Ever since I was a little girl
My dad always told me,
To treat others how you wanted to be treated
So I gave you my love
But you threw it away
I gave you my heart
But you stepped on it
I treated you the best I could
So why'd you chew me up and spit me out?

One million eyes
And I am so self centered to think
That they are judging me
One million negative thoughts are being fed to my brain
But they are just one million lies
Because out of one million people
The only one judging myself
is me

Hazel eyes
Long brown hair
Smooth skin
Beautiful
Dark thoughts
A war within
Such a pretty face
But such an ugly mind
What a waste

I remember the day she let him in
It was the same day I lost her
Our after school phone calls
Turned into ones at 3am
Where she was crying
Too ****** up to know I was on the other end
Bragging about accomplishments
Became bragging about the new things she sniffed
Talking about kissing boys
Became talking about *** she barely recalled

I remember the day she let him leave her veins
It was the same day she was mine again
She called me telling me about rehab
And I swear the light
That had disappeared in her voice
Was back
Tears shed from my cheeks
My beautiful mess was back
Please stay

What am I supposed to do when my ship is sinking?
When I try my best to hold up
But there is water coming through holes
Filling me up
And soon it will take over
I am the only one who can save me
But there are no more life vests
And the water is too strong to swim
And who wants to help a damaged ship
That's been broken one too many times

Some people love Winter
Some people hate Winter
Winter is unpredictable
It either stays too long
Or leaves too early
Your love came too soon
And left too quick
You left snowflakes
On my heart
Until it was completely frozen

Summer is wrapped in excitement
Summer lingers even when it's gone
Everyone loves Summer
But sometimes Summer is too intense
Summer always comes back just in time
To make me feel alive again
Summer melt all the ice
But burns a hole in my heart every time it leaves

Her mind was a battlefield
Instead of bullets,
Thoughts were being fired
Wounding her and making her weak
She was in a war against herself
A war impossible to win