Life in this age is getting up every morning
And trying to feel like everything is okay.
Good school, perfect grades, living the dream
At least that’s what they would all say.
But living in 2019 means growing up every day
And seeing your mom totally vanishing away
Drug use, crime, violence all the time
Knowing there is nothing you could have done to change that time
Living in a home where true evil resides,
Threatening and abusing your mom every single night.
She’s finally away, at least in some degree
But you can’t help but worry every day that some morning you will get the call
“Your mother has been murdered” for you have feared that all along.
Push that thought away – get it out of your mind
Ruminating on these thoughts will not be kind.
Utter despair is looking at your 10 year old brother
And knowing the true state of his condition
Knowing it is not simply a minor predisposition.
Knowing full well that he is confined to a death sentence, but living.
Fearing that everything you’ve been trained to learn is true
There really is no true help or salvation for the likes of you.
Predestined for more violence, crime, and apathy
What a truly waste of life with such finality.
You know from your past this life isn’t for you
So you try to set out and make a better life too.
But the past has a funny way of creeping in your life
No matter how hard or tall a divider you set to fight.
Heartbreak is seeing a movie and coming out to 10 missed calls
Your mom failed a drug test – she is now inside 4 plain walls
Designed to confine “others” who are fundamentally different than we;
How could we let such chaos engulf the rest of society?
2019 is full of hypocrisies.
Corruption exploding in all of our democracies.
Living in an earth fundamentally dying
From pollution and waste we accumulated from trying
To “make the world better.” But, what have we got?
Inflation, rising debt, poverty for so many in rot
Rise of mass incarcerations and unequal fairness for all
An economy and systems corroded from the core
Driven by greed and destruction, bias and more
That so many will slide off by saying “oh you’re just crazy”
“The world we live in really is not that hazy.”
2019 is no longer having relationships with your family
Because they honestly couldn’t care less about you.
Ask them to name anything of value about your life or self
And they will flounder over the question, like they had just been dealt
To answer questions regarding the status of time
Or the invention and creation of our solar designs.
So, forget it you say
You don’t really need them anyway.
Why have any feelings when nothing cares for you?
Not the world, not your leaders, the economy, or your family too.
Because any one that truly loved you would not break your heart in two.
But you can’t be totally apathetic, even if you want
So 2019 is all about caring a bunch
About those around you
Who’s actions you have no choice
But affect you – regardless of your lack of voice.
So you try to shrug it off and live through day by day
And hope that tomorrow, and forever, will be better anyway.