you wonder why i cry at night                                          
          i wonder why you don't

I'm not sure what to say
If what I say is wrong or right
Whether I'm good enough
To be given a second try
At what I once failed at

Times like these make me wish
That you were here by my side
Holding me tight at night
Kissing my cheek
Singing lullabies
To make me fall asleep
And dream cute dreams
About you and I
And our life together
A fairytale romance
Where forever meant happy ever after
I'm stuck in a trance
Will you dance with me?
And be my prince
And hopefully my king

Wishing I could clear my head
Of all these painful thoughts
If only I had a bullet, yes
Bang!
I'm dead.

Not as simple as that though
I can't leave the ones I love, no
My heart would rot from the guilt
And I'd die a sinful death

If only I could escape my mind
Just for a day or two
Maybe then, I'd be sane
Maybe then, I'd feel okay again

I guess I have to continue living
This torture of a life
Which could easily be ended
By a knife to the back
Or a heart attack

I want to fall in love with you today tonight and tomorrow
I want to shy away from your touch only to bring you back home with me
I want to lay down by your side late evening on the livingroom carpet
And tell you all the ways in which you are beautiful, you are beautiful, you are

I want to eat dinner with you and breakfast, too
I want to connect with your mind, your words and your skin
I want you to look at me like it's the first time

I want to love you enough without pushing you away
It seems your absence draws me nearer

I want our love to live in videotape
Our memories reeled in red, blue, green
Red, blue, green

I want to be the great strange dream
That you are much too fond of for letting go