Do you know what it's like?
Do you know how it feels to walk around day by day feleling lost?
Empty.
Hurt.
Do you know how it feels to cry yourself to sleep every night?
Because I do.
Do you know what it's like to force smiles?
Fake laughter.
Convince everyone that everything is okay, even if it isn't.
Do you know how it is to smile through tears?
Because I do.
Do you know what it feels like to be alone?
Wishing you had someone,
but when you reach out you find no one.
Do you know how it feels to cry out for help when you are falling, but you hit the cold floor instead?
Because I do.
Do you know what it feels like to feel hopeless?
Numb.
Invisible.
Do you know what anxiety attacks feel like?
Because I do.
Do you know what it feels like to lose the ones to love?
To have them ripped out of your life before you even could say goodbye.
To miss them every day, wishing you could hold them just one more time.
Do you know what it feels like to wish it were you dead and not them?
Because I do.
Do you know what it feels like to never be enough?
Not good enough.
Not smart enough.
Do you know what it feels like to be the ugly duckling no one wants?
*Because I do.

I've found it to be eaier to just keep to myself.

Not open up to anyone.

Because honestly,

who really gives a ****?