If I had the guts to say it all to your face
This is what I would pull myself to say

From the day we met, to the day today
I have longed to empty this space
Your pale skin, your angled chin
Those eyes that pull every inch of me in
I hardly can look, it feels close to sin
Heartbreak from the words you say
To the words you have never said
I wished on so many stars
I threw away so many flowers

Are you interested in knowing
How far I can fall?
If I started from heaven
I would reach hell within your arms
Kissing you would be unreal
I am not sure If I would even feel
My body would go so numb, I know I would die
I would die to feel those lips
I will die thinking of this destruction
Running after tomorrow for you are my star

Are you here to break my heart?
Do  these words make you laugh
Do I look as though a fool
My mind to the sky and heart too
Floating up too far
Just a speck to you
Oh do I make you laugh
Am I the only one feeling
These ridiculous lines?

You are a world to my sky
A note to every song
A color to every picture
you are everywhere
you are everything
and I am okay
continuing
inside
this
dream

I look around and I see the sound of wishing
Through the walls, out into the sky
I hear a call, I know it is probably a lie
Enticing as it all seems, I know how a belief
Can torment one's own mind
His face has dug deep into my flesh

I will break my way into his garden
Barefoot I sink into the thorns
He can never notice the blood or me
I am almost completely certain, he knows hardly
I will walk and derange my mind
I will not talk, the screaming that billows
Bouncing through my mind
I don’t trust my judgment of myself
Again and again I put this love
Away and then too close
For the rest of my life
I will hold onto every piece
The memory, the dreams
Of wanting you

Every fiber of my being is dying, or so it seems
This unbearable desire is ripping at my seams
I have wondered through these dreams
Lost in a castle in the sky, you sleep there
I dream of your heavy eyes,
You whisper to me like the sun shines
Drifting from this to reality
It bruises me
Black and blue
Everyday
I die
You
Will never
Know
why