding you until you fall asleep.  
And it’s just as good as I knew it would be,  
Stay with me—I don’t want you to leave.  

You intoxicated me with your love so true,
I fall deep into the rabbit hole with you.  
I fall upside down, not on my knees,  
But begging silently for moments like these.  

I might like it oversized on me, 
But underneath, it’s your hands I need.  
Come and be my pillow, soft and true,  
You look so tired, let me baby you.  

In this vanilla twilight beneath pale skies,
Drop-dead gorgeous, you ignite my highs.  
So hot, I needed an espresso shot,  
You’re my craving—are you feeling what I’ve got?    

I’ll touch myself, but no, it’s not the same, 
I love when your arms play their claiming game.  
You’re **** in person, but do you miss me too?  
Does my body haunt the best of you?  

Are you happy? Or does longing remain?
I’ll hold you close, let’s burn in this flame.

Whispered something softly in your ear,  
A daring thought, yet sincere.  
It made you smile, your gaze astray,  
But I said it—it felt right that way.  

Sunsets glow as we roam this foreign town,  
Quiet streets with no one around.  
You laugh, so free, as your dress falls low,  
By the old swings where secrets grow.  

And when you go, I still see you,  
Sunlight painting your face in my rearview.  

Your voice echoes, a melody of choice,  
A love that no force could destroy.  
Snapshots like Brautigan's cherished covers,  
Memories we share as secret lovers.  

And when you're gone, you're still near,  
Sunlight on your face, memories clear.  

Watching the video where water cascades,  
Hair dripping, shadows softly swayed.  
Your body’s grace has me ensnared,  
But it’s your smile—pure, unprepared.  

It’s so sweet, knowing you love me,  
Words unspoken, yet heavenly.  
So sweet, as I run my fingers through your hair,  
A simple joy, beyond compare.  

Now I see you from afar,  
Wonder who you truly are.  
Dreams pull me closer to your light,  
Certain now—you’re just my type.  

Wanting your love to seep into me,  
A tender dream of eternity.  
Touch me with a kiss, soft and slow,  
Tell me it’s real, let the love grow.  

This is where I’m meant to be,  
So sweet, so close, so heavenly.  
Giving you all my love, my entirety,  
Every moment, for eternity.

You make me tremble, lost in your touch,
Moments so vivid, too much is never enough.
But these photos, these glimpses we’ve shared,
Are secrets I wonder if your friends would dare.

Would they see what we’ve captured in light,
Whispered desires born in the night?
Or is this just ours—a truth unspoken,
A bond unbroken, yet daring, yet open?
Would they see our truth, so raw, so deep,  
The love we’ve sown and secrets we keep?  
Or would they judge what they cannot feel,  
A bond so fierce, so vividly real?  

In shadows we meet, where whispers stay,  
A dance of desire till night turns to day.  
Their eyes may wander, their tongues may speak,  
But only we know the love we seek.  

Hold me closer, don’t let this fade,  
In your arms is where I’m made.  
No judgment matters, no words, no shame,  
For we burn brighter than any flame.  

So let them wonder, let rumors fly,  
We’ll rise together, just you and I.  
For in your gaze, I find my truth,  
A love eternal, untouched by youth.  

Let them see what they’ll never know,  
A fire that burns, a love that glows.  
Our secrets safe, our hearts aligned,  
Forever yours, forever mine.
Oct 2024 · 40
runaway from here
yndnmncnll Oct 2024
Take me back, to where it all began
It was never according to my plan
We met back in twenty-twenty
You had me at hello and lost me at being lowkey
I thought you need me

But that was then,
when i was naive
I lost my faith and it was what I believe
And i thought it was fine
I thought that you were mine

Take me back, to where it all began
I kept recalling everything that I can
But I don't understand
Why you held and let go of my hand

Does it ring a bell?
When you said, I wish you well
I mean well, you seem so happy
Not when you're no longer with me

Fate is where it all began
But it seems distant
It's not you, it's not me
Now who is at fault here?

I want to run away, run away, run away from here
I want to run away, run away, run away from here
Make me disappear, take me away from here
Far away from here

This must be a mistake, seeing you once again like nothing happened
It must be a dream, A dream
I can no longer wake up from,
For you are only here with me now.

Moments lost, suspended in time, Your presence feels both near and far, In this dreamscape, where shadows whisper, I reach out, but you slip through like sand.

Reality’s cruel trick, playing on my mind,
An echo of what was, of what we left behind, Trapped in this endless loop of longing’s brand
Where you and I, forever, stand hand in hand.

You vanished without a trace, but here you are, back like a phantom reborn.
Like a ghost, you returned and now I am torn.

Take me back, to where the stars align
Before the echoes of our past began to chime
Your laughter was my favorite symphony
Now it's just a silent, empty melody.

I wish you well, it's what you said,
But inside my heart, it’s a storm instead.
Our fate began in a distant dream,
Now it's shattered glass, or so it seems.

We blame the stars, we blame the sky,
We can’t see eye to eye.
I wanna run away, run away, run away
But memories chase me, they make me stay.


You are that man I used to love from across the block
Aug 2024 · 50
Broken
yndnmncnll Aug 2024
This year I met the most broken version of my self

The most pitiful version of my soul

And at the same time the bravest, strongest version of my well being
Aug 2024 · 155
pain.
yndnmncnll Aug 2024
You don't have to rub salt in my wounds
Say it to my face
Stand my feet on the ground
Leave my place without a trace

Move on, forget them
Condemn them, or be solemn
For they only gave me misery
Instead of love and mercy

I came back but ran away afterwards
Feeling scared, like the deer in the headlights
I see flashing signs, but it was what I thought it was
But isn't she lovely
Isn't she pretty

What does a pretty girl like you feel
Oh behind that pretty smile, hides the darkest secrets I was afraid to tell
Oh no one wants to know
But I'm too intrigued to show
Hey, I know, I thought it will only take me a while
I felt like I'm dying inside

Mask my pain, only anger remains
Leave thy past behind, they've been blind
But too foolish to mind
Mind games play thy minds
One wants to turn a blind eye, and a numb death
Makes me bleed, make them repent
Hollows are deadly, poison ivy
Sep 2023 · 200
Better luck next time
yndnmncnll Sep 2023
There is no more next time for me
For you and me, I thought we would be
More than what we imagine or see
But we used to be the life of the party

There's no more words to rhyme, to say
But you pushed me away
It washed me away out to sea
In us, there is no more we
Aug 2023 · 79
ezsurie. (8/31/23)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Everyone might not get it,
Too many times I rather give up or quit
There’s no one else to commit
No one else to admit

Being bullied many times, sometimes
Feeling like a pantomime
I ain’t a shifted paradigm
Feels like my life is a movie in a primetime

I’m an outcast to the world
Felt like I belong more in the netherworld
Seems like their minds are gnarled
Every time I say I hated the world

Unwanted to the family I never belong in
My worth felt like a trash bin
I prefer not to lose but to win
Even when I get drunk, the solution to everything is not a tonic gin

I see life in ropes and knives
Are they even horrified with their own lives?
When they chose to summon a welcome- hope kicks in and revives,
I see myself sinking instead of choosing to thrive

I see death in this situation I’m in right now
When I send help to thee, then come thou
Said he, “you reap what you sow”
Grab me my arrow and bow

I’m not myself when I see flashing strobe lights
When it’s half past midnight
I know I don’t wanna fight
Even if I’m not right

It got me stiff, jerking, lying on the floor
Once it got me knocking in someone else’s door
Waiting for my turn to get sober
It rots the hell out of my core

I feel delighted in medicines and hospital beds
I wish I could just forget everything what’s inside my head
I wish I was lovable enough to be heard
Unknowingly dumbfounded me, unaware of what lies ahead
Aug 2023 · 207
Sinisinta (11-8-2022)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Lumalalim na ang gabi
Malamig ang simoy ng hangin
Ikaw lamang ang nais kong makatabi
At ang aking gustong makapiling
Oh, paligaw-ligaw tingin
Ikaw lamang ang tanging minimithi

Ayoko munang umuwi
Dito ka muna sa aking tabi
Ayoko nang sa iyo ay mawalay pa
Huwag mo na akong iwan pa

Huwag muna tayong umuwi
Kay sarap pagmasdan ng buwan ngayong gabi
Hawak ang iyong kamay at lasap ang preskong hangin
Ngayo'y nadinig na aking panalangin

Kay sarap pagmasdan ng mga tala
Singkislap ng iyong mga mata
Hawakan mo lamang ang aking kamay
At tayo ay nakatingala sa alapaap
Ikaw lamang ang aking sinisinta, aking pinapangarap
Ang aking minahal ng tunay

Sapagkat hanap ng puso ko'y ikaw
At wala nang iba pa
Dahil mahal kang talaga
Ibubuhos lahat ng pagmamahal at oras sa iyo
Habang ako ay nandito pa sa mundong ibabaw
Ako ay nangungulila sa tuwing tayo ay magkalayo

Sa iyo lamang ako uuwi
Sa iyo lamang ako mananatili
Ikaw lamang ang aking nag-iisang, sinisinta
Aug 2023 · 283
6-13-22 (10-10-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Ikaw ang simula at ang wakas
Panahon man ay lumipas
Sa iyong yakap ako’y walang takas
Aking pag-ibig sa iyo ay wagas

Ang ating pagmamahalan sa isa’t isa
Lumiliwanag nang parang mga tala
Hindi ko ninanais na ikaw ay magtaka
Huwag ka nang mag-abala pa

Ikaw ang kinang sa ‘king mga mata
Ikaw at ako’y iisa
Ikaw ang laman ng bawat pahina
Ang pamagat sa aking tula

Ang musika sa aking kanta
Kung ang pag-ibig ko sa iyo, sinta
Ay magiging isang sumpa
Habangbuhay akong manunumba sa dambana

Ayokong lumayo sa’yo
Ikakalungkot ng puso ko
Ika'y aking naging mundo
Sa iyo, mahal ay ako'y natutuliro

Hawakan mo lamang ang aking kamay
Ikaw lamang ang aking pipiliin sa habangbuhay
Ang aking minahal ng tunay
Ang makamit ka ay isang tagumpay

Ikaw ang aking biyaya
Ang dumating nang kusa
Ikaw ay mahalaga
Huwag kang mag-alala

Ikaw ay minamahal kong talaga
Ang aking puso'y sa iyo mas sumasaya
Ikaw ang aking dinalangin sa Poong Maykapal
Ang hinintay ko nang kaytagal
Aug 2023 · 88
My moon (7-28-23)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
The sky is breathtakin’
I feel like stargazin’
Capturing moments of you
Observing every move of you

Looking at your smile
While relaxing in the isle
I got this kind of healthy love
No one could ever get enough

When tough times arise
Like waves they fall or rise
Just know that I will always be here for you
I will always love you in all shades of you

I still want you
I still love you even if you hurt me
I still want you even if you are mean to me
Nobody’s perfect and we aren’t perfect, love
Aug 2023 · 305
The man I loved (7-20-23)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I will tell the whole world about him
He feels like singing endless hymns
He has been so good to me
He is all I ever wanna see

He has sparkling madness, brown eyes
As if time flies
He was anxious and traumatized, like his dark unforgettable past
He wishes it never last

In the back of his mind
Why was he left behind?
He sings ballads and praises
All his days, he never fazes

He was rejected by many
Since others’ motives are too shady
Out of all the people, only one girl favors you
She is the only one simping you

Loving him is too crucial to hate
Seems like having him is really my fate
I admit it, he is the man she loves
He was indeed God’s gift from up above
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I have loved you enough
Not to pursue you yet
Cause not all that I see
Is what I get

Oh, I don't want to regret
So, I'd rather forget

Ooh, the words you said
Keeps on messing in my head
Ooh, the things we both did
Keeps on running in my head

But if you would ask me
I would answer right away
I would be yours
I'd like to be called yours


Ooh, this time is ours
This love is ours
If you would ask me
I'll be here to stay
Aug 2023 · 82
AC <3 AD (10-15-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I like it when you smile
I get so happy
When you talk to me
Even just for a while

You remember little details of me
Your Mom was so much closer to me
I wonder how you would feel
That this feeling I feel is real

I have prayed so hard to God
That You would come along my way
I knew it was the will of God
For me to hear you say

Just stay, stay here with me
Even just for today
I want you to see
That you're the only one for me

Your eyes were like stars
Look how they shine so bright
When you look at me
When you stare at me

Your voice is like an angel I long to hear
Right now, I wish you were here
Who knows what I fear?
To slip you away, my dear

It was like my whole world's already in front of me
It was like my answered prayers' already in front of me
You are like a distant star
Look how you shine so bright

Save me, save me from drowning
I'm slowly falling
Falling deep into you
Falling deep into an ocean of love

And I am deeply in love
Deeply in love with you

I'm afraid to lose you
Even though you're not even mine
But I'll be fine
It's just that I am missing you

Every love song reminds me of you
Loving you was like breathing
But never interested enough to stop breathing
Cause every beat of my heart is calling you
Aug 2023 · 69
Serendipity (10-15-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You, you look like the rest of my life
And I want to have you, you for the rest of my life
But if I am everything, I want to be your Queen
And you are crowned king, and we will have to come clean

But If I am anything, I would be everything
Just for you, just for you
I want to be yours; I am yours.

You are my reason behind my happiness
behind my loneliness
You are my cure after every pain
You are my gain
Aug 2023 · 65
Childhood (10-23-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Like a shadow, you’re always stuck with me
Even if I push you away
You always keep coming back to me
I guess, this is where you’ll stay

We were inseparable
You know you are adorable
Our parents were best friends
Maybe we can be more than friends
I am about to reminisce my childhood
Us playing hide and seek
Us taking a bath in the rain
Us playing tag

But now that we are experiencing adulthood
Yet this feeling is some kind of a magic trick

You were my favorite topic
You were always this meek
Just know that I love you
And nobody else know

I didn’t feel that this would be so much pain
My heart felt a little jet lag

Oh, we were neighbors since birth
Our age gap is only three years apart
Since we became friends from the start
I never planned to flirt

With you, I found my happiness
With you, I found also loneliness
Loving you was like living and dying every day
But letting go was like living in hell every day
Aug 2023 · 73
Love lots (10-23-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I want to have you
I got to have you
I want to have your last name
Though we’re different and the same

You never knew how much you mean to me
How much I love you so
How much you were so special to me
How much I miss you so

Loving you was red
I cannot get you out my head
With you, I found clarity
In you, I found sanity

Loving you was blue
How I wish you knew
That I want to say this to you
That how much do I love you so

Oh, I have been searching for someone like you
Long before I knew you
Long before I hear your name
I know I am no longer the same
Aug 2023 · 71
Dead man. (10-24-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
He is a dead man walking
A dead man crawling
At the end of the night
On the edge of glory

He was a hunter
And I was his prey
Now let us bow and pray
So that we will once again be together

Ooh, all I see is bright lights
Bright lights up here in the city
I could be this pretty
No need to worry

I feel so immortal
Freed by your kind
I feel so immortal
Let this be our daily grind

I think I; I think I
I am falling in love again, I
I think it’s you
You made me smile

When I think of you
For a while
I get so nervous
It felt dangerous

When I hear your name
I’m no longer the same
No one will be put to blame
I never live in fame

You got to pull the trigger
Let the bullets fly
You got to have a fuel for the fire
Let it burn in flames

I will always come running back to you
I will rise up high coming for you
I was born a dead man walking
A dead man crawling

I’m as cold as a freezer
I just want to see you cry
Come walk with me along the wire
But baby I am untamed

I could be so numb
Then you could be this dumb
I can do possible things
Which no one could ever do things

I never knew I could do
I was once a mortal
But I was freed by your kind
And made me be like you

Now, I am one of the other immortals
But I never needed your wings to fly
At least I bet on it to try
And You are all always on my mind
Aug 2023 · 65
Him (10-24-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
His eyes were color brown
He is tall, dark and handsome
His hair is colored black
But I cannot look away

I smile a lot when he looks at me
He was beside me all the time
My heart beats faster from time to time
When he is talking to me

I was in a shotgun with him
Listening to the music playing in the radio
While talking to him
And reminiscing to what we had before

How I wish we took a photo
But I realized it all after
It was too late
Too little, too late

I have always longed for you
But I have no guts to tell you
Long enough I got tired to pursue you
Ooh, I am the best one for you
Aug 2023 · 57
FEELING HIGH (10-31-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Baby, I want your hands all over me
Get a hold of me
Your love is my drug
Your love is my drug

I am drunk in love
I’m never going to be sober
This moment is forever
We had each other

Oh, love me then, till we’re feeling high
High in love
High, high, high, I feel high
High, high, high in love

I hope to remember this night
Until it’s over, it’s over
Let us live in slumber
And please get it on right

Love me then till we’re feeling high
Oh, baby I’d rather fly
I just want to see you try
High, high, high in love


High, high, high, feeling high
High, high, high in love
Love me then till we’re feeling high
Oh, high in love

Will you love me after we make love
Will you love me now after we feel so high
Now love me then till we’re feeling high
I get so high in your love
Aug 2023 · 67
THREE (10-31-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You make me feel brand new
Let us just enjoy the view
Sipping champagne, sitting by the porch
Watching the sun sets

Let us make up and mend the pain
And let us light up some torch
I just wanted to do this with you
I can’t forget

325,000 and 600 minutes
365 days, 1 minute
24 hours a day, 12 hours a day
I’m so glad I found you, and make love to you

At exactly three in the morning
I still reminisce the old times
At exactly three in the morning
My midnight thoughts came by this time

Just a blur, in the blink of an eye
Everything fades, you and me, we’re done
It was already gone
Inside of me, I will die, I have died

Every time I cry, my eyes were already dried
Oh, just like a smoke, you were gone
Just like a smoke, what we had is done
Yeah, I will try to bury it in oblivion

This love is not a competition
Whoever gets the most attention
Or lacks affection
Will get an elimination from my life

What a bitter strife
Oh, at exactly three in the morning
I cry myself to sleep
I already am falling into deep


I have to forget this feeling
What has happened to me at three in the morning
Will remain a history
Until now, it became a history.
Aug 2023 · 54
Friends (11-01-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Led by fate
I hope it’s not yet too late
I hope we can try it
There’s no wrong in trying it

I just stood next to you
I cannot hear you that much
Until you got my attention
Oh, I know it is too much

If I could tell you
Beg to you
To love me instead
Oh, you keep running in my head

Aren’t you tired of wandering off in my head?
But loving you is red
This feeling is sincere and real
This is truly how I feel

You look at me straight in my eyes
And call out my name
I know it’s not the same
The way you look into her eyes

And the way you look into mine
But I’ll be fine
Rocks and stones may break my bones
But offering something on behalf will help me atone
Aug 2023 · 183
Aking sinta (11-01-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Sa gilid ng aking mga mata
Hinahayaan kitang pagmasdan
Para kang mga tala sa kalangitan
Na lumiliwanag gaya ng iyong mga mata

Wala na palang saysay ang aking pagtingin
Kung hindi naman ako ang hinahanap mo
Kung hindi pala ako ang pinapangarap mo
Mahirap man kasing aminin

Ang matagal ko nang gustong sabihin
Na ikaw lamang ang aking minimithi
Ang aking hinihiling
Puwede bang ako na lang

Tayo na lang
Ako na lang ang piliin mo
Tayo nalang ang magsama
Tayo na lang ang magmahalan, aking sinta

Oh, hindi ko maitanggi
Na ako sa iyo ay may lihim na pagtingin
Kusa kitang hiniling
Sana nga ay ako na ang gusto **** makasama

Mahal na mahal kita
Hindi kita iiwanan
Hindi papabayaan, lagi kang iingatan
Aalagaan, Oh aking sinta
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I got no courage to tell you
But this feeling amazes me
All the road I travelled on
Leads me all the way to you

This life is not easy
I hope let us hold on

You have been bullying me
Since the beginning
I hated you so much too
But now, I loved you

My classmates thought we were lovers
Since we look like one
Since we look good for each other
But it's all done
Yet suddenly, unexpectedly

I fell for you
Without giving hints
Oh, since the beginning
This is too tough for me

This feeling is just sleeping
For over a thousand times now
This feeling is not fleeting
This feeling is legit now

No matter how desperate I am to avoid it
Yet all the roads I have travelled on
Leads me back to you
For no reasons at all

Baby, you’re worth it
I hope you should hold on
Hold on to me, I’ll hold on to you
You are my only reason at all

It was iconic and ironic, yes
That a second child fell for you, yes
Aug 2023 · 80
Adrian. (11-9-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I think he already knows
Because I told him so
He just took what I said for granted
I thought I was all that he wanted

Ooh, I lost myself
Chasing after you
I lost myself
Looking for you

But then, you just ignored me
Yet you just seem uninterested in me
Oh, you wanted me to be
I never wanted to be

But I never lose you
You lost me
I never lost you
Cause you just let me

Go, oh, let me go
Oh, Adrian
You just let me go
Oh, Adrian
Aug 2023 · 497
Alam ko (11-11-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Alam kong hindi ang pangalan ko
Ang unang tatawagin mo
Ang unang bibigkasin mo
Ang maaalala mo

Alam kong hindi ang pangalan ko
Ang unang papasok sa isip mo
Ang unang maiisip mo
Sa tuwing naririnig mo ito

Alam kong hindi rin ang pangalan ko
Ang lagi **** bukambibig sa mga kaibigan mo
Hindi rin ako ang laman ng mga kwento mo
Ang una **** matakbuhan sa tuwing may problema ka

Mas lalong hindi ako ang hanap-hanap ng mga mata mo
Ang kinabbabaliwan mo
Ang magiging kabiyak mo sa tamang panahon
Hindi lang ako naglakas ng loob na sabihin sa iyo noon

Ang una **** tatawagan sa tuwing nag-iisa ka
Alam kong hindi ang text o tawag ko ang una **** sasagutin
Hindi rin ito ang laging inaabangan mo
Alam kong kung paano mo ako tingnan ay iba

Iba kung paano mo siya tingnan
Iba kung paano mo siya mahalin
Kung paano mo siya alagaan
Alam kong hindi ako ang mundo mo

Ang unang iikot at tatakbo sa isipan mo araw-araw
Alam kong hindi ako ang iniisip mo araw-araw
Alam kong kaibigan lang ang tingin mo sa akin
Alam kong parang kapatid lang ang pagtrato mo sa akin

Alam kong hindi ang kamay ko ang unang hahawakan mo
Alam kong hindi ako ang unang lalapitan mo
At unang hahanapin mo pagkadilat ng mga mata mo
Alam kong hindi ako ang unang yayakapin mo

Alam kong hindi ako ang unang liligawan mo
Alam kong hindi ako, Oo
Noong una pa lang alam ko na
Na hindi ako ang tinitibok ng puso mo

Ang iyong unang sinisinta
Alam ko noong una pa lang
Tinatak ko na sa isipan ko
Na wala akong puwang ni minsan man diyan sa puso mo

Alam kong ang bawat pagtingin mo sa akin
Ay iba sa kung paano mo siya tingnan
Kung paano mo siya kausapin
Kung paano ka magmalasakit sa kanya

Kung paano mo siya tratuhin
Ni minsan hindi ko inisip o hiniling
Na ibalik mo sa akin ang pagmamahal na ipinaramdam ko sa'yo
Ni minsan hindi ako nagdalawang isip na katukin yang puso mo

Baka sakali lang matanggap at mahalin mo rin ako
Baka sakali maisip mo rin na bigyan ako ng pagkakataon
Ni minsan hindi ako humingi ng kahit anong kapalit
Ni minsan hindi ko inisip na habulin ka

Na lumuhod sa harap mo at magmakaawa
Dasal lang ang kakampi ko
Na sana huwag kang magmahal ng iba
Na sana walang ibang naghihintay sa’yo

Na sana ako na lang ang mamahalin mo
Na sana dinggin na ng Panginoon ang hiling ko
Alam ko na hindi ako ang gusto mo
Noong una pa lang alam ko na

Kahit hindi mo sabihin
Ramdam ko naman
Ang mga panlalamig na trato mo sa akin
Ang pagbabalewala mo sa akin

Alam kong kahit kailan wala akong laban sa kanya
Kahit kailan hindi kita magawang pilitin
Ayaw kong ipilit sa iyo na ako ang piliin
Dahil alam kong siya ang gusto mo

Alam kong hindi para sa akin ang mga ngiti mo
Alam kong hindi ako ang gustong makausap mo
Alam kong hindi ako ang gusto **** makasama
Ang gusto **** makita kang tumawa.

Kahit kailan hindi ako magiging siya
Kahit kailan hindi ko kayang palitan siya
Diyan sa puso mo
Kahit kailan hindi ko magawang turuan ang puso mo

Na ako ang mahalin mo
Na ako ang pipiliin mo
Kahit kailan hindi ako ang nakikita mo
Sa tuwing magkasama tayo

Hiniling mo na sana siya na lang ang kasama mo
Na sana siya na lang ang nakausap mo
At ang nakakaintindi at nakikinig sa’yo
Kailanman magkaiba kami

At kahit bali-baliktarin man natin ang mundo
Kahit ikumpara mo man ako
Hindi siya magiging ako
At hindi rin ako magiging siya.
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
He was my moon
I was his stars
We shine so bright in the dark
Up in the night sky

Was it too soon?
To go this far
I left a mark
But I never try
Seeing you was black
Losing you was grey
Having you was red
Oh, being with you is yellow

I keep myself back on track
When skies turn grey
I am all alone in my bed
Thinking about all I know

Dreaming of you was my best habit to break
Losing you was beyond my control
It was the risk I could take
Losing you made me lose control

Oh, this love is fleeting
This love is reeling
I’m on the ceiling
I am in love with this feeling

You are the fuel to my fire
Come walk with me along the wire
Let us end in flames of paradise
You are my blessing in disguise
Aug 2023 · 83
21.24 (11-13-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Age does not matter
Inner beauty does matter
Outer beauty does not
Personality matters most

I love the way you touch my hand
I know it is your command
Love me more than I deserve
Cause I will love you more than what you deserve.
Aug 2023 · 115
Philautia. (11-20-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Strolling all alone in the sidewalks
Been too busy and too tired to talk
Oh, I am taking all the time
All alone but ain’t lonely

Oh, I am alone all the time
But I ain’t lonely
Hey, I was doing really just fine
Yes, I will be fine

I am taking all the self-worth I deserve
Feed me the love I deserve
I am satisfying myself with the self-love I deserve
Yeah, I deserve so much more than what I truly deserve

Been alone in the seaside now
Too many things going around my mind
I have been so busy now
I got to let myself find me

Know what else will be behind me
Know what I got to find
And oh, I have been managing my own time
The way you never reciprocate the time

I want to have
I got to have
I deserve to have
Oh, I am all that I have

Walking by the seaside aisle
Seeing the beach in a different perspective
Let us be lost in our way
And discover the world we live in

You got to give in
Walking that extra mile
Reaching the borderline
Life seems too obstructive

I got to say
I was alone but ain’t lonely
Say that I was lonely before but I was with you
What would be the difference?

I just want to be alone
At least I feel less lonely
There seems to be an occurrence
It was different when I was with you
Aug 2023 · 77
Boys (11-24-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I don’t need boys in my life
They need me
They want me
Because they want me in their life

You told me you loved me
But I end up chasing you
You showed me motives and assumed you love me
But I ended up stalking you

But I realized now my worth
And that is the truth

Guess I was only your past time girl
But not the girl you want to settle with
Guess I was only your hookup girl
But not as a potential lover you want to be with

I ain’t that girl who wants to be your slave
I want to bury my love for you
And bring it with me in my grave
Just to forget you

Boys only love to play games
But never even loved the fool
But what a shame
Because you look like a fool

Compared to me who never lose you
You lost me
Thinking that everything around you
And everything that revolves around you

Is just a game
Now that the cards are on the table
This feeling is no longer stable
I am no longer the same

Tables should be turned
Bridges should be burned
Every once in a blue moon
I fell out of love too soon

Never settle for a boy who just wants to have fun
Who just wants to be at the center of the spotlight?
That boy who wants to be always right
That boy who loves to be under the sun

I only love the players
But not the game
I only am disappointed in players
And I forget their names

In short, I never want boys in my life
Instead, they come for me
They need me, they want me
They love to have me in their life

I don’t need boys in my life
I live on my own
They only want me to be a part of their life
But nah, I chose to live on my own

Boys are like a poison in your mind
A toxic person in your life
A distracted and crazy you are what you will find
So never entertain them, so that you won’t have a miserable life.
Aug 2023 · 44
My view (11-24-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
That feeling of longing for something
Or for anything
In which you never know what it is
I hope to know what it is

That feeling of searching for something
That feeling I know that something is lacking
But never knew what it was
I hope I knew what it was
Aug 2023 · 53
CTRL. (11-14-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You stare like you wanna taste me
Lick me, eat me, bite me, **** me
You stare at me like you badly want me
Plead for me, beg for me
I know you wanted this
How you need this

Take your shirt off baby
And take off mine next
Or we help each other take-off each other's clothes
Take off my clothes
Then turn the lights off baby
This is more than just ***

We, make love, make love
We make love, make love
Can't control it any longer
Gotta do it with you forever

Drop my clothes on the bedroom floor
Make me want you more

Your warmth embrace, they still stayed in my skin
Your touch, your kiss took me to places I haven't been
Why you gotta be so keen?
This is more than just whisky and gin

You got me so drunk in you
Got me so drugged up in you
Your eyes looked at me like you wanted me forever
You ****** me up to own me forever

Serve you different positions
Give you all my attention
Praise you like a master
I both want it slower or faster

You marked me with how you taste, saying "this is my property"
So, no one could already take me away from you
I was always your consistent priority
That makes me special especially for you

There is something about you
That makes me say yes to whatever you say
It makes me say yes to whatever you want me to do

But baby, I keep telling myself to control what I feel
But it is so real that it makes me want to feel you
Smell you, touch you, be there for you, moan for you

I want you to feel the way I want you to feel
I want you to be crazy for me, chase me, want me, need me

I want to spoil you with whatever I have
Give you what I have
Give you the love and care you deserve
The sanity and peace of mind you deserve
Aug 2023 · 43
Midnight love (11-02-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
My midnight feels better when you're here with me
Midnight hits different when you're sleeping next to me
Watching you close and kiss your cheeks goodnight
I always loved this kind of midnight

When we never fight but made-love
The way we make-love

Seems like heaven is on our side
The touch is remarkable, unforgettable
It felt like I'm on top of the cloud nine
I was always fine
Because baby, you are mine
Then make me your bride
I’d always abide, confide

**** me how you want it to be
**** me the way I loved how you touch me
All the sweat, moans and gasping for air
Can’t you feel how I care?
I plead more of you, longs for you

I wanna hug you on cold days
Cuddle with you everyday
Aug 2023 · 55
bad habits. (10-25-2022)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I didn’t know why you got me so addicted to you
Your presence is all I ever yearned for
I’m not like this before
I was so in love with you

You made me feel like this
Crazier with you
You made me love you like this
Head over heels for you

You are my bad habit to break
You are both good and bad for my health
Your love is my wealth
You’re the best choice I make

You got me drunk in your love
It got me so in love
You got me intoxicated in your presence
It made me sad feeling your absence

It made me never wanna leave your side
Please make me your bride
I’d do anything to keep you mine forever
At least we’d be together

Got me addicted to you like a drug
Baby, your love is like a drug
Aug 2023 · 49
Gossips. (10-24-2022)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
It was not your side of the story to tell
You thought you knew me well
Well, you’re wrong
You’re wrong

It was not your side of the story to tell
Your ears are like bells
It rings and you gossip
You chill and take a sip

You don’t know what happened to me
You don’t have the right to judge me
You only know my story, not the whole me
So stop concluding what never happened to me

Don’t assume, never expect
Not everything I say is all about you
Never consume so much of what you wanna accept
Not everything is all about you

Do not disclose any confidential information about yours
Or they would use it against you
He tells stories from one another like he was on tours
It might break or ruin you

They are a two-faced *****
Trying to tear you down
But what they didn’t know is that I am indestructible
Wherein, their mouth itchy that needs to be scratched or ditch
I am not gullible
I’m just an observant ***** trying to tear you all down
Aug 2023 · 74
Cerberus. (10-23-2022)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
She growls like an uneducated, unmannered woman
She ain't an athlete
But she chases a man like she's on a marathon
She's a desperate woman
But a ***** you could easily defeat
With just a blow, she loses and I won

Why does she chase him?
When he already loved another
Why does she still stay and never let go of him?
They're no longer meant for each other

She’s just wasting her entire life
Her entire time just for him
He doesn’t deserve to be his wife
He’s too good for him

She lost her entire life trying her best
To be loved by him was a test
She was fooled and used
She was gullible and it’s no use

"Let them bark like Cerberus", said she
“Let them howl like she’s more beautiful than Venus”, said she
But she’s the real Cerberus
Chases and forces herself to be loved by

She's nothing compared to me
She's no match for me

She was more than what he meets in the eyes
She was once the apple of his eyes
Her life is filled with lies
She is comforted with lies

And is hurt by the truth
She never knows nor values her worth

She was beautiful but has poor judgment of character
She lets other people down
To gain self-satisfaction from others
She didn't even know she's already down

She bangs like a rifle
Explodes like a missile
She's so gullible in one in a million
She no longer has companion

She’s a trophy wife
Such a life would become bitter strife
A desperate, pathetic *****
No cure would get rid of the itch

Maybe her mouth needs stitching
Cerberus is quite noisy to be barking.
She is destined for growling, for howling

“I’m an educated *****”, said she
But Cerberus is a well-mannered *****, said he
Aug 2023 · 50
Seizeeee. (10-23-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Got me blinded by the probe lights
          It got me nauseous
          But I’ve been cautious
          Got my mind static to see bright flashing lights

          I’m so depressed
          Stressed
          I intake medicine to relieve the pain
          But I’m no longer numb enough
          To not feel the pain
          I know life is tough

          Can’t control my mind
          My mind controls me
          Can’t control my thoughts
          I overthink nonsense thoughts

          There’s an aura before it starts
          It brings strange smells and tastes
          Tingling sensations, a feeling out of control
          It brings memory slips and confusion

          I’m so fatigued
          Exhausted and weak
          Emotional waves, anxiety at its peak
          Fear and euphoria, they both intertwine

          But the thoughts keep racing
          They won’t slow down
          In this storm of sensations
          I’m caught in between

          So I take my medicine
          Hope for relief
          It’s a battle each day
          Amidst disbelief
Aug 2023 · 50
Inlove (10-23-2022)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Red orange sunset skies
Deep blue sea
Barefoot walking on the sand
With my slippers on my hand

Hold hands as we walk by
Never thought of loving you could be this high
I felt so free, when you're with me
I felt so safe and secured, your love's so pure

I wanna hug you tight, love you right
Be with you day and night
Like the stars we shine bright

I wanna try it all, try it all with you
I wanna try it all, try it all with you
Kiss under the rain
You take away the pain

Road trip, sound trip
Camping, hiking
Sleep in the tent with you
Cooking, grilling with you

Sitting by the fire next to you
Swim in the deep sea of blankets with you
Make love with you
Cuddle with you

You, I wanna try it all with you
I’ve been the best version of me because of you
You, you loved me with all of you
I wanna try it all with you

When you call my name
I'm no longer the same
When you loved me now
I wanna keep you now

I've never been more sure before
I've never felt this before

You've been my favorite since then
But now I couldn't remember when
Why is the sky blue?
You've always been my best view

You gave me everything, gave me the world
The universe, the love I deserve
I’m not asking for anything, without a word
But you gave me things not everyone could afford to give me

You loved me more than anything
Crowned and praised me at my best
Corrected and comforted me at my worst
Baby, I’ll always be your queen, so be my forever king
Aug 2023 · 53
9-13-22 (9-13-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I didn't expect for you to arrive so soon
What I felt was so over the moon
When I met you, it was something special
This love was rather emotional or sentimental

Seeing you smile and happy made my day complete
While holding my hand or hugging me made my heart beat
Our blissful nights are for *******
And our glory mornings are for *******

What would life be without you?
Would life be worth living without you?

All my better days are the ones spent with you
I would never finish falling in love with you
And in the middle of my mess and chaos, there was you
Baby, your arms felt like home

With you, it will always feel like coming home
Then and now, my heart made its choice and it chose you

When I'm with you, I always forget my problems and sorrows
Only you can make me smile even in my lowest of lows
And only you is proud enough to love and accept me
Right before we became lovers

I knew that we were meant to be together
That you belong with me

I just wanna give the love you never had
I just wanna see you being glad
No more room for loneliness
I hope with me is where you would find your long lost happiness
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Your absence left a hole in my heart
I hate the feeling that my heart was tearing apart
How I miss your presence being next to me
But why, I don't understand you, leaving me

Why didn't you wait for me
Now you're there lying cold six feet below the ground
I know your presence is still around
But now I'm drowning in my own misery

I miss the way you call my name
How you laugh and you smile
It made me happy too even just for a while
How I fix you in my gaze
I miss your pretty, angelic face
But when you left, I'm no longer the same

I still feel you here, here with me
Although I already felt lost
Dancing on my own with your ghost
I still need you here with me

Where were you when I need you most
I still can't believe it
I can't seem to get over it
Now that you're gone
I'm left here all alone
Wish you were here with me, I need you most

The sky is gloomy, I am moody
The weather is so cold
Yes I've been told

The wind flies away south
Gotta forget what this is all about

Now that you're gone
You're no longer here
When everything is said and done
I still want you here
Aug 2023 · 53
CRZY (8-27-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Been staring at you for a while now
Been imagining positions in the back of my mind
How to ******* in different positions now
This is the holy grail you will ever find

I know you want this
How badly you need this
You deserve so much more
I know you want more

Come here and *** for me
I want you to *** inside me
Make me ***** baby
Make me drive you crazy

You always keep coming back for more
I know you want more
Let me be there for you
Satisfy you, gratify you

Make your rocket alive
Let me drive
Let me be the one to break you
With my bare hands and **** body
Moan you, urge you, want you
Keep it steady
Aug 2023 · 41
To see you (8-26-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You lift me up the way I lift you
Together we help each other out
Figuring our way out
Into this problematic world of ours

You know I always care for you
What we had, what we own was ours
No one else would ever come in between
Here we are, through thick and thin

You always had me at our best and worst
I have always found you when you’re lost
Baby, don’t worry, I will always be here
Loving you, even if I’m far or near

You will always have my heart
To have and to hold
Your worth for me was gold
Your worth is more than a 24 karat

I would always want to hold your hand
Never want to let it go
This love may be sweet, salty, bitter or bland
I would always love to have you

This is the best love I have so far
It got me wishing on a shooting star
I may never have anything
But I can give you everything.
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