We were just talking,
I raised my voice slightly.
I heard screams,
I made you quiet out of concern.
We both hear it now,
All hell broke loose.
The fighting, the dogs, the police.
We were never meant to be,
Because all along it was the girl who helped save me too..

If I could turn back the clock,
I would’ve never met you.
If I could’ve opened both of your eyes,
I would’ve let you see only her.
Truth be told,
I had always knew,
It held me back.
I couldn’t love someone who still had there’s,
There soulmate.
Little did you both know,
I wished we ended things sooner.
Way sooner,
I wished she had left her relationship too.
At the end of the day I knew,
Yet we were all scared.

I finally did it,
I found the one who doesn’t see just pain.
One who doesn’t see broken,
To build me up and guide me.
To take me to my love,
Smoking with a gravestone to ease my hurt.
Not once have you broke me,
While I was broken.
Comfort and cuddles,
Your scent to easy my pain.
Waking me from nightmares,
Terrible nightmares that’ll haunt my days.
Yet you my ball of sunshine,
You see it go by like a cloud.
Loving me endlessly,
Countless of times you’ve saved me.
I’m proud to have this ring on my finger,
Saying yes was my greatest moment.
Being your fiancé,
Your wife.
Till the end my husband

Our love isn’t perfect,
But it’s ours.
Our love is perfect,
In our own way.
You give me the world and I in turn,
Give you adventure and wonder.
Knowledge and wisdom is traded,
Laughs and conversation are gifted.
We continue to learn each day,
And yet we still no nothing of each other.
It’s glorious and magical,
I couldn’t think of a better way than this.
To be held by you each night,
To be taken a million to infinity of kisses,
To be loved by you.
Everyday,
Every hour,
It’s always you.

I lay awake next to you,
Watching you inhale and exhale your breath.
A simplistic rhythm one has in sleep,
Your face is so relaxed,
So innocent,
So kind.
And as I lay awake next to you,
I count down the seconds my eyes open up to you.

I am the problem,
It’s unfathomable.
The truth makes it’s way,
Just for it all to go down the drain.
It is for the lack of affection I give,
To mislead through the grief.
For I am the problem,
And you all,
Were perfect.

I’m grateful,
I’m secure,
I’m safe.
I’m finally seen,
I’m finally heard,
I’m finally loved.
Creating this new life with him,
Making myself into what I was wanting,
Becoming MYSELF once more.
I don’t have to hide,
I don’t have to lie,
I can be me.