You’re not the first
With lines along your arms
who I spoke of love with

You look at me
with your funeral eyes
Bruising both your soft knees

You play a song
Of wasted lives
Tugging on my heart strings
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Now I’m gone
Surprisingly.
We dig a hole
Of misery.
I’ve said I’m sorry
I really am.
Now we’re lonely
Once again.

I’ve been blinded by the light
I’ve been taken from the cave
I can no longer fight
I can barely behave
I envy all, who still believe
In anything at all, I wish I wasn’t free
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I’ve been sitting in the void, for far too long
And any time I try to be like you all
Before I can love the shadows on the wall
I’m dragged out kicking, swinging from the hole
-
I don’t know what to do anymore
I don’t want to change anything at all
There’s no cause I feel any way about
And even myself I could do without
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I see you on your phone, so self involved
Chasing money, fame and love through a machine
But who am I to judge, those lovely screens
That help me for a bit, suspend my disbelief
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No one likes their job, no one likes their lives
Everyone pretends everything’s alright
No wonder we are sick, we’ve been living a lie
But lying is easier than starting a fight

You’re the matcha latte I drink in the afternoon
A sweet smile with a bitter aftertaste
Too nice to be rude to me directly
I become lost in the misdirection

You’re the matcha latte I drink in the afternoon
I like it warm but you let it go cold
And that’s not what I asked for
Yet you keep me on hold

You’re the matcha latte I drink in the afternoon
It’s a waste of money and time
But it’s something to do
While I’m waiting in line

Realignment.
Did I ever stray from my path?
Is there really a greater plan?
One step forward, to step back
Two step backwards, right on track.
Love, I wish you all there is
As life takes you through the mist.
It’s ok. It really is. It’s ok.