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Lainrz Jan 2014
dilated.
distant and cold.
is this real?
the dark master calls me again.
beckons to me.
hellish promises slip from my lips into his hands
can he feel my fear?
i can hardly taste, but i'm sure it's blood
mine.
my blood.
am i drowning now?
lungs filled with my own pain
he killed me.
or did i **** myself?
why is the sky on fire?
am i sane?
yes.
she is. she's okay.
whites.
pupils are gone. they left with her soul.
slipped away like salt.
red.
whose eyes are these?
not her own. she tore at her eyelids.
the mirror exposed a demon.
she clawed them out.
but the image engraved too deep.
this is who we are.
the monster beneath our flesh.
and we worship God.

e.s.s.
Lainrz Jan 2014
time and time again i've tried to burn you off of my skin
to cut you out of my heart
but you are carved much too deep into my being, into my soul.
may my soul marry yours?
so long after we have disintegrated
and withered into dust
and all the color is gone
and all we are is black nothingness.
when the light has faded
and we have welcomed the dark
our hands are broken
and our hearts are cold
when our flesh has fallen off our bones
and fed the earth
our love won't have died.
it will have lived past our worldly bodies
so we may find eachother
again and again
our time together won't ever be enough.

e.s.s.
Lainrz Jan 2014
everything about you is lovely from your ****** scars to your cigarette lungs.
your eyes that read my soul and break my heart.
your hands that use me.
your lips that control me and speak words which move me like mountains.
your thighs which i would gladly fall asleep in.
your chest and how it heaves when you are inhaling sharply and your arched back.
your tongue saying my name.
your fingers so expertly destroying my last shirt.
my seams are coming undone.
in every glorious way that could be glorious.
your toes which curl when it becomes too much.
your apologetic body which you offer to me.
so willing.
so beautiful.
your are my prologue, my epilogue and my entire story.

e.s.s.
Lainrz Jan 2014
BROKEN GLASS BENEATH ME
YOUR FINGERS CHOKING THE LIFE AWAY FROM MY CHEEKS
WHY ARE MY APOLOGIES NEVER ENOUGH
BRUISES ARE ALL WE ARE
ALL WE EVER WILL BE
TEAR STAINED COLLARS ARE ALL WE HAVE LEFT
ALL WE'LL EVER HAVE
SHE SAID THROUGH DEAD EYES
"YOU'RE WHOLE WITHOUT ME"
AND LEFT ME IN THE DOORWAY
THE MARKS OF HER ANGER PERMANENTLY ETCHED INTO MY BONES
IT'S ALL I HAVE LEFT.

E.S.S.
Lainrz Jan 2014
i lost you in the hallways
groping hands reaching for me
singing psalms of the devil
punishing me
i welcome it
go into the dark
one footstep echoes like a hundred in my ears
louder than my heart
softer than my breathing
corrupt lungs on fire
i run from the demons
my demons
the walls are dripping
blood and tears and all things captivating and corroding
blue and euphoric
is hell my sanctuary?
home is the chest of a devil
a devil in my head
the voices screaming
don't go
i leave and pay no heed
warnings growing fainter
and fainter
the dark angel welcomes me
my dark angel
my eyes glaze over and my blood runs cold
the sky is falling
falling on me
my eyes and mind are so far gone
i forgot to say goodbye
what a wonderful thing
how many ways could i possibly show you
that i'm sorry?

e.s.s.
Lainrz Jan 2014
spread out before me
walking in the darkness
eyes closed and mind open
expecting and alone
never have you looked so  beautiful and lonely
i would rip my heart from my cold chest
and put it in your pocket
whispering
i love you
i love you
i love you
in hushed tones
more sincerer than a kiss
i would free you
you could fly away
and i would fly to you
the fire would burn in you
and the ashes would glow in my palms
illuminate them
i will cover my body in them
i am black with the soot of you
i will burn in it
i'd burn in you a million times
if it would bring me to you
your smile
the top of your head
the tips of your toes

e.s.s.
Lainrz Jan 2014
moon beams reach out to me and caress my cheek
as a mother does her child
only that child is dead
gone and going.
the wind sweeping her away piece by piece.
if i could speak i would cry out
how wrong i was
how important you were to me
but the love wasn't worth the pain
i was drowning in my own mind
grasping desperately at nothing until even
the nothing fades
alone and dark
my ribs were cracking louder than abandoned children's screams
abandonment from myself
cold and lonely
but you were ever so beautiful
it wasn't enough and it never will be
cold hands reach for mine again
and i leave into the sky
if my eyes could speak they would say i'm sorry
for not being strong enough
for taking the easy way out
walls are melting and i am drifting
further and further away from the grass
and the trees and your lovely fingertips
my lips form your name in the same shape as "i love you."
don't forget me
i'll be your angel, and you can be mine
my angel on the ground
darling, it wasn't you who wasn't enough.
e.s.s.
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