Stumbling down the winding
Road I start to question
Where I'm going
And my destination

Why do I walk and
What for and where
How does this help or hinder
Why should I even care

But I notice as I walk
The winding path made for me
There are many people stumbling
And obstacles they do not foresee

And I walk my winding road
Just trying to make it down
Like everybody else on the slippery hill
As the world keeps spinning around and around

Just like the sand in
An hour glass
Running in
And out

Never going anywhere
Sounds just tedious to me

I dont want to be sand
In an hour glass
I wanna be free
I want to be me

And what about
The clock without its hands
It still ticks
In the drawer

Broken, rusty
Never used any more

I dont want to be
Put in a drawer
Away, to be forgotten
I wanna have a legacy

I wanna be remembered
So dont forget me

What about the dusty
Books that sit on this shelf
Have you forgotten
Them also

Pages filled of dreams
Wishes, prayers, and imagination
Did you forget them too?

Well dont forget me
And my legacy
Remember me
Dont forget me

Dead and numb
I wake every morning
But you my darling
Awake with open eyes

After all this pain
You still love the world
You are still thoughtful
Precious and kind

Through all our trials
And tribulations
One thing has remained
A constant in my life

And that is you

You never said thank you
But I was still there
You never said sorry
And at first I didn't care

I just cared for you
And your emotions and your life
Your strife and the weight of
Self torture you carried in your
Forearms and thighs, stomach and chest

I knew I could save you
I knew I could help you rest
Even if only for a moment
I could kiss your scars
Lick your wounds clean

And at that time I didn't
Understand
That people can be mean
To those they love

So on we went
While I tried desperately to pull you
Onto level ground
With misguided intent

You fought my help
Thrashing through life
Like a wounded animal
Scurrying from every booming sound

After your blind rampage you let me go
I was afraid I would never feel whole
But you made me realize
I was only trying to fix what was
So twisted and cracked in my own soul

You and I are similar
But not the same
Both trapped inside screaming
Punished by our own brains

The difference between you and I
Is you only understand sympathy
You mind can't grasp the concept
Of another's reality
You lack empathy

So I'm not going to get
Down on my hands and knees
And say "pretty please"
And apologize just because
You're too much of a coward
To admit when you've down wrong

I will not say sorry for existing
I will not apologize for having feelings
I will not beg for your attention
Even though the silence is chilling
I have decided to respect myself

By letting you go

That's okay
I don't like me either

I don't quite know how
You knew but you did
I was about to cut up
When you calmed me down

You called me asking if I
Was fine, and I whispered
"I'm not" into the phone
And I started to cry

Thank you for knowing

Even the glass
In the old windows
Will eventually break

Even the foundation
Of this building will crumble
Into a pile of clay and ash

And the pillars that
Reach so high now
Will only stand a few feet tall

So what is it all for?
What is the purpose
Why build when all things seem
To do is crumble

The experience
The memories
Legends and stories passed down

Generation to generation
Will hear of the pyramids
And temples in Greece

So if you ever think
Whats the point
No one will remember me

Remember that you helped

You helped build these stone walls
Pillars that stand tall
And broken windows shattered into small

You matter

We desperately cling to
Love, no matter how
Terrible it may be

No matter if it hurts
Us and breaks our being
We just want compassion

So we hand it out
Like candy, something we can
Always obtain more of

But one day the candy well
Runs dry and when we're left crying
The ones who took leave us on the ground

They say we chase after
Love we think we deserve
That we want what we can't have

I never realised how true
The words rang until
It was too late

And now I'm faced with
The challenge every day
Because of what I think

I think I don't deserve love
Because I push them away
Where they should stay

I guess I am fortunate
I have discovered a person
Who thinks I am worthy of love

Even when I think
I am too scared, too nervous
Too ashamed or broken

Thank you for believing in me
When I cant even have faith
In my own self

I can't help but
Let the tone of
My voice change
As I wink, with love

My eyes glimpse at
A beautiful person
And my heart flutters
The world spins, in motion

Your subtle curves
Long body, thin
Your long but precise fingers
Let rest your chin

You lean into me
And your smell is intoxicatingly sweet
Your smile fragile
Your body radiating heat

You swing my way
And I'll meet you half way there
As your body draws into me
I attempt to show I care

People may stare when
We hold hand in hand
I stopped caring a while ago
This is our land

So let's kiss in public like normal
Let's talk sweet and sentimental
Because a girl and a girl can love
More than the judgmental