No need to fear
Death is here
Bringing nature to an end
So we can begin again

Dear God who brought me to me knees
I know you've never answered me yet
But please answer my pleas
I have paid so many debts
Without racking up any fees
And before I succumb to this disease
Knowing why before I die
Is the only thing can put me at ease

Why was a child defiled
Ravaged brutally when I was innocent
Molested till I was in my own imprisonment
Making me punish my self in equal equivalent
Living a life where death was always imminent
Now Before I go I have to know
Where you just ambivalent?

It may be love
But you will find
It's better to rise above
While you leave me behind

For ever I desire fire hire
Though this conspire requires providers to meat a fate most dire
I would be a liar to say I tire of their screams like a choir
Though inspired after what transpired
I'd still admire a survivor as a conscience purifier
For I wish for a pyre that doesn't acquire souls to sire
But I am not a crier, nor its designer and will comtinue to be the supplier of flesh until I retire and pay for all my sins with all my being and every fiber
For my sin to be burned entire for eternity by the fire I will always love and desire
And when a pay my price I will demand the flames higher

No where or one is home
...Alone
Forced to roam
With other's sins I try to atone

I feel like it is useless trying
No point in crying
I don't want to be lying
But no one would take me in with all the pain I am confiding

It is worse then dying
And with every day the future becomes more terrifying
For now I must face every thing on my own
...Alone

I wish I could cry
I wish I could escape my fears
But sadly i am ready to die
After all of the abuse over the years
I wish I could end it with tears

Just surrender
You can no longer defend
Your wounds are sore and tender
It is time to mend

You are not a preteder
This is a mountain you can ascend
Just remember
You will make it in the end

I can't explain how I pick them
I don't want to trick'em
But when I do it's your night
I want to be treated you right
Before your my victim

I want you you at ease
I want you on your knees
Because when I feast
I don't say please

I don't expect you to understand
To expect you to know
But to get my fill
I must go in for the ****

Blood against the walls
Screams down the halls
And after it all
I'm alone with just skulls

I don't know how to explain it
I don't know what to say
But when there is blood on your hands
It'll never wash away

**** it
I will no longer be controlled like a puppet
The world is insane
And you, me and all the Gods are to blame
But I am going to stop it
And no longer live my life the same

I have bin taken
By the seductive sounds of Satan
My mind has bin awaken
At the cost of forever being forsaken

But don't pray for me
For I am finally free
And when I pay my fee
All of hell will see
I will meet my doom unshaken

I would give my blood for love
Happiness for the stars above
But there is only so much mud I can take
And so my scars before I break

Sweet sensual singing
The melody sways while I am slowly sinking
Put to ease my erratic thinking
If only time had no end
Swiftly I descend
From caressing to stinging
I can't defend
Pulled away from the pillowy breast I was clinging
To the sea I am condemned

My mind is yearning
Fires churning
Gears pull and turning
But with every pass my soul is burning

I have bin lost for years
Thinking it was a brave new world
And all I needed to be happy was soma
But I have lived a life that has brought many to tears
And to me it just felt like a coma

Sounds reverberating in my ears
My eyes have bin forcefully unfurled
A rotting putrid smell replacing the sweet aroma
I must awaken to face the horrors and my fears
Because if I don't make things right no one els is gonna

The past has become scars and pains
Trapped in its bars and chains
Let's look towards the stars and move forward with what remains

The poisonous deadly floral rose
Just a flower on a stick in a sensual pose
There's a joyfulness power that only a true admirer (knows / will expose)
But soon they all see the pointlessness while its aroma hits their nose
Because with a swift ***** they die painfully contemplating as their final hour goes

Lost in devastation
Fighting of inebriation
Hopelessly lost
Clawing out at all cost
To divert Death's sweet sedation

12:00 am, The 13th of Friday
Under the full moons light
I will end things my way
This time it'll be done right
No need to search
In front of the church
In plain sight
Under the crane's sway
My body will lay

I timed this to message your number
So try don't and call
As you slumber
I will fall
And with a  swan dive
I'll end it all

I don't want a grave
No one to save my ash
No a funeral or mass
And if my soul refuses to pass
I want to be drugged to end any pains
Plugged into my veins
And then to be unplugged
With my young brother to own my art and property that remains

I wish this wasn't the end
But it was a fate I couldn't defend
Since I had a father
Who did more then viciously beat me since I was a toddler
And a Mother
Who saw saving me as an inconvenient bother

But I hope you don't cry
Even though I will die
I will always be your baby bird
But at least now I can fly

I want to die
But I can't say bye
It's hard to justify
I would be a disgrace
For those I chose to mortify

I got to try
But my feelings intensify
Try not to cry
Put on a brave face
Or a filthy lie

I can't untie
But I feel like a spy
Any one can identify
With just the trace
Of a look in my eye

I want to fly
But I can't even get by
I can no longer deny
I can't keep this pace
My end is nigh

My soul has already bin shed
A statuette of the forgotten; forsaken
But wires fill my veins
A spirit in my head
A marionette of the dead
rotten, for the taken
Don't mind it's pains
It is made for breaking

I prayed for peace
I prayed to mend
I prayed so long
I felt condemned

I feel sick
Rotten to the core
All I want to do is quit
I can't take it any more

Nothing I do will stick
And just makes me feel more sore
I think about ending it
But I can't loose this war

I know there's no trick
To make me feel like I did before
But I'll keep on trying to make some thing fit
Because I believe life has more for me in store

(Version 1)
No one can solve all their problems on their own
But I have bin left behind
Alone
With a broken heart
A disheveled mind
I wish this wasn't my ending but the start
And that there is strength left to find
So I can finally atone
And finally call my self a home
But I remain confined
Alone

(Version 2)
No one can solve all their problems on their own but I have bin left behind alone. With a broken heart, a disheveled mind, I wish this wasn't my ending but the start and that there is strength left to find. So I can finally atone and finally call my self a home but I remain confined alone.

When you look at me
Just another person is what you see
But there are thing you don't know
That people are more then they seem to be
And when you think I am alone with no place to go
That's when I am truly free

Love maybe a flame
But to others it's smoke
And even though it's stoked
It still remains cloaked
Never to be attained

Girl:
I love you
and care
      Boy:
I love you too
We just have to rise from this despair?
        Girl:
I hope it can be true
Or els life isn't fair
                                      (Maybe one more line)
         Boy:
We will make it threw
Don't worry I'll always be there
And with a love so true
There is nothing we can't bare

When I'm at home I don't pray for Jesus
I pray we all die alone
and it ends in pieces

I open my eyes to the open skies
The wind blows away my tears as I cry
I am horrified of the highs and all the times I died
But my fears shed away as I arise
I break away from my mortal ties as I begin to fly
My nightmares are gone and my dreams again comprise
No longer will I meet my demise
For once again I am free to fly into my sunrise

For along time my heart was at war
I was racing for the grave
But finally I see life for some thing more
Yet I am still fates slave
Because now I have cancer knocking at my door
But I still I won't cave
Because I finally have some one to adore
And it helps to make me brave
Now no matter what the future has in store
I know the life I have left will be saved

Oh sweet princess of the queens
You teem in my thoughts and in my dreams
I would kiss you by any means
But all we have are our distant screams

I know I'm not a demon
And I sure ain't no saint
But I hope one day my soul can be happy
Even if it's faint

I used to wonder why we are born
And why we die
Why we laugh
And why we cry
How I can be happy and still have a tears fill my eye
Or have a smile on my face as I am chocked expecting the end is nigh

But as I grow older it is plain to see
It was better to to beat to life's drum
Then to become numb
And have nothing effect me

Kiss me, I'm dreaming
And I can't stop screaming
I can't hide the scars in my soul and my heart bleeding
And Soon when I die I won't wake up and it won't be fleeting
And when I open my eyes from this vicious beating
Thats when the real nightmare and I will be meeting

Love is a game
Causing sickness and pain
But even though most of us have lost
We play it again

But I can not lie
Don't ask me why
I'll pay the cost
And play till I die

Death is coming
It's coming fast
No use in running
Life wont last

But while you still have your freedoms
Before that day
Make peace with your demons
Before you burn away

I pray to the dead and the rotten
For they are truly free
I pray for the lost souls forgotten
Because that's where all my friends may be

I pray for them so often
That I hope I pay my fee
Because one day I'll be rotten, dead, lost and forgotten
And I hope some one will pray for me

I must be a fool
For loving one so cruel
And being faithful
To a monster so hateful

But sill I stick to your side
Because I'm addicted to your rules I abide
And hopefully one day
I'll have the strength to walk away

In me there's a fire burning throughout
A passion waiting to be inflamed
I'm yearning to let it out in one big shout
But I'm afraid I'll get burned and maimed
For now ill just have it churning as I slowly let it out
Until I have it tamed

When you asleep at night and hear blood curdling screams
Do you wake up to the light and wonder what it means
Even though it's a controlling fright you don't dare find out what teems
It's better just to tuck your self in tight and pray for sweeter dreams

Do you also hide from terrors in the night
Praying for a light
Holding your breath to not make a sound
Hoping you won't be found

Do you also hide from your thoughts in the day
Praying to get away
Holding yourself together for a time
Hoping to leave it behind

I's a shame
Satan knew my name
I'm a dead man
Or worse
Save me from this cures

This feeling wont wain
Lucifer save me from this pain
My name is all I am
Satan speaks rhymes same as man and cures, go with indies song, punk guit, rain, destructions but only chorus

Baptizing
Water rising
Your freedom comes today
Because you can float away

E E EEE   E    B   A
This is it, im dying
This will be me legacy
It wont be much
But it's worth trying

I am sick of being being alone
I am sick of crying
Let peace be onto me
And Let this be undying

My heart has paid a fee
I turn a blind eye to what I see
My philosophy has become hypocrisy
What has become of me?

I believe in a Demon who lives inside my head
He's scratching and screaming, he wants to be fed

Tears, fears and things better left unsaid
Horrors appears as my thoughts are led

He's like a toxin rotten my brain with a constant spread
I hope all is forgotten as I shoot myself dead

I remember love
I remember it tasted like sugar
But as I look back it tastes bitter
And the more I think of
All the sensual dances are now satanic slithers

Pleasure
Pain
In love
Insane

Sever
Maim
Whomever
Who's to blame

Aggressor
Refrain
Forgive forever
For peace to maintain