I hate you
No, hate is too kind
Despise is a better
Taste on the tongue

The chances of ever
Having a normal life
Were stripped from me
My peace of mind

I can't be with a person
In a romantic way
Like every one else
It is not the same

I just want to love
And be loved
But paranoia sets in
And it usually wins

What you have done
Didn't just hurt me
My brothers and mother
My father doesn't have a father

He hurts the worst of all
His own dad
******* up his family
And now we are all off kilter

I have three sets of grandparents
Six elders that are suppose to care
One went to jail for his crimes on me
The other two live in Illinois

Three sets of aunts and uncles
One didn't believe his confessions
One barely talks to us
The other... where is she again?

Our family is torn apart
Because you couldn't keep it
In your pants
You *******

Bipolar
Schitzo
Paranoia
Mania
Anxiety
PTSD
Depression

******
Liar
Dramatic
Never sits still
Makes a scene
Lives in her past
Needs to get over it

Beautiful
Unique
Quirky
Energetic
Caring
Wise
Helpful

You only know parts of me
Not the total

Mark the day
In your calenders
Tell all of
Your many friends

Of the day Ellyn flew,
The beginning of the end

The end of the bullies
She threw out her fears
Ellyn cut out the negatives in life
The change drastic and severe

Ellyn decided that it's
The beginning of the end

She tore apart her monsters
Faced the voices in her head
She cleared out her closet
And checked under her bed

And by the time Ellyn was done
The end was quite near

The girl decided her past
Did not define her
And tomorrow is a new day
He mistakes would not recur

And now Ellyn is happy
And her new beginning glows
She faced down her demons
But there will still be cons and pros

Life is not a straight path
Obstacles you will face
But if your perspective is positive
Then you will find your place