I'm done being the
Back up plan for
Boys like you

I'm done with falling
In love only to crash
Trying to catch myself

I am done cutting
And hiding away a whole
Side away from my family

I'm done *******  in
Air with no positive
Side effects to cling onto

No no no
Let's back up here
And clarify what being
Pansexual means

I am not
Greedy
Selfish
*** crazed
Possessed
Or *** obsessed

I have always been told
That it matters what's on
The inside
Not the out

So excuse me
When I love someone
For their mind
Not their body

Body is a bonus
Not the main course
Yes I have physical attractions
To all body types

But at the end of the day
You can't love just the body
It's the interior decorating
Of the soul that counts

When you date a
Poet
Author
A person blessed with talent for words

Expect
Dramatic texts
Meaningful talks
And emotions stirred

Be prepared for
Long nights with us reading
Or writing
And crumpled papers on the floor

Don't try to comfort us with
Fake compliments
And "you tried" speeches
Just hold us and tell us to start from scratch

Because when you're in love
With a
Poet or
Author

They will offer you a
Love unfathomable
And continuous
And inconsistent

Because love is
Not perfect
And we will never
Claim to be

I stand almost alone in
A field of grain
And in this field I see
Me

Four perfect copies of
Me
And each
Me looks a little different

One stands and laughter
S     i        l
   p       l       s
From her mouth
But her eyes are black

In the next me I
See anger dwells
But she doesn't show her
Weakness quite yet

The third has wet cheeks
Sunk in eyes and a weak smile
Though her heart is broken
It still tries to beat

The last is barely there
She is thin and shaking
He body covered from self inflicted wounds
And hateful words and profanities cover her arms

Then you appear and walk behind
Each one of me
And shoot each one in the head
And when you are finished you look up and say

"These are not you anymore
You don't need to hide from your
Friends, your family
And you need to let go your broken heart

And as for your self loathing
We will fix that too
So wake up
And you'll be in my arms"

And with that
I'm trying to let go