Young man, its time to wake up.
Your love affair with death has got to go.

From many long years, you have to rake up.
The Leaves from the past.

Slow suicide is no way to go.

Blue, colored gray days
Dizzy weakend by the haze
Infection is not a phase

The cracks and lines from where you failed.
They make an easy man to read.

For all those times you bleed.
For a little peace from God you plea and beg

Your not a fake now, so wake up.
Now is your time not to go.

Shedding my skin,
I've been picking my skabs again.

I'm digging down through,
my old muscles looking for a clue.

I've been crawling on my belly,
clearing out what could of been.

I've been wallowing in my own,
confused and insecure delusions.

For a peace to cross over me,
or a word to guide me.

I want to feel the changes come down,
an know what I've been hiding in.

My shadow change is coming through my shadow.
Clearing out what could of been.

I want to feel the change consume me,
from my shadow within.

I've been holding on to your thirst,
while my mouth is dry with hurt.

I would travel the endless desert sands
To one day make a angry stance.

As you push my emotions, through my heart.
The feelings that I get , wish you for dead.

With dreams of you, drowning in my hate
With no one to save you, from the pool of hurt.

As you drown in your own self pity.
I will never again give you my life.

As I creep through darkness,
stabbing at air.

Just like my life,
that is going nowhere.

I look for a light,
but i only see pain.

Pain and misery,
of the places I've been.

As I crawl through my tears,
of shattered glass.

I bleed from my knees,
I bleed from my past.

Consumed with illusions
Of a life to be.

A life of freedom,
from this pain within me.

I hope and wish to clear this path.
The path of my past of shattered glass.

As I hop, skip and jump
Over the humps

The humps of my dreams
Of my life to be

Now jumping on nothing
Of no life to be

Feeling the darkness
Of a life to be

My life will be nothing
It will be filled with fear

The fear for a life
A life that I need

Just as quite as a pin drop
You can hear my heart beat
As you near me.

My mouth gets very dry
As I try to speak to you

But it's dusted with love
And it's full of heat.

Heated with passion
From your beauty

With beauty of love
With love and kindness

Your sensuous eyes
Your sensuous lips
Your sensuous ways
Is what drives me crazy

My love for you is so extreme
I would give up my life
To fulfill my dreams

I wrote to you,
You wrote back in no time
And I felt the reality in your sentences
My first letter
"Baby I need you,I miss you please make a point we have a date"
You replied,
"I am quite busy and a little bit broke for a date now,I don't know what you can do"
I replied
"Its alright my dear ,but please do not quiet to that extent of not greeting me,I need hear you"
You replied
"Maybe you should do that instead"
I replied
"But baby you sound harsh,I mean love,I love you and you are my only one, nobody else in my life...sincere!
You replied
"There is no love between us,there is just time wastage in between"
I replied
"Don't **** me,my instinct touched and held you for a decade now"
You replied
"That was  false,kindly know that no thread lie between us"
The only problem
My silent letters
Are running within my head..

Excuse my writings today

I've been filled with love, hurt and pain

                              Sorry