I miss you in winter
when its cold
and I have no one to cuddle

I miss you in storms
when you kiss my forehead
as the thunder crashes

I miss you in my bed
our bodies together
lips locked and hands intertwined

I miss you.

kiss me on the mouth..
hold me tight..
kiss my neck..
grab my waist..
but please dont bite..

i told you today that
that i love you but
i always tell you that
so i elaborated and
told you i love you
i mean i really love you
and you ask do you mean
more than a crush you want
a future? and i thought i had
******* up majorly so i said
like i see a future with you
like you aren't just a crush
and then you said you feel
the same way and that made
me smile and i felt my face
turn so red and it made
my day so amazing and
i couldn't get the smile
off my face all day and
well it's still on my face
and am excited to see
where life will take us
and hopefully it will be together

i'm sorry but i don't
know how much more
longer i can take the tears
i told you i would wait forever
and i meant it but the tears first began
everyday but then started being once a week
and then rarely but now they are back to being
every night and i just don't know anymore it goes
up and down back and forth like a huge freaking cycle
and i am tired of the cycle so for you i'm
going to try no not try i am going to
break the cycle and not cry and i
am going to get through this so
everything can be good so that i don't ruin
this perfect and fragile thing we have cause
to me it's the best thing happening in my life
and one of few things i am looking forward
in life to that and becoming a general surgical
and being with you so i am sorry i have been so
sad recently but i am going to fix it cause you can't
keep saying sorry if you aren't going to fix the problem
cause then you don't really mean it...  do you?
so i am going to stop crying and then i am going to stop
worrying about everything so i can get my license and get a
car and get a job and start doing stuff with my precious life
because i have decided moping about moving and not getting
to see my best friends everyday is not good for anyone and
isn't going to help with anything at all so here we go
"my new beginning" it starts now and i am going
go to get the most out of life because life is precious

i love you and
you love me too but
we can't see each other everyday
and it kind of hurts
and you are leaving soon
and i am sorry to say this but
that's going to **** me but
i will be okay and i will
wait for you to come back
because i honestly believe you are
worth waiting for and also i the thought of
losing you altogether would hurt
way more so we can do this
but i am not going to say goodbye
because saying goodbye means
going away and going away
mean forgetting and you never
forget your first real love or
your first "doctor"...

she used to not understand people
who would put on a mask and
pretend to be happy at school
but now she does understand because
she does it herself now
she always acts so happy at her new
school but if you were to look
at her as soon as she got away from
her friend or when she gets on the bus
she kind of just lets go and doesn't care
she doesn't have to pretend
with her new friend but she feels better
pretending rather than explaining
that she just doesn't really feel happy anymore
and as soon as she gets alone she is
left with her thoughts and
her sadness and if you were
to look at her and i mean really look
you might just might be able to
see the tears she is holding back
but when she is with her
bestfriend who she doesn't know
where she would be in life without her
who is part of her family and she loves
her so much and she loves her back
even after she ***** up sometimes
and when she is with her boyfriend who she loves
and who is part of her "family"
she doesn't have to pretend with them
because she just feels safe with them and
seeing them or talking to them it...
it just automatically puts a smile on
her face that is an one hundred percent
real smile and she doesn't have a mask
on with them because they don't have
one on with her because they trust her
and she trusts them with her life
but once they aren't near her she puts
back on her mask and has to fake her smile