Ellyn k Thaiden

Ellyn k Thaiden Jun 2013

E

****** and Energetic
Entagled and Entrapped
Eexplosive and Emergencies
Extremes and Erased

From itself in a sea

Ellyn k Thaiden Jun 2013

You give me hope
Youre my last chance
If either of us ***** this up
Im officially becoming lesbian

Girls are easier to date

Huh. It's 12/13/13 right now. While I write this note. And uh, yeah. I did, go me.

Ellyn k Thaiden Jun 2013

Those Little Things (Another Song)

When I walked away
You call me back
For a second kiss goodbye

On the phone I would call you
With water leaking from my eyes
You wound whisper one moment

And one moment later
I could hear rocks on my window pain
As you, called my name

It was those
Little things
Those little things
That left me
Thinking of you
Left me
Thinking of you
Images flash
Like a reel in my head
I try to put them to bed
But they toss and turn, no
Those little things

You weren't overly jealous
No, only overly protective
Why did it change

Kisses on the forehead
Lips that we read
Now it's all
Dead....

It was those
Little things
Those little things
That left me
Thinking of you
Left me
Thinking of you
Images flash
Like a reel in my head
I try to put them to bed
But they toss and turn, no
Those little things

They keep me up all night
Trying to start a fight
A battle in my brain
A battle in my brain

My heart
Can't start
Love again

It was those
Little things
That left me
Thinking of you

Meant to be a song. For you my little duck. And for you my little doll.

Ellyn k Thaiden May 2013

Crazy

I am tired
Of being the crazy daughter
Because last night when you comforted me
Your eyes held pity and sympathy

I want to be normal
Like all the other kids
Instead I see doctors
I'm given heavy bottles with lids

The bottles hold a happy pill
That will make everything okay
The bottles will hold my crazy
The lid will keep it at bay

But I don't want to have to pop
Pills to be what I really want to be
I want to be normal and myself
I wish to be free

Too bad to be myself
Is to be crazy

Ellyn k Thaiden May 2013

Satin Sheets

On satin sheets we stretch
And tangled our bodies lay
Our thoughts confused and disconnected
No words we need to say

Your soft hands search for me
But I still feel jaded and wronged
So I curl away from you
In the bed where I no longer belong

My feet hit the ice cold floor
And I sigh as I stand
My hand reaches for the door
On my own command

You turn in your bed
And whisper come back
Your hand palm up and out
This time not in attack

My body sore
And my mind weak
I turn and walk back
Feeble, unable to speak

Though my feet bring me to you
Next time may differ
Maybe next time I will be stronger
Maybe next time I will be bigger

But until the time comes
Until I can stand on my own
Fear controls me
Til my last moan

Ellyn k Thaiden May 2013

The Other Day

I dont wanna waste my
Breathe on things I'm trying to
forget my past is troubled and
behind me
And take your weary soul to
Bed, these voices in my
Head are reminding me of
My faults

I always thought when I was with
You the sky would open
Up and thered be something
New I sometimes like to dream that if
I close my eyes I'd see
You

But the bed is growing
Cold and my hands search for
Your sweaty skin, and
Instead I hear the door click
Behind you and it begins

So I cry
I cry out for you
I lay in the bed
Thoughts filled with dread

I always thought when I was with
You the sky would open
Up and thered be something
New I sometimes like to dream that if
I close my eyes I'd see
You

Life is not the same, no
Not anymore and I
Play with my hair as my heart quickens
As you shut that door

I thought I saw you
I thought I saw you
I thought I saw you
The other day

It is a song. I know one half is not the same as the other but I wrote one part a month ago and decided to attempt to finish it. It does not have the same feeling as before.

Ellyn k Thaiden May 2013

Gut Feeling

Pit in my stomach
As you try
To get me to hop over the fence
Try to get me to fly

In more ways then one
You tell me to fly
I said no because of a gut feeling
To flying so high

He got caught. But not I.