It's all fine

I have a snapshot of her smile
In my mind
I'll view it while I dial
The hotline
To tell them I'm thinking about falling
They sigh
Well since you keep on calling
Give it a try
I look at the picture
One more time
In my mind

It's all fine.

They've got the package
I can't get a view
Blocked from every angle
No way to get through

They're tearing it open
I wish i could see
"If you want the prize,
you'd best follow me."

We stroll from the scene
And he thumbs down a ride
"Oh what are we doing?
Lets go back inside

For they have found treasures
And secrets and pleasures
I know it's a mess sure
But such fortune to measure!"

.....

"Trust me."




And the gold put the wealthy in it's pocket.
As the peasant walked homebound with his hands in his.

Oh lets get together again.
Ive sipped the tainted water
and I'm giddy to sin.

Save sight of purness in your daughter
For when i go in
You've never seen such a slaughter

Flowing, windy meadowing moods
In the sweet chillingness dawn
As starlight blueness dressed in nudes.
Ignites our dream life, turning us on.

Til brutish stomping crawling teeth.
Destroy the peace the calm has built.
Grabs the feet, and pulls down beneath.
The beshaken spawns claim the board has tilt.

"You're still young and fresh."
I'm trying my best
to feel so
As i rub cream on my flesh

"Go out and live son.
The world won't wait"
But I am, a few more month,
Circled the date

This ways not ideal
I don't advise
I want to change
"Should I shut or open my eyes?"

Flashes of youth
Times an illusion
"Where's the proof?"
Just builds confusion

Beat the Force
Fell to the Travel
It doesn't add up
And the numbers unravel

Chloroform rag between my teeth,
just to get me to shut up,
"I miss you."
Feels a lot like cotton mouth, huh?
Feels a lot like scared kid,
like bruised back, shoulder blades,
like walking 10 miles for acid,
just so you can see things like
you're not supposed to.
But that's over.
Sweet like honey dew melon,
like honey drizzled so gently on toast, gold, it's all gold:
gold sunsets, gold hair, gold eyes, gold teeth, shining like the gold ring dad "lost" down the drain. Gold, stay gold, nothing gold can stay, gold.
Nothing gold can stay.
That's what I told myself.
And then the sunset came,
and came again,
and came 30 times
before I saw your face again.
Gold sticks to my hands like cellophane.
I watch my hair melt into a gold puddle,
waiting to freeze underneath your feet.
Hey, nothing gold can stay but
can you try?

I breathe deep in the chemicals
Oh I just love the taste
I had the world grabbed by the tail
But it cut itself off at the waste

My skin is cracked by the coldness
My eyes are red from the plants
You were dead gorgeous in that black dress
But i wouldnt give you a single dance

Barred from the club in space
The expelled list bares my name
Isolated from starlight space
With only myself to blame

Stop worrying about somebody,
     who isn't worried about you.
     Easy to say, but hard to do. It's true.
     Beaten, but by who?
Bitter grew on me buddy.
Staying up late to study.
     Changed my colors to black and blue.