You scream and yell
Your actions are cruel
What's even worse is
You don't expect a reaction

You in your own little world
If you are not happy
Neither are we
That's how it's always been

This is how it will always be

You are that happy memory
That lingers in my head
Us two at the ocean
Intertwined in the bed

But sadly now I toss and turn
Searching through the sheets
For a love we once had
Sorrow took it and reaped

I talked of you today
I let my thoughts go where
Words flying through the air

I had to stop
Forced by my throat as it tightened
The moment quite and still

It was that moment it slapped me
Two years and talking of you brings pain
My mind is still not sane

My friend looked at me
And could see the anguish in my eyes
As I tried not to cry, tears stinging

If I had a time turner
I would twist it till my fingers numb
Just to see us teens happy and dumb

Dolls and Damns
Drunkards and Drifts
Dimples and Darkess
Dank and Dreamy

I am trying to set free

You tried to catch me
In mid fall
I contimplated stopping you
You insisted to lend a hand

My heart stolen by another
So you slipped into the darkness
You ran many miles, my dear
Just so you could steal it back

But once you found my heart
In a box it was kept
Beating slowly, hypnotically
Dying, starvation grasping it tightly

You rushed back to me, my dear
Heavy breathes fell past your lips
You prayed to God I would still be alive
You found an empy shell of a woman instead

My heart crumbled in your hands
As you stared into my eyes
That day I whispered no you you, my dear
The words cascaded from my mouth

I cant love you, I am broken
I cant be mended, though youre hopin'
My body weak, soul chokin'
Im sorry, my dear, I cant be loved

You took my heart, crumbled may be
Compressed it tightly in your hands, you see
It formed its shape, as it should be
You breathed life back in it
You saved me

*My dear

You are my conscience
Whispering the rules of life
But you poisen my head
No I wont listen

Anymore

You say you know whats best
But clearly you still have tribulations
Tiny daggers peircing my esophagus
Keeping me from telling the truth

Not anymore

Will I let you cover my mouth
Bound and gag my own words
I will let them drip out
The way they were meant to

Anymore

And I might stop breathing
Instead I hold onto dear thoughts
They keep me living
Through your pain
Your selfishness inflicting lies

Not Anymore

Will I let you control
My allies are mine
My whimpers were hushed by
The screaming of your lies

No not anymore