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With a past of anger I long
to feel the passion rise up
inside me again
to feel enough,
enough to get angry

I sit here apathetically,
not caring, not feeling
and yet feeling so much

I can't put words to my emotions
and never seem to feel when I am
supposed to
I’m lost in these words I don't
know the meaning of
because for so long
I was told it
was wrong to feel

I pushed the emotions down
into the black oblivion of
my soul only
to be told later
that I was lied to

but I couldn’t feel
not even the familiar anger
that had kept me company
for years
and now I’m experiencing
this thing that
I don’t understand
and all I want to do
is know

to know if this is happiness
I'm feeling or something else
entirely
to know if its despair or
love. I never learned,
It was wrong

Oct 2013 Eliza

It Won't Happen That Way

Oct 2013 Eliza

T

It Won't Happen That Way

I want to kiss you
Run after you, grab your head and smash my lips into yours,
Hard enough for it to hurt a little
But that kiss will be just so, that pain won't stand a chance
I want to kiss you
In a way that makes our brains not work,
So overrun with dopamine and nirvana
That there isn't time to think
I want to kiss you
And just feel
The softness of your lips
The edge of your teeth
I want that kiss
To erase the past few weeks
Be driven by passion and need
Instead of commitment and pain
I want to kiss you
So hard that I can't feel my fingertips
And the sounds of our beating hearts will be deafening
I want to kiss you
With all of me
Forgive what was said
Forget how it hurt
I want to kiss you
Just like that
So that maybe you'll remember
That time, when all you wanted to do was
Kiss me
And then, I want to let you go, turn around
And walk away

Oct 2013 Eliza

Fiery Enemy

Oct 2013 Eliza

Selena Irulan

Fiery Enemy

I've heard it said
We're only visitor's here on earth
That our real home is up in Heaven
If You Believe
When things said true or untrue
Then is it the righteous who are barely saved
What chance will the Godless have

Be careful
Watch out for attacks from those
Who our the greatest of enemies with no soul
Their on the prowl
Like hungry roaming lions
Looking for victims to tare apart
Standing firm with their own beliefs and goals

Stand up and trust
In God
He's the true strength to getting us through
Any and all storms
When one of us around the world is attacked
It affects us all in suffering
Go and stand up for courage
Not with Fear
Surrender it in God's Hands

Raise your thought of consciousness
The core of Peace is near
The enemy of Fire
Be ****

Oct 2013 Eliza

Outsider

Oct 2013 Eliza

Annalyse Matthews

Outsider

Surrounding by others
I am still alone
looked upon but never seen
unknown
because I don’t
even know myself
a new peg
and the same shape and
also a different one
fitting but not
belonging
I have to discover new tools
if I want to blaze my
own trail
discovering what it
means to be part
of so much and
belonging to none
I don’t march
to any drum

Oct 2013 Eliza

And their feet move

Oct 2013 Eliza

Sappho

And their feet move

And their feet move
rhythmically, as tender
feet of Cretan girls
danced once around an

altar of love, crushing
a circle in the soft
smooth flowering grass

Oct 2013 Eliza

Seacrets

Oct 2013 Eliza

Christian zeal

Seacrets

Regretful tears on tissues,
As I watched all my issues...grow.
Was it lust when I kissed you or was it hurt when you pulled back...ouch.
When the thoughts sprinkled in, your name was in my head.
This nonsense... I promised
You wouldn't tell I didn't tell. So foolish!
Your zipper down my button fell. These secrets
Oh these secrets....

Soft hair on my sheets,
Closed eyes with smooth feet.
My hands stroke in gladness, my heart singing deceit.
Now the thoughts flooding in,
Your laying on my chest.
My conscience.......what's nonsense?
You wouldn't tell I didn't tell. So foolish!
My problem now, I have to tell. These secrets
Oh these secrets.....
Can you keep a secret?

Oct 2013 Eliza

I cannot love my body.

Oct 2013 Eliza

brooke

I cannot love my body.

is my body a
god-given right
is my spirit more
beautiful? I would
rather be seen for
my contents than
my container.

(c) Brooke Otto

programmed.

Oct 2013 Eliza

Three Words

Oct 2013 Eliza

Andrew Durst

Three Words

I can
Apologize
A thousand times
But still
It won't
Solve
Anything
That has gone
Wrong.

I never meant
For things to
End the way
They did,
And
I never
Really had the
Chance
To make things
Right.

Now
Everything I've
Done
Is just
Everything
I
Did

And those
Three words
Just
Can't be
Said.