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18
Ellyn k Thaiden Aug 2013
18
18 seems so close
But so far away
It doesn't arrive quick enough
Here I don't want to stay
Ellyn k Thaiden Jul 2013
If you're having male problems
I feel bad for ya ***
I've got 99 problems
But a **** ain't one

I've not a care in the world
Not change in my pocket
My house is a wreck
Left my keys in my car after I locked it

Got a dad who screams
And a mom who fights
Have a friend who's pregnant
And a dog that bites

But what I don't got
To deal with at night
Is a man begging me please
And grabbing me tight

If you're having male problems
I feel bad for ya ***
I've got 99 problems
But a **** ain't one
A
Ellyn k Thaiden Mar 2013
***
Apathy and Abortions
Addictions and angry rage
Anchors holding us down
Animal inside us coming out

A fake world
Ellyn k Thaiden Jun 2014
I feel like I'm being shoved into all these little boxes, labeled "Teacher", "Doctor", "Psychologists", "Biologist", and "Computer Technician". But none of these fit me.

I am not cube shaped, no one is perfectly boxed. I feel like I'm drowning in these labels and I don't know how to swim yet. I'm only 17 and have no idea what I am doing tomorrow, let alone in the next three years.

Fearing something that hasn't happened yet, fearing a future that is so far but so close away, I find myself and many of my peers cram themselves into boxes.

Half of them don't want to be here either.

Growing up is romanticized into parties and friends and knowing exactly what you'll be doing tomorrow, in three years, in six, in eleven, in twenty. But I've watched my mother shake her head and cry, "I'm lost." I've watched her call her mother at two in the morning, lamenting, with tears falling on her breast. "I'm lost", she whispers.

That doesn't scream "having your **** together". She is 45 and she screams "I am human so help me".

I'm not sure what career I will choose, but I know what I want to be. I want to be Mother, I want to be Free. I want to be Cherished, and Good Natured. Auntie, Brave, Thoughtful, and Wife.

I want to be Happy.
Ellyn k Thaiden Jan 2014
I use to think I was the
One and only
Solitary wolf on my
Lonely journey into hell and

I would stay up all night wondering.
Why I had to be the one and only.
But I was foolish and one soon
Became a few.

And over the years and
After crying puddles of tears
A few slowly morphed into many.
And as that many grew

Into several, it became
Way more than just a few.
Now I stand with an ocean of faces
Of old and young.

Faces so new and fragile to
The harsh earth, and faces
Who know what its like to
Be broken down into so many pieces

That they truly believe that razor
Blades, pieces of hot metal,
Hair pulling and nail biting and
Hitting your head on a brick wall are

Solutions to the pain.
The pain we harbor and hold so dearly
To our fragile hearts.
Because without pain and loneliness

How do you live? After years
Of pain and self inflicted torture
How do you live a normal life?
How do you walk around like those

Years never happened to you?
I am starting to learn that
You just don't. You live and breathe
And you don't forget the past, oh no.

You just let the wounds scab over,
Like the cuts that used to fester,
And you learn to live again.
You can't go back and erase the past,

Believe me, I've tried! But you learn
That just because you're a little
Scratched up, doesn't mean someone
Won't see you're beauty.

So let the wounds heal over
And yes, go back and trace the scars with
Your fingers. Because that's not all of who
You are anymore. It's just a small part

Of your life.
Ellyn k Thaiden Dec 2012
Angel eyes
Watching me closely
Every move, that I make
Angel eyes
Watching my breath tonight
Oh my angel, watch me sleep

Cause your my angel
My ever loving angel
That will never change
Be my breath tonight

Angel wings
Embracing me
Closure to my aching heart
Angel wings
Shielding me
From my bad past, behind

Cause your my angel
My ever loving angel
That will never change
Be my breath tonight

And every time I fall
You will catch me
And every time I break
You'll put me back together
Every time I cry
You will whipe a way my tears
Oh angel, my angel

Cause your my angel
My ever loving angel
That will never change
Be my breath for life
This is actually a song.
Ellyn k Thaiden Feb 2013
A pet cemetery
You will find in yard
It lays there dead
The ground frozen hard

First a feline friend
And then my Angel Puppy
Now my baby boy Oreo
Have been ripped away

I regret not showing you
How special you were
Now my Angel Kitty
Is in heaven to purr

You were large
With ears like a satellite
I loved to cuddle
With you at night

But my bed is now cold
Empty where you laid
I hope you are happy
With the life we made
My cat got hit by a car. My dog was hit in Sept. I wrote a peom on that called Angel Puppy.
I feel numb. I had that neurotic cat for seven years. He was not just a cat. He did tricks and was sneaky and cunning. Quick and had a lick of sense in him.
He was my best friend.
I will miss you.
Ellyn k Thaiden Sep 2012
You were my brother
You were my friend
I was with you
To the ****** end

You were my comfort
You were my shelter
So sweet
My family's helper

You left so soon
Violently and fast
Those hugs and those kisses
Those were your last

Good bye angel puppy
Good bye best friend
I hope you were happy
In the end
This poem is for my first ever dog. Its hard to describe a loss. I have never lost someone close to me, and it might sound silly to some to be so broken after loosing an animal, bu he was not just an animal. He was my best friend. He was a part of my life every day. He is my Angel Puppy. He will be missed.
Ellyn k Thaiden Sep 2012
You were my brother
You were my friend
I was with you
To the ****** end

You were my comfort
You were my shelter
So sweet
My family's helper

You left so soon
Violently and fast
Those hugs and those kisses
Those were your last

Good bye angel puppy
Good bye best friend
I hope you were happy
In the end
This poem is for my first ever dog. Its hard to describe a loss. I have never lost someone close to me, and it might sound silly to some to be so broken after loosing an animal, bu he was not just an animal. He was my best friend. He was a part of my life every day. He is my Angel Puppy. He will be missed.
Ellyn k Thaiden Feb 2013
Hey foolish one
Why dont you sit down for a while
Why is it that you
Never smile

Look up at the sky
And just have some fun
Watching the clouds
Pass by you

Dont you ever think
Of flying in those clouds
Avoiding all the crowds
And just pray for the best

Let your soul fly free
Let yourself be you
Look up, and around
A world so knew
Let yourself be you
In those clouds

Lift your wings high
Dont be afraid
Let yourself drop
And trust in Him to catch you
A song. Unfinished. Duh.
Ellyn k Thaiden May 2013
You are my conscience
Whispering the rules of life
But you poisen my head
No I wont listen

Anymore

You say you know whats best
But clearly you still have tribulations
Tiny daggers peircing my esophagus
Keeping me from telling the truth

Not anymore

Will I let you cover my mouth
Bound and gag my own words
I will let them drip out
The way they were meant to

Anymore

And I might stop breathing
Instead I hold onto dear thoughts
They keep me living
Through your pain
Your selfishness inflicting lies

Not Anymore

Will I let you control
My allies are mine
My whimpers were hushed by
The screaming of your lies

No not anymore
It is a song, little heavy rock.
Ellyn k Thaiden Oct 2013
A feeling this strong
A lust and dream
This persistent Thought
In my head and heavy heart

Must be mutual
You must feel something
Anything?
Oh, okay, only my imagination
And high, irrational hopes again
Ellyn k Thaiden Nov 2013
Lucky
Is what you are
So lucky your life
Seems happy and complete

You have three sets of grandparents
Your own mother and father are still married
You have two younger brothers
You've had so many boy friends
You seem so happy and normal
Your life seems so perfect

Reality is, my life is far from it

One pair if grandparents
Lives in the town over
Grandpa molested me
And grandma is still married to the SOB

Another pair in Illinois
Another right with them
Both love me with all their hearts
Both 2000 miles away

My mother had two husbands before my dad
One abused her and she was told kids
Were nothing but a big dream
And then she found my dad

That's when I came into the picture
They fight and argue
I use to wish they would just divorce already
But yes, things are better

I shouldn't be called a big sister
I am terrible
Always screaming and yelling
But my love for them is infinite
I just wish they knew it

One boy friend abused me
Others broke my heart
And secretly
I am dating a girl

I have so many brain issues
You want me to list them
Alphabetically
Or chronologically

My life isn't perfect but I try
You don't know the whole
You shouldn't judge anyone
On what you've heard from foreign ears

Same goes for me I guess
Ellyn k Thaiden Dec 2013
Are you sad, my dear?
Because it's quit clear
That your mask that you made
Out of tears and ash

Is starting to peel away
And your heart is starting to pay
The hefty price of pain
From casting your heart

Are you tired, my dear?
It's near the end of the year
It's been a long time
Since you've had good rest

You whisper you're just tired
But we know that you're wired
In a different way
Where tired means dead inside

Are you done, my dear?
With shedding your tears
And sliceing and burning yourself
And not being happy with your reflection

Because I'm done too
Salty tears are too true
Maybe it's time to pop the pills
And take a trip right down the hill
Ellyn k Thaiden Oct 2013
Every body has
Their awkward quirks

I love yours
Because to me
They aren't awkward
At all

In fact I feel
At home
Cuddled up with you
In your bed
B
Ellyn k Thaiden Mar 2013
B
Binding and Birthing
Bliss and Blasphemy
Breaking and *******
Breathing in a new

An ignorant life
Ellyn k Thaiden Dec 2013
For the first time
In such a long time
My smile is real
And irreversible

You put it there
But you weren't even here
It's amazing what a few
Words through a text can do

I'm actually getting my
Way for once
Usually they just leave
But no, you come back

Back for a second helping
Of crazy
Ellyn k Thaiden Jul 2013
My body whispers
To my head now
It is time for shut eye
If the head will allow

My head says no politely
It would rather stay up all night
Thinking of every mistake I have made
Every foolish fight

Or how life is so short
And we are only gifted with so little
Our body grows old and our souls tired
The bones ache and become brittle

All unfair events
That are out of our hands
Plays though my head
And my heart does not understand

I stay awake and cry at night
Because my brain puts up a fight
With my body out of spite
Because my brain tells everyone 'it's alright'

Nothing is right
My life feels out of control
I feel like I am having a midlife crises
Though I am only sixteen years old

After my brain battles my body
Over control of the dark
It is worn and weathered
With it's several marks

The brain whispers back
'I am done for a few days
You may sleep for now'
It says in a craze

So I can now sleep
Because my brain is worn down
Though the cycle with soon repeat
Everything is alright for now
Really tired, have not been able to sleep. But I think my mind is finally giving in.
Ellyn k Thaiden Apr 2013
Soft and supple lips
Every curve a brand new thrill
His arms embrace me

Rough hands on soft skin
Cheek to cheek and lash to lash
His chest hard and warm

Our breathing is one
Beats that drive the body, one
Opposites collide
Ellyn k Thaiden Dec 2013
He used to want to fly
Way up in the sky
But now his dreams are ruined
Cause he's six feet below the frost
Ellyn k Thaiden Mar 2014
Desire to be near you
Constantly
Nipping at my brain
And overtime I see that perfect
Face of yours

My kidneys rise
Stomach flips
And my lungs scream for
Air
Because you take it away from me


The moment you walk out
Of that door I want to run up
To you and make my lips
Great yours with
Love

And I want my fingers
Intertwined with yours
Always
Every waking moment
I want to be yours

And I want you to be mine

Laying in the back of your car
Holding you close and breathing you in
I don't know what you use
But never stop, your
Intoxicating

Whether its small or deep your
Words seem to have me listening
Silence is nice, I like to think
But I'd rather have your voice
Surrounding me

Fingers carefully playing each key
Plucking at the piano effortlessly
Emotions pouring into the song
You drive me insane but I
Love it

Never stop
Ellyn k Thaiden Nov 2013
It's my birthday today
And I'm all alone
And there's nothing worthy to be shown

I don't look any different
And today the weather is cold
And my heart feels worn down and sold

Sold out to many I don't see anymore
Rusty and rubbed raw
An abundant of negative things it saw

Nobody cares, today doesn't affect the mass population
My mother cried though
Because she's afraid to let go

She birthed me 17 years ago
48 hours of hard labor
The mid wife didn't do her any favors

They almost killed me, I almost died
To think I might not be here
Might not be alive

It's my birthday today
And I'm all alone
And there's nothing worthy to be shown
Ellyn k Thaiden Mar 2013
You command my soul
To feel like this
With your own
Love is a *****
Ellyn k Thaiden Oct 2013
Just because I am attracted
To all and every gender
Does not mean I am attracted to
Every self identified male or female

***** please, you
Have no ***
No class
And plenty of sass

I like them feisty
But you take it to extremes
Ellyn k Thaiden Apr 2013
Father, your knuckles
Are ****** and bruised
The bread box is gone
Oh well. . . It was never of use
Ellyn k Thaiden Mar 2013
I feel sick
To my core
I am sorry for the pain
I made you endure

But if grey skies
And a happy sun
Come together
To be one

The beautiful sun
Won't shine like it can
The sun has potential
It has a plan

These grey dark skies
Are weighing you down
So push them away
Without a sound

This is why
I let you go
You are a sun
You need to show

Show the world
Your colors true
Make the skies
Oh so blue

I let you go
Because I see
It is the blue skies
That will set you free

I cannot make you happy
I am too grey
You need to find a blue patch
To make your day

This is not a final goodbye
Even the sun
Needs a little rain
To take away the pain

So with these words
I say goodbye
We will see each other though
Please don't cry
Im sorry Hailey. You deserve better. Someone who will devote themselves to you. But that person is not me. Go find your patch of blue skies.
Ellyn k Thaiden May 2019
you'll be my star
I'll be your sky
You can hide underneath me and come out at night
When I turn jet black and you sow off your light
I live to let you shine
I live to let you shine
But you can skyrocket away from me
And never come back if you
Find another galaxy
Far
From here
With more room to fly
Just leave me your stardust to remember you by
If you'll be my boat
I'll be your sea
A depth of pure blue just to probe curiosity
Ebbing
And flowing
And pushed by a breeze
I live to make you free
I live to make you free
But you can set sail to the west if you want to
And pass the horizon
'Till I can't even see you
Far from here
Where the beaches are wide
Just leave me your wake to remember you by
If you'll be my star
I'll be your sky
You can hide underneath me and come out at night
When I turn jet black
And you show off your light
I live to let you shine
I live to let you shine
But you can skyrocket away from me
And never come back if you find another galaxy
Far from here
With more room to fly
Just leave me your stardust to remember you by
Stardust
To remember you by
Gregory and the Hawk. Hits home. I just need to let go, but I hate letting go of something I've invested so much of my time and life energy into. How do you walk away from something you still care immensely about? How do you throw away 5 years of your life? How do you just move on? How do you let go??
I'm so lost.
Ellyn k Thaiden Mar 2013
I enjoy to slice
Cut deep
And watch the red nectar of life
Slip away from my frail vessel called body
C
Ellyn k Thaiden Apr 2013
C
Colors and Cravings
Cover ups and Canters
Con men and Crazy minds
Convenient and Casual

A breaking world
Ellyn k Thaiden May 2020
I've become such a people pleaser. I'll do anything to make people that I love not leave me. Everyone leaves me. Isn't that funny?

And as I please and I please, little bites of me are taken. With ever slice into my flesh I finally become useful, like they said I could be. Isn't this hysterical?

After so many years of keeping quiet. So many times being told that you're looking for attention, because you're "just not that interesting". After no one hearing you, you just stopped taking all together. Are you laughing yet?

There are things I thought I had locked away, I thought could never get through the walls of my heart. These memories bombard their way up my throat and straight to my eyes. Now it's all I see. All I hear. All I feel. Those hands and heavy breathing. The creek of the wooden stairs. How cold my skin went. How I would just lay there and stay silent. It's just ******* hilarious?

It's so hilarious I forgot to laugh.
I'm annngry and sad and also just ******* numb and done with existence.
Ellyn k Thaiden Sep 2013
There is nothing left
For us to say
So how about just a kiss
And then we can let go?

You go left
And I right
Different paths
One dark, another light

Our eyes betray
How much we will miss
Being together, we thought forever
In eternal bliss

But I succumbed
To any thought
Of our futures intertwining and binding
I left those memories to rot

There is nothing left
For us to say
So how about just a kiss
And then we can let go?
Ellyn k Thaiden Nov 2013
They say change is
A good thing

Gavi, this isn't that type
Of change

Please bring my
Gavi back
Ellyn k Thaiden Nov 2013
Four years
Of slicing up my arms
My legs
Leaving scars

Four years of thinking
About the easy way out
Of this messed up thing
We've named "Life"

Four years of rocking back
And forwarth
Just wishing for this
Sour day to end

You say it will
Get better
That it will end up
Okay in the end

I might actually believe you
If it weren't for the fact
That I have heard it
All before

Just from different mouths
Spilling the same lie
Over and over
Never ending

Like if you say it enough
You might not only convince me
But yourself
That it will be okay

But we both know
That no mater how many times
We chant these words
Into nothing but air

That it will not be okay
It will never be okay
And I don't know if I
Can chant any more
Ellyn k Thaiden Nov 2013
You might not believe me
But that is jut fine
Because I saw them
And they're all mine

His eyes are beautiful
His eyes are kind
His eyes are brilliant
And let me peek at his mind

I want to fall into his eyes
The color so bright
I want them to caress me
And hold me through the night

I can't help but smile when
I speak your name
Third book of the bible
It doesn't have much fame

But your eyes shock me
Every time I steal a glance
Oh boy with the beautiful eyes
Please give me another chance
Ellyn k Thaiden Mar 2014
In the midst of chasing
You through my head
Dreaming of having you
When I thought I already had

I awoke to the soft shuffle
Of flats on the wooden floor
The roll of a suitcase
The soft squeak and click of the door

I laid in bed for a moment
Then a moment more
Realization hitting me
It wasn't me you adored

Your affection was held
By someone else's hand
I thought I had a tight grip
But I obviously didn't understand

I couldn't fathom the absence
Of the warmth on the sheets
An outline of your body
A missing pair of feet

Running after you would be foolish
Though it kills me not to stand
Instead I lay a moment more
Chasing you in dream land
Ellyn k Thaiden Apr 2013
I did not know you
Child of God
Maybe if I had you wouldnt
Believe you were flawed

In and out
People weave through our lives
Every move is judged
Every word analyzed

I do not know why
You ended your time on earth
Life is small and fragile
From death to birth

I pray all your pain
Has been taken away
I know they say you go to Hell
I have a different story to say

So young and innocent
God's child indeed
You did no crime
Not selfish nor greed

God loves all his children
Forgets all their sins
Is your action even a sin at all?
Your tolerance for ******* was just thin

Hell is a place
Where go the cynical humans
The ones with no remnorse
No sorrow, their mind in ruins

Heaven is for the soul
Who only wished for the pain to stop
A eternity of bliss
Your life on earth was just a drop
A young girl at the middle school sommited suicude. I pray for her family.
Ellyn k Thaiden Mar 2014
I'm about ready to bludgeon
Someone with my microphone
And string them up
By my black cord

Stab them with a music stand
And slit their throat with the feet of it
Bash their head into the piano
Then stuff them inside of the instrument

See, choir has become a competition
A sport which everyone is
Now on their own teams
Only rooting for themselves

We all sing together
But we clash and our
Voices don't blend anymore
Instead you hear the individual's song

Selfish and cruel
They all gossip about one another
Manipulating and breaking
Each other down to dust

Confidence stripped and raw
Wounds festering and emotions building
Of the words said behind backs
And not to the face

But just because our backs our turned
Does not make us deaf
But even more unsure of
Ourselves and the people surrounding us

Choir is not a family anymore
It's World War Three
Teeth bared and claws out
Missiles ready to take out other parts

There goes the altos
Taken out by the sopranos
The baritones still talk with the tenors
But the tension is still high

Choir is dangerous
But what they don't realize is
I can be the most cunning and cruel
Animal of them all
Ellyn k Thaiden Jan 2014
I feel like my mouth is being pried
Open wide by the jaws of life
And someone is laughing and pouring
Sand down my dry throat

And into my aching empty heart
Where you still sit and stay
And all I wanted was to be okay
I guess that's not okay

I'm coughing and loosing air
Not like you would care
And while I'm dying to find a way to slit
My throat open wide

You still stand there and stare
At the freak show happening because
Everyone is wondering why I'm
Choking on sand but

They were the ones to force it
Down in the first place
And instead of helping me out
They just find my struggle entertaining

So let's stop fighting
The struggle is tiring
And my voice is barely there as I
Let out a barely audible "*******"
Is a song.
Ellyn k Thaiden Mar 2013
The cute Christian girl
Was begging you please
With a wicked smile on her face
She was down on her knees

No she wasn't prayin
But she was in the prayer position
Got a rockin hot ***
She was on a mission

To see if there's a center
To that old tootsie pop
She's a moanin and a groanin
She's getting to the top

That good Christian girl
Gave me all she could
She's the pastor's daughter
But she ain't too good
And she swings her hips
Nice slow and steady
She dips down low
When she's good and ready
That pole she spins on
Is how she gets her pay
She is still waiting
To see the day
When she can get out of here
Ellyn k Thaiden Sep 2012
He doesnt talk
But oh,
What does he think

Does he walk
In cirlces
Around his
head

Circles and circles
Confusion
Plays with the
Mind

Inside is he
Screaming,
Thinking,
Dreaming

And wishing
To be nothing
To not be
Alive

Circles and circles
Spinning all around
Dizziness hurts the heart

Cloudy thoughts
Restless days
No one wants to
Play

I will play
With you
You poor
Boy

Together in
The rain
Dancing and being
Free
Ellyn k Thaiden Mar 2014
Closets are for apparel
Clothes you want to hang up
And wear for another day

Closets have doors
To hide old dusty boxes
Objects to be of use for a later date

Closets can be locked
To keep the outside world
From looking into your personnel life

Closets can be crowded
Too hot or cold
Stuffy, with no room for breathing

Closets are not meant for people
For our feelings to be trapped
And locked away for another date

Don't shy away in the closet
And lock the door
From the inside out

Please
Ellyn k Thaiden Dec 2013
One day there was a boy
Who saw a pretty girl
She had warm Autumn hair
And eyes of blown blue and green glass

The boy knew he had to introduce
Himself to this small girl
So he walked right up to her
And started to sign his words

His hands flew through the air
Nervously trying to say hi
The girl nodded her head and pulled
Out the pen and paper

And at this old coffee shop
They spent hours writing away
Words started to rush together
And sentences turned into paragraphs

By the end of their chat
She wrote a number below
She received unlimited texts
And wanted to see him again

Love is funny that way
It bends and breaks rules
It twists into different shapes
Sounds and smells

Love is ready to do
What it takes to make it work
Even if one person cannot
Work their own vocal chords
Ellyn k Thaiden Oct 2013
I believe in you God
Oh loving and powerful
But the Bible feels wrong
It feels shameful

I wouldn't say I'm atheist
Because I believe in the One
But I wouldn't say I'm Christian
Though I do believe in his son

I'm confused on where I stand
Or if I even do
But through all the confusion
I still believe in the one and only you
Ellyn k Thaiden Dec 2013
You worry too much
About my own set of
Problems and your imagination
Runs wild, blinded by love

"You're killing yourself
Slowly with every slice
Every incision and bruise and burn
Every mark so precise"

I remind you that I have it
Under control, my control
That every mark I make myself
Fills the little holes in my soul

But with every hole I fill
They seem to sink back in
So I make the marks on my body
On the top of the skin

I promise I have control of
The little beast inside
The one that breaks free every night
The one that I desperately try to hide

So do not fret love
For I have the control
I will win every battle
That is purely my role
Ellyn k Thaiden May 2013
I am tired
Of being the crazy daughter
Because last night when you comforted me
Your eyes held pity and sympathy

I want to be normal
Like all the other kids
Instead I see doctors
I'm given heavy bottles with lids

The bottles hold a happy pill
That will make everything okay
The bottles will hold my crazy
The lid will keep it at bay

But I don't want to have to pop
Pills to be what I really want to be
I want to be normal and myself
I wish to be free

Too bad to be myself
Is to be crazy
Ellyn k Thaiden Aug 2013
We tell ourselves
It won't hurt

We promise ourselves
We won't cry

What a crock
Of *******
*******
D
Ellyn k Thaiden May 2013
D
Dolls and Damns
Drunkards and Drifts
Dimples and Darkess
Dank and Dreamy

I am trying to set free
Ellyn k Thaiden Jan 2013
I'm loosing my creativity
I'm loosing my will to write
So I'm not giving damns anymore
I'm being myself tonight
Ellyn k Thaiden Aug 2013
The ache in my heart
The salt water in my eyes
The screams of frustration
The scares I try to hide

I thought I was over you
I thought we could be friends
But the mention of her name
Puts me on edge

You don't talk to me for days
But you go on dates with her
We use to stay up all night together
But now my nights are painful blurs

I just want to be loved
If not by you
Then at least someone who might treat me right
Who might hold me at night

Who will care for me
And not break my heart every other week
Who won't cheat or use me
Make me feel empty and bleak

But my single issue
With finding someone else
Is having to deal with the fact that
They simply aren't you
Ellyn k Thaiden Dec 2012
Your lies
Wrap around
You
And it becomes
Harder to tell
The truth

You tell her
One thing
Tell me
Another
Tell the whole
World your lies

Fine lines
Are drawn
And feelings
Are hurt
I cant
Say why

But you I
Am finished
With
I cant handle you
And you selfish
Lies

No more
Than I can
Handle
A hot iron
Burning into
My thin paper skin

And I am
Sorry for you
Pity I feel
Because you life
Is wasted away
On lies

The truth can come
Easy
If you know how
To say it right
But you
My dear friend

You have soiled
My trust In
You
To gain it back
Would be
Absurd

So my
Dear friend
Please know this
I am leaving you
There are better things
In life than
*This
For you, Ryan Ethrington. For you...
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