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F  U  C  K
F   U   C   K
My depression is back.
But I refuse to show it.
Because I am strong.
Or that's just what I tell myself...

But if you're reading this.
And you know me personally.
I'm sorry.
I'll miss you.

Intellectually stimulating.
That's how you make me feel.

I've got countless thoughts.
I want so badly to express them.
But I can't.
Because I don't know how.

Valentines day is drawing near
A time of love, joy and cheer.
But those words are not familiar to me
For I am never truly happy.

And the concept of love is hard to take
Fear of making another mistake.
How this heart continues to ache.
I can't seem to understand.

So on this coming Valentines day
No romantic music will I play
Instead at home is where I'll stay
With my loving family.