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Abeer May 2023
I laid down so hard, unbearable
I crumbled down in the groove of my paranoia
To search inside a dream, a fritter halfway between
When i woke up believing
I am king
I heard a gunshot from within
Abeer Jun 2023
I drew a face of a late night
On the back of a raindrop, waved it goodbye
It'll be back before breakfast, wearing something elixir, in heartbreak
Soothing some hymns about the rivers, she has been through
Standing here, caressesing the mild wind to show them way
Standing here, it has to dread the death, the rust
It has to feed the rain, while coming back before breakfast
And before long it's dark, another day wasted in self inspection
And planning before comes the junction of conduction and the train to my show
A stunning resolution
I drew a face of my heart
On the back of skipping stones heavier than the moon
Abeer Aug 2023
How cruel would we be if we only communicated in symbols
I'll be 89, a perfect prime
But without parentheses i would not make sense
I would wake up to a dream of having factors you can call your own
But sinking in a voyage of my endeavours
I'll be a null set that doesn't need parentheses to make sense
Just a weird scribble that's all to make you understand
Abeer Jun 15
there is a fire hydrant
a few meters away from my car
it screams fire like it saw everything
like a child playing seek with me
and hide in a corner above the clouds
and hid there for a thousand nights
and I scream and scream, but nothing creeps
but the emptiness in the shape
of a frat child's school drawing
locking the suitcases, going to places
but it's like the spring of the coldest
where my eyes hover on your shoes
maybe my autism for I never took that test
But I snap to the pretentious smile I give
as it breaks like crumbling bridges
over dead breeze and dying waters
there is a knife
a few meters away from me
a particular joke I must always make
about knife, and the art of self-worth
a knife so distant once that only the moon
hit her twice a month, her soft and gleaming glow
her unwavering, free ecstasy on a Monday
coming from an angle, so inclined it feels illegal
"but nothing is illegal in love", the knife said
the moon changed its angle, on a Tuesday
and the knife died by cutting himself
there is nothing
a few meters from me
Abeer Jan 19
Standing on a starting line without anyone left to explain this
This cypher written from top to bottom in a tongue I don't speak
Or feel compulsion to study, still written well in meaning
I heard this quote, it stuck me under my sleep
Like honey dripping over a bee's dead body
"I know how to be perfect but there's comfort in my panic"
I felt it slipping under my skin, a touch
To tell me it's okay to be not okay
To just run from coast to coast
Looking for yourself in everything
Abeer Aug 2022
The lunatic is on the floor with all the drugs and cigarettes on the grass
Abeer Apr 2023
Right, left, at ease soldier
Home is far you reside in fear now
You harvest the blood of your brothers
To a lost cause, on a mere madman
At ease soldier, At ease
The lunatics is the air, it's just not you
The paper holds your credentials and a column
For if your head explodes, rearranged till your sane
At ease soldier,
It's a cloud burst, don't panic
I see you on the red spot of Jupiter
Now hide till September
Abeer Nov 2023
something in your magnetic field, a friend
dim and hard, the falling of surrender is due
it's you we are talking about
crashing like a toy, a boy, waiting for foy
enter to a road, scared more than me, implode
at every inconvenience, optimistically friends,
with a pirate who never killed, never felt, so much fear
in twenty thousand years of sailing away from himself
you must find yourself, lost in front of your undoing
for life is a short warm moment, and death is a cold long rest
find a glooming heart in rest, to lecture about being a *****
must overfire, your moral qualms.
I guess we were more than ourselves
and you just missed it
Abeer Aug 2023
feel something is suffocating the idea of escape
like Prometheus waiting for the vulture
or a toxic person hurting you
Day after day, you think
Maybe hurt is all you deserve
because that's all you expect
Abeer Nov 2023
Can
You
Befriend
Your
Ghosts
That
Made
Fear
Less
Worth
Abeer Aug 2023
Look out for frog
It goes like croak croak croak
Once a frog went to the river
To look for food to eat and get a tan
There he stumbled upon a man
James Clerk Maxwell
The frog said "ribbit ribbit
James Clerk Maxwell how do you do?
I'm Stevens the frog and I know you "
The man growled "lovely to see you Stevens the frog
Too bad i didn't bring my knife and fork "
The frog looked scared
Grabbed his sunscreen and quietly left
The Stevens went to a frog pond
To his frog live under the tree wand
Then through the waters a man woke up
He took Stevens the frog and some herbs
He went slurp slurp
Stevens cried "no no no no please please ****, ******* god you ******* piece of ******* **** your favourite species AHHHHHHH"
                         THE END
Abeer Dec 2023
when we are asleep, I dream at nigh width
an empty room so large, yet nothing filled with
the garden and jolly smile behind which
the empty room lurks beside the breeze of breath

the saddening of a clown when he finds his wife died
along with his child in hand who smiled like
fresh-picked daisies, with eyes that cried
towards the pass of his limited time, in the room

the room were perfectly aligned, a job well done for Sarah
The architect, slowly shes burnout off it, in a pit where
she bruises herself, and her bones each time she's not enough
when the room is done, we will find her dead with no blood

this equation is not holding still, the despair for mathematics
or detain of truth, something philosophy introduced with tricks
but when the funding is over or when you naturally give up
you might be a fool to hang yourself, just join the room
you might just be what we are looking for
Abeer May 13
a tale of the broken man
passing undecided
he said it was under plan
but turns out he was blinded
oh the sun is setting down
and the land is growing dark
"do I just sit and frown"
and leave it to lonely mark
a tale of the broken man
like a bottle in the sea
a gambler and his greed
boiling to thoughts of flee
oh the moon is shooting light
and the land is cold and dark
will he sulk all night, tonight?
or will he defend his lonely mark'
his lonely mark
Abeer Apr 23
In from the edge of a maze
I fall to every stone hardened in shine
Feeling surrounded, clouded by craze
A clad of them good, yet I fall into the same place
In that light that hawken the unreal ground
Feels distant from where you are about
You felt like a dream, inside my house
But maybe again I slept in the wrong place
Abeer Nov 2023
I woke up, forced to beg
Earn through either by flesh
Or give them my blessings without
The comfort of touch
Without the shade in rain
Or comfort of family or food
I can't work, forced to beg
I encounter suitcases in the gloom
And people on headphones
Not hearing me scream
I hope they drown from my teary
Broken smile
I can't feel, forced to beg
Abeer Sep 2020
These reckless little thieves that could but behold your command but couldn't question
As there hands are tied with falling goodbyes and sympathy that they swear to taste
No mercy did these strangers receive,
The courage failed and these strangers were killed by the greater pain of lesser fear
They juggled their sense figuring out the tone of their endeavouring love
It turned out to be abuse
Abeer Jan 2022
At the distance of the high autumn requiem
The diary was all he had, unfolded
Words and distinct meaning of the fierce
Wrath of that distinction is that of her

The wrath is the warmth of the morning
It is the sweater from a heart that wishes solitude of good fortune
Fortune so twisted in knaves of his command
It is o'er the blood of blues to imagine him

Leave him, cause a deary heart is too dreamy
Dreamy and flirty, it might ruin this autumn
But a soul is broken if only the rule isn't pretty
The rule was over death but was no more

This feast is neither tasty and nor is it poison
Neither is the epitome of oppression nor power
Neither the women nor the demon
It is the most of him with empty will of existence

So leave me for good as i don't own him
Is the night the sunny day without the eyes
Or is it the vengeance of the god to make me die
Without a last dream.
Abeer Dec 2023
a trousseau, vailed bride
the summer sunshine, friends
butterscotch ice cream, expensive wine,
a friendly dog inches apart, a creepy aunt
a chocolate fountain. Some childish jokes
a heartfelt speech, heart-bound love,
pulled aside by the groom, for hugs and laughs
being very sweet, softly they hold my hand
recharging the social battery, enjoying the back
socializing with fearless child, in way better clothes
at the end, kisses to all who could take
left with nothing but the sweet envy
for a wedding day
Abeer May 11
a paradigm unhinged from borderline
of seeing, believing in faith, paranoid
the shaking madness I heard
was coriolis of the wind, or just birds
heavier each second, stupider each moment
I see the world as it was when it formed
a violently erupting volcano, with the pleasures, drown in
superimpose a feel of summer with the dread of cold
and you feel at home
staying awake till the death of the owl
the bloodshot eyes are feeling less painful
in essence, fell to the madness of my paranoia
paranoid and without sleep, a combo for the screen
Abeer Mar 2023
Remember the time
The place, your face
I crawled up and said
"I'm yours, in your arms"
The self medication made no sense
But the essence of you
Is a drug that heaven bled
Abeer Sep 2023
I was Orpheus and alive
But all I saw when I turned around is
Myself
Am i a narcissist? Or just surrounded by mirrors
Abeer Aug 2023
I'll play some music
Inside of imaginary Louvre
And we will run to cupid's aid
Where he is fighting a heartbroken prince
Abeer Oct 2023
Imagine love that never ends
The fingers, brushed to the end
Of strength stranger than our ragged
Breath

The night we had in November
Extended indefinitely, infinitely
In all directions, Hold that creme of
****** lips

That pull we feel, when we lay
On the world, allowing my fever
And to not wake me lower than
Alone

Imagine love that never dies
Bye
Abeer Aug 2022
Bye
The bliss in for the morning
Really pushed you over my space
Negligence and 'Bye' sounding
"Put the money in" and this he says

The lights don't flicker or twist
Rain water slows and it gets ever so cold
The valiant queue fades in the mist
He kills you ,steals that you once sold

Forgive me, hera
There wasn't any way
Please send your lame little mirrors
I need to show how you looked

Lines for buses or just the heat index
The quick glance at my wrist,it's time
The breeze stopped gushing for the best
The ground wasn't as dry or sublime

Sirens in lane like crime wasn't born yet
"I'll work the nightshift" and for true love
"Agony Aunt was burnt alone", you bet?
I left my dreadful seat for a run

And i ran to my rescue
Far away from worldly affairs and fear
The gun the gun the gun
That the bad men used as i slowly ran away from you
Abeer May 2023
There was one day
I still remember it to the end
You were looking out the window
Comprehending how much effort you put
How little you get while everyone else is stuck on their screens
I heard everything
Then I heard priest spoke some hymns
Down the river from the hills flowing through the prison corridor
Then it all fell like glass and broke
Woven in the clouds still hindering in naive sunlight
It's all right, "be like the love which discovered the sin"
Or amongst the rebel and stone, lemongrass and ginger in free breeze
A polaroid joke about laughter captured, hung before everything
Dreams made us feel, rest is an act
I witnessed snapping out
Abeer May 2023
I'm dancing on a battlefield tomorrow
Does it help to scream ere comes dawn
Would you usurp clothes and boots torn between electric fences and memories?
Or would you stop dancing and meet death while she is busy?
Abeer May 2023
Maybe I'll be better off a werewolf
Drop my sword on the run to the morning
Touch everything in between
In momentary lapse of a blink in freedom
I'll be better off a savage
Abeer May 2023
You don't deserve what you abide
It's so dangerous to play with your words, remember when
The moon grew older than our others
In the corner Kepler scratching his head
To see the moon sulking, singing
"I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour"
Abeer Aug 2022
Hide in from that yellow mark
The grove of their Helms burnt for an Anthem of your name
The stars bleed and mark these voices of some distant kin
Hide from that charm in an audience of dense clouds
Crave some crude love or hate to run away
Crawl to rescue
Abeer Oct 2023
"I'll take care, I promise
and call you when I get home"

Stuck on reverb,
A special octave
Almost the time
When I waited
For hours,
For response.
The depth of my
Feelings are crushed
Down more than it's worth
Stuck on reverb,
A special person
Abeer Nov 2023
hands off my podium, my real space
find yourself a space, spaced like a prison,
corridor,
hushed to a lullaby, about free,
birds or people having *** in
pure misery
the purest heaven set in bars, like a teenager
throwing tantrums at
nothing, and everything
screaming for attention like a little *****
drained of space, hands off my podium
or debate me
Abeer Aug 2022
Romance is only shred human in our love
Abeer Oct 2023
All this time,
it was written in the dirt
The sordid earth
would quake like drums
Your gaze felt
like an untouched rock
Still they sob
from the beautiful rain
All of this pain,
Is lost to the chasing trill
Of running still
Be still my indelible friend,
You are unbreakable
Abeer Sep 2023
I want to study chaos when I grow up
Maybe then I'll be better
(Upholding my heart bleeding amber)
Abeer Sep 2020
The people chatter about my soul but couldn't see me dead
I had currency without having a single blood drop by my armor
The thickness of my blood was Humorous for very soil where my grave lied
My heart was stuck  by this symphony named  Dulori
But no love I could recall her senses or tongue could  let loose
A woman who made me bled because she thinks I slayed her
Abeer Mar 2023
Sky's touched with tyranny
When you are soaring through the outer
Atmosphere
Remember me
Remember the sky lucidly
Abeer Aug 2022
Some trouble with your sleep? Is it really it?
The whole of this world spun into an acolyte in your dreams
Tell me
What holds you in the grasp of power? The crux of a faded star?
What binds you in pride and certainty? The love for the lonely dark?
The evil got sick of us let alone care
You have nothing to fear
Abeer Sep 2020
A fine old village with a family but no answer to a phase
The abuse is the only refinement her endeavors could ever dream
A radical thing about her heart  was doomed with a shadow without a glance
I loved the sense of her feel that I never touched completely
A love that wasn't full of clouds or breeze that I adore
But struggle of the pain crawled to very eye of me
Telling me to never stop loving her
Here I rest, a poet romanticizing a single word she quoted
"No...."(with no desire, dulori)
Abeer Feb 2022
The worldly care of the piece of lead,
Today was stary and icy, as i glanced over death.
Choke to ricochet the secrets of living with a head,
'The scream of a wrecked soul' while you bled.

And vigilance of that mask isn't to be heard,
It is the most of evergreen if leafs were hurt.
And Robinson Cursoe isn't that far from my words,
As i am from painting that vigilance in red.

And scenes of fire and the torched sky,
You didn't like my heart to poetically ask "why?".
Exploitation of that very distinction is mine,
A demon isn't a true portrait or art but I'll try.

Be the nobody to digest these claims of glee,
High is the heaven if my god don't fancy me.
Now i rest with the stary mess of a dream,
Am i beautiful knowing that the leafs never bleed?...
Abeer Jun 2023
The red colour of valentine
The saint was caught up with a fine
For driving too fast to save me
From my inevitable death
And we'll have a blue room
Cover it, in a fish bowl
"Would you like to eat something?"
I must turn on the radio before
The bowl fills up with Lead as the saint wished it to be
"And there goes Nirvana who just finished touring from their last concert in Zurich in the cold winter of '89 and turning on a wild display of...."
Abeer Apr 2023
Sometimes I feel free
Sometimes the feeling sneaks around the backdoor to flee
There's nothing like this feeling of being lost faster than time
The feeling comes so little yet it is louder than the bombs over my city today
Abeer Dec 2023
Can you see it?
Can you witness the swing?
Of such hollow cradle
we share, build a world on, call it stable
I saw emotional disarrangement
And felt so pretty
It was holding onto my leg,
Like a kid who is worse than me
The cigarette between my
Teeth are longing to perish
I don't smoke
Because my reflection is calling it quits
At the end, a tree with white sap
And broader leaves
A crying violin,
Sounding in the fantasy of my little bleed
A little misfit, a rebel
Amongst drunken kings and queens
Abeer Aug 2023
where is the fear I lost years ago
I feel rust and the crumbling feeling of a ledge
so stable I might make it my home.
stand aloft, naked, in shallow waters
"there's an art to life's distraction'
that gets hindered at the end of the beginning by some evil
to cast your craft in the ruins of your paradise
on the ledge
in the dark
Abeer Jun 2023
Could you fathom the grounds beneath shrieking city?
Or the regret behind the spoken promises over nights of insomnia
I'll trade my conjuring comfort for some clarity
I must agree, it's unique
Being the powerless protagonist in your own story
YOU WOULD FIND US IN A POLAROID PICTURE
Abeer Nov 2023
Caught a glimpse out the corner of my eye
The waking up of that poison in me
He seeps into my skin, a monster
To ask me about my day
And did I escape?
The shape of
This poem
Abeer Oct 2023
holding death for misery knells?
shiny werewolf, love, niche, far from day
count mistakes, feelings, run, believe in something
come, pensive poetry, locks, notes, might
say yes, cathy's clown, crimson and clover
kind, no vacancy, dined on the moon
Get relief, Hoax, Could you look after my Mother?, seriously can you Shut The **** Up
Completely free, When will I go to college?
I get existential crisis after every bad test
Abeer Oct 2023
the darkness shy to discrete
silvers even the finest golden screen
and the men are casted in that burning breeze
for the pigs need a golden leash

all abort the american plane
the sky is burning but our site is faint
and their laughter echoed down the drain
they gave us a shovel to mine the golden plain

we will return to the salt and the sea
******* and your money
we will arson your hollow kingdom, just see
******* and your money
rage, rage against the dying of the light
Abeer Jun 12
idealism is dead on the kneel, gleaming mile-high glow
but leaking some blood, desperation, realistically
the ideal road is twisted and melted into the bars
to walk past till sundown and turn left to the county
turn right to the world of the corrupt, leaching, and thieving
maybe you'll get a life son, like that man right there
that man in a white hat wanted to buy the world, whole
he blows on his tambourine like he blows on this world
a dark shroud of a man covered in green, a mountain of it
the next day, a long night in Arkham Asylum, a lil' Johnny Cash
an old man was traveling that bleak road, smoking and smiling
when he turned right, he saw the man in his dim eyes and asked
"my blued son, where are my valleys and the mountains?"
"Where are my swans and rivers, birds and children playing?
"Where are the mothers, drunks, and the lovers?"
"Where are the commies, the reformers, the queers?"
"Where are my space rockets, satellites, and science stuff?"
"Where are the trees, those green insects, or flowers, it's near spring?"
the man said,
"Old man you're insane, that was all in your head.
dipped and planted like a seed, the moon was a joke, and the sun too.
You need to be electrocuted and controlled till you're better, this is the real world"
he turned to some corner to say
"come, writers and critics, invite and incite some distinct pain
don't block your mind with senseless meaning, be blinded today
come, ladies and gentlemen, curse some distinct verse of words
struck together by your vision of hell, spun to heaven"

Future Is A Bleak Piece of Music
Abeer Jul 2023
Crying very quietly, a strange thing
Feels like a dream when Utumno
Was shrieking into oblivion and we thought
"This dream isn't feeling sweet"
I opened a portal
Into darkness
And lost you
Abeer Sep 2020
The interior of her heart is tuned with glory
Her spirit lived in the void, screaming in the Halfway mystery
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