i have to accept that i can never have you the way i once did before. i didn't want to be like anyone else i wanted to be an experience that you've never had but instead it was another scratch off your list and now i'm here to wish i avoided it all. see with you i let my guard down, there was nothing we couldn't talk about there was nothing you didn't know and that's why i loved it so much. our love had no rules we went with the feels and **** was it real everything intense and sweet and the *** always had me weak. we were friends before it all started and sadly that's where it can never return. They say some people are in your life for a season & I think that's the reason for our fall.

sometimes I don't want to
I don't want to be seen
I don't want to be heard
I simply want to be loved... on my good and bad days, my happy and sad days. I have them more than you notice you just choose not to focus on my words or my tone that's why I prefer being alone. You call it running I call it escaping, thoughts of my life driving me crazy. Hold me as your heart brings me comfort, I no longer feel alone. I wish I didn't have to beg for you to get off your throne.

you take me to a place i've never been. thank you for letting me win. the love you give, words can't explain. what did i do? what did i do to get this? how can something so wrong feel this right? how can someone love me like this? God i ask so many questions in need of understanding. i don't know how to let go, why give me something i can't have? why give me something i can't keep, started something that can't easily be broken. got me torn all apart, i don't know what to do with my heart. mind forever pondering what to do, what to do, the last thing i want to lose is you. judgement from every corner so i keep to myself can't have my judgement day based off others opinions so she's unknown. nothing to know nothing to see, can i just be happy?

you've allowed every thought every feel overwhelm you. shout and scream do as you please just don't look back, there's always a trap. you let yourself go but you fail to see you've always had a hold, "free your mind and everything will follow" this pain seems so hard to swallow. it's all temporary you will soon see just keep looking in the mirror and allow yourself to be whatever it is that makes you feel complete. not every question deserves an answer not every action deserves your attraction be still and know and your actions will show that you've overcome one of your hardest battles.

We faded and I hated every bit of it. I knew we weren't to last being that we started in such a hopeless place. I loved it and made it my home, your arms so comforting, everything became my own...temporarily, I hated that I had to share. You made me feel so free I swear, I never expected - well never wanted you to leave me, I hope forever in your heart is where you always keep me. "Love is patient, Love is kind" we fail to mention how it is also blind, never close as it unfolds just keep yourself together. I hate that I let the absence of your love get me so under the weather.