It felt like D-Day
My world came crashing down
In explosions and
Broken devotions

I broke my own heart
When I broke yours
I felt the pop
The sting
The crack
And finally the suffering

You probably hate me
Because I seem happy
But constantly I'm crying
If only within me

All you ever gave me
Was love and care
But you couldn't soothe
The burning
The nightmares
Though you came close

Why did I give up?
I didn't.
Not really.
But you'll never see.

Because when
The Sun set last night
It set on us
And while the colors were bright
They were dull
They were old

It's nothing new
My ridiculous apologies
My own self loathing
It's actually quite old

I suppose that's why
I got kicked out last night
Well..I'm in tears now
But that I won't show
Because pain is weakness
Reminding me I'm alone

So good night
Farewell
Sweet dreams
And goodbye to all the notes
And emotions we'll never share

It's time for some changes.
My life has been a roller coaster.
With twists and turns.
Ups and downs.
Throwing me all over the place.
The whiplash giving me a headache.

But that's what life is...
A big headache
And everyone has that one crucial thing
That acts as their aspirin.
Whether it be...
Adrenaline
Drugs
Caffeine
Creatine
Books
People­
Isolation

But for me...
I have yet to discover my aspirin.
I've tried drugs.
I've tried isolation.
I've tried people.
They don't work for me.

So now it's time for change.
I need to find something to cure me
Of this insufferable migraine we call life.
Of course...I can't do any of that now.
I'm still a teenager.
With responsibilities
And obligations

I want to grow up.
So I can throw my life away.
And do what makes ME happy.
Now THAT'S what I call change.

I fell in love with you.
But then you took that away.
And gave that "in love" to her.
And left me with blank lines.
And empty dreams.