devoted to one
desire for
another
so much
I wish I
could
have
done
when
we were
together
and now I am left
with the reminder
that we are
practically
strangers

lusting after you
feels so wrong
like I am
committing
a crime
such a sin
I feel so unpure
I feel like a *****
I'd be a ****
if I gave in
to what
I seem
to want
right?

never the kind
to cheat
but for you
I'd take the risk
risk of getting caught
risk of being found out

the more I deny my lust
the more I need your touch
it feels so wrong
to feel this way
but you take
my heart
to a place
that I have
never been

such a sin
such a sin

sometimes I want discipline
sometimes I want affection
sometimes I crave structure
sometimes I crave pleasure
sometimes I need isolation
sometimes I need protection

sometimes..

I want to be yours
sometimes I don't

terrible at making decisions
making choices
is something I can
but cannot do
I really can't

I sound like a player
but I'm really not
I just love too much

I love multiple people
which causes trouble
and creates chaos
my feelings run havoc
as I'm busy
trying to deny it

your lipstick of lies
is wearing off tonight
you can't touch
what you lost
breathe
and think
before
it's too late
to drown out
your sorrows
with drinks
find someone else
if you need love
don't even approach
my table in the club
unless you're dying
for a punch

Bated breath, waiting,
breathing slowed
subdued, held back
stuck in a moment
emotional turmoil

Let go, breathing
commences as normal
catch her breath
before she falls
out again,
                 again,
                            again


Twisted heart,
                                                bent out
                         of shape, to match her
recurrent yet inconsistent
breathing, thoughts
as easily fleeting

No one can do this, the
way that she can, nor
has any one before her
its an addicts run, and
adrenalin is like glue

Stuck on love, in love,
outta love, outta her mind
drunk on love, lust, the
power of persuasion absconds
leaving her prisoner

Love is the drug, no choice
no cure, rehab, pill or antidote
dizzy, crazy, wrapped under her
spell, soothe me to sleep, a
lovers lullaby.

© Sia Jane