They say
Get over it
He wasn't that important
Then why is there a pit

In my shattered heart
Eating holes
Causing an infection
I'm my own cannible

You don't understand
He was my life
With him gone
I'll never be a wife

Unable to love
With such passion again
Never again
My young friend

When he died
You would lay there
With him
Sitting on top of the dirt

But now kitty
You lay there
Beside him
In the dirt

I only wished
To be talked to
Wanted you to just pretend
That you cared

You have made me loose
Inspiration again
Fueled anger instead
Of love

But hearts will continue
To beat to their song
My heart beats slower
Because you were the drums to my music

What does one do
When their own blood
Treats them like ****
When they arent welcomed in
Their own home anymore

When the razor blades are rusty
And the well of tears run dry
When their heart aches and breaks
For it is love and acceptence they desire

When curling up in a ball
Naked in the bed doesnt suffice
And banging your head on a wall
Does nothing but anger your so called loved ones

Friends say "two more years"
But I will die, perish into nothing
If I must wait two more years
Trapped inside a hell

That they call home

I enjoy to slice
Cut deep
And watch the red nectar of life
Slip away from my frail vessel called body

I am sorry
For my imperfections
For the insane words that drip
They are not my intentions

I want to be normal
For once in my life
To not have voices
Causing my strife

Clingy and annoying
Separation issues and crazy
Bipolar and ****** tendencies
My memory is hazzy

When you don't talk
Don't respond
I tell myself to let go
But I cant

I sit quietly
Secretly wanting to slit
Open my wrists
On my lip I bit

I've bitten harshly
On my lower lip
Red liquid pours
Solid in drip

I only want love
That I know I will never receive
I cry because my barely beating heart
Is cracked more that one would believe