I’ve been living in fear these past months.
I’ve been treading slowly,
Trying to figure out what’s next
Trying to navigate a world of possibilities
As the Fear of the
Unknown creeps in.
As I take a step into the direction of a beautiful future,
I question whether or not I deserve it
I question If I’m on the right path,
And if I belong there
But most importantly, If I’m with the right people
I Fear
Loneliness.
As I continue to find my community and form relationships,
I fear this feeling will be the bane of my existence
And nothing in this world could amount
To filling this hole, that’s inside of me
Alienation taints me as I see the clock moving
I Fear
Time.
It’s our greatest enemy.
I often wonder if my life will be pressured by it
I wonder if time will somehow make me less authentic
With my approach with life by Forcing myself to live it at its “fullest”
And this somehow results to the fear of,
Greed.
Not enough Time to see through all the possibilities
You see, I’m selfish. I want to know every outcome of every choice
And how it’ll benefit me
I Fear that I’ll be too busy trying to fill up my needs
And ignoring what’s in front of me
Fear that my humbleness is gone and the authenticity fades away
By the time I close my eyes, for eternity.
I fear,
Death.
What legacy will be left behind?
Will my perseverance be recognized
By having these fears, push me to be a better person,
Or how I let them control my essence
By not allowing myself to be in the moment
I fear
Regret.
To live a life always questioning,
Feeling lonely, a mental slave to my head
Letting time pass me by,
Only to be feign and egocentric.
Regretting this life and moving on
To the next
With a bigger hole than the last one.
A restless soul that goes into this cycle,
Each hole bigger than the last life,
Eventually joining the abyss.