I used to hate goodbyes,
So every time we parted
We said,
"See you tomorrow"
"See you later"
"See you whenever"
Because it left the hope
Of seeing each other again.
I've started saying my goodbyes now
And I think it's because
When you left me
I really felt what goodbye was
Supposed to feel like.
I didn't like it.
I still don't.
But now that I know
What never seeing you again
Feels like,
It is a lot easier to say
Goodbye to everyone else.

The caressing wind
Brushed against the
Careful gaze of lilies
Across the folds of the
Honest chaos.

I never knew of
A person who would threaten
Me behind tulips.

Glare to the end of the tunnel and
Swear you will get through it because you are the
Heir of your own future and hang in the
Midair that is almost
Nowhere and be thankful that you don't have to
Share who you are or your
Lair with anyone if you do not want.

Stare at the edge of the
Air and love
Where you you are and
There you will find your
Pair of eyes work and you won't
Tear up your thoughts and theories or
Dare to give up on yourself.

I'm young
But I am not reckless.
Everything must be
Strategically
Thought
Out.

No audible dialogue,
       but I still hear
       your voice in my
       head.

No tangible embrace,
       but I still feel
       your arms wrapped
       around me.

No sincere promise,
      so you still let
      me down all the
      time.

I really hope the
Unseemly image of me
Burns right through your soul.

Struggling to keep up
I gasp and grasp onto
The ideals proposed by those before
Studying every inch of the cascade
Falling just out of tangible recognition.

There are roses on her ceiling,
But you're climbing through the stars.
She can feel your every footstep
Along the pathway to get back into her arms.

They keep tugging on her eyelids,
And trailing down along her cheeks.
You tried to keep the whole thing quiet,
But it's already been six whole weeks.

You came to borrow
But only stole
The things of sorrow
And made them gold.

Time is so fleeting
But never ends
So for our next meeting
Let us be friends.

You claimed to love
And give affection
But from above,
I see perfection.

It never is
Just as it seems
And you always
See my bursting seams.

You make me strong
And feel at ease
I know it's not wrong,
So just love me please.

On Monday I feel close to death.
Tuesday and Wednesday stay in bed.
Thursday I found out what you said
But it's Friday, I fell out of love.

I have a wish:
I wish to be with you,
And lie under the stars with you.
Gazing at the constellations
To interpret what we see in them.

I seem to be opposite most people.
I see the past in the sun,
In the light.
I see the future in the stars,
In the dark.

For me,
It is easier to make it through the night
Than through the day.

I'm happy I met
                          & loved
                                      & lost you.

You know it's real love
When it haunts you
For weeks
                & months
                                & years.

But I'm happy
To feel this pain
Because it lets me know
I'm alive
             & can feel
                             & can love again.

Sometimes, I mistake hate for love.
Both feelings are so strong
And can grow and shrink the same.
That's why I thought I still loved you.
I'd loved you for years,
And I thought that any feelings I had
Would be love for you.
I was confused because I'd only ever loved you
So this new feeling I mistook for love.
It grew and shrank.
That's the reason why
I felt nothing when you last kissed me.
I'll come to terms with that someday.
For the past few months,
I thought what I felt was love,
And I thought I would have to forget about it,
But now I know I already did.
I've been living my life
Trying to forget that I love you,
But what I really need to do
Is learn how to live hating you.

The world seems to be growing darker
That's what happens in winter.
The days get shorter and the nights get longer,
But my nights were already long to begin with.
My days are long too.
Everything seems so difficult.
Lifting my arm is hard labor.
I wonder when these hard times will end.

You asked me what's on my mind
And I said nothing
Which isn't a bad thing
Because to me "nothing" is an open possibility.

You never accused
me of being unrelenting,
so why are you?

"You're so cute when you do that."

Do what?

"You know, that thing you do."

No, please tell me what it is so I never do it again.

Typically I don't do this
I'm afraid this isn't going to be good
And all I want, is to impress you.

Somewhere in the forest
Where we truly met,
We walked along the highway--
It was soaking wet.

You took my hand and pulled me
Further from the lights,
"Just pass the edge of darkness
and we'll make it through the night."

Somehow I believed you
I listened to your words,
I clung to every sentence
Like it was the first I'd ever heard.

I saw you take your mask off,
But I didn't shy away
Because you told me that you loved me
And I believed it anyway.

You cheated and abused me
More than a person ever should
And I vowed that I'd avenge this--
As if I even could.

And everyday
My bones break my fall
From sanity
Into love.

I would stop all my
Lying, but it is my sole
Attempt to forget.

I'm not saying
My way is the right way,
But people hurt people,
So why do we name
Inanimate objects after them?

The monster between you and me
Is beautiful
(And lovely)
There is already a long distance
Between us.
Why must you insist on leaving?

Breath
Skin
Lips
Sin
Melt
Eyes
Touch
Lies
Heat
Stain
Bury
Pain
Guilt
Fa­me
Torture
Shame

I know the error of my ways
Is far more valuable
Than the attempt to be breathtaking.
There is a poor result due to
My lack of kindness.
For some reason,
My heart won't warm to
The standard of living.
Cold takes over my body-
My hands like ice
Trace the constellation of
Flowers in the garden of your mind.
Diluting the individuality,
Accentuating a new found harmony
Between your words and
My breath.

Your love is so much more than a burden.
A pardon.
An excuse to cut me down when you want.

And I'm done trying to piece it all together
For better
Because the worst comes along when I'm with you.

I will never be someone's first option.
I get that,
Or at least I am trying to.
But for once I actually thought
That I might not get used.
Maybe that's all I'm good for.
And maybe I'm taking this all too far-
And too personally.

walk left.
  miss Washington DC to down rainy night
sadness cries
a monster is still at peace

die if I cry

somebody happy
about you.

Just because you think you are living happily ever after,
Opposition can take place
Even when you least expect it.

I thought you would make
Me beautiful, but you just
Thrived on my slow death.

You have stood me up
On two occasions.
One date we were
To meet at the art museum.

I stayed there for
Three hours
Looking at the artwork
And writing poetry.

For a while, I truly
Thought you'd show up,
But as I moved along
Through the gallery,
I knew you weren't coming.

The other date was
To an underground coffee shop.
I was also there for three hours.

I got a table in the red room
And sat there waiting.

I sipped on my London Fog
And looked across the table at the
Coffee I ordered you.

You never showed, but
After a while,
I just stopped checking my phone.

And as you forgot about me,
I forgot about your coffee
As I sat there writing about
How I'll never forget you.

And I
In my infinite wisdom
Just replied
That I'd love to see you again.

You are as fickle as a newborn
Thunderstorm
Causing the rain to
Start and stop
Start and stop
As drops fall down my cheeks.

The itch
Was meant to be taken care of.
I scratch until I bleed,
But he ****** my blood out already.

The cringing sigh
Conjured the moon
To sanction light
Into the depths of the
Fragile stillness.

Love like laughter
Lives forever
Your love is my heart
From which you will never part

Maybe we can
Endure forever
Your love is my fire
That fuels my desire

You are half of my whole
Your love is forever burned into my soul

You are who I've been looking for
Your love is everything to me and more

You have my heart

**You have my heart

I don't understand how love works
When you said you loved me,
You decided to kiss her.
When you said you needed me,
You resented the time we spent together.
When you said you couldn't live without me,
You moved to another state.
If this is love
Maybe it's fine that you're gone.

I'm not one to move this fast,
But please just do what you can.
Just kiss away the tears
Please kiss away the pain.

i cannot agree with the expression of sympathies in this day and age

you remind me of a winter's day
              TEMPERAMENTAL
and not at all genuine.

Well I'm pretty gone
You always leave when I need you most
What a charming coincidence
It's not strange it's every time now
That I go out
I'll stay in and make sure that you get back safe

Holding on
You drag me down I can't stay afloat anymore
To a false-hope cherry right on top
Your lies weigh like rocks and pierce holes like knives
Of this sundae
*A bitter reminder of your true devotion

I don't want you to be
A firework
You'd be beautiful
For only a second,
But I never want your love
To explode and never
Be seen again.

No matter what I write
It's BS
Sometimes it's a little better
When I wait to add the title
At the end.
That's what I'm doing now
And I am certain it is going to be...

There is never a time in
Which I feel more
Obsolete than when I
Am lying awake knowing
People are sleeping
Close by and I miss
The 11:11 wish.

I don't want my love to make you drunk
I want you to feel tipsy
There's just something so
Alluring about a man being tipsy
Tipping over the line of
Finally opening up.

When you want revenge
But you choose not to exact it,
You take it out on yourself
Because you shouldn't have let
Bad things happen in the first place.

I wait for the night
I long for your touch.
I wait for your heart,
But my pain is too much.

I live for your words.
I beg for your kiss.
I live for your love,
But it's too hard to miss.

I really want to commit.
It's so hard
You have such a beautiful mind
But it's so twisted
I know I can't trust you
And I know I can't make you better
I can't fix you
So I know I really should
Commit you.

­                  constantly
                                    ­                                             you      dragging
  ­                                                                 ­            to                     me
                                                              ­               opposed              d
                                          ­                                 at as                          o
                                   ­                                      to be                             w
                                ­                                       supposed                         n. . .
The                                                            ­   I'm                                       
     only                                                      baselin­e
      reason I                                             to the
           thought                                     me back
                I loved                                to get
                       you                            order
                         was                       made in
                            because           my body
                                of the        response
                                   compensatory

A letter arrives
With the stamp
Tilted to the left.

The contents of the letter:
I'm sorry to do this
But we can never see each other again
I can't do this anymore

I had never been happier.