i miss you
more than you know

i love you
more than i can muster into words

i need you
more than i need him

if it came down to it
i hope you know i would

choose you
over him no thought or doubt about it

maybe you know it or
maybe you don't

maybe you believe it and
maybe you don't

but you should cause i mean it
and it is the 100 percent truth

i love you more than
all the stars alive and dead

that are yet to be born
and that will die soon

i love you more
than all of them

thoughts are like
the tears you
have been holding in
all day or all week
or all month
once they start
they are so hard to stop
no matter how hard
you try to make them
stop and go away
and you never wanted
them to start
and they hurt so much
and they **** you
and make you
question your life
and if it's worth it
or if you should give up
on everything
because
those thoughts
and those tears
have been held in
forever
and now they are
tumbling out
of the dam they
were being held behind
and it's killing me slowly

what do you do when you
feel like you can't breathe

when you feel empty and
don't feel hungry but

you are trying to force yourself
to eat cause you promised him

when you feel like going to sleep
forever

but not wanting to sleep forever
when all you want to do

is lay down and
listen to music

cause you feel like crying
and you feel hurt but

you don't know why
you don't know why you feel that way

cause you have him and
you have everything you need

and nothing is wrong but
you feel...

you feel...
broken

is that the right word?
broken?