pure emptiness filling
          every heartbeat in a
               never ending
                    dream
               as the dark of
          night slowly turns ... bringing us back
                                                      togeth­er

I wasted my day again hanging around the market place
leaning on the wall pretending to feel bored
hoping someone would take me for a fool
and offer me a job.

Midday, this brown haired man in his Japanese van
asks if I’d lift a sofa for 20 pounds
(poor fool doesn’t know that money is meaningless to me)
Fell asleep for a moment on the short drive up the hill
and ran away when he stopped for gas.

It doesn't much matter where I travel in town
There's a spectre that hangs in the air
A shadow attached to the places I go
Because together we once travelled there

A new life, some changes
Ditch the shadow and move on with things
But there in the corner, hiding back in the dark
Is the darkness, and to me it still sings

Simple things bring the spectre
Like a drink at a bar
It just hovers where just I can see
I need to remove it,
this thing black as tar
And only then will I truly be free

The spectre is missing when I travel abroad
That is good, but it's here that I live
I gave of my self for many long years
How much more am I destined to give?

When I'm with my Megan the spectre is gone
I rarely can see it about
But, when I'm alone or am just with a friend
It pops up and it shows me it's out

You can't see the spectre
It's just shows up for me
It stays way in the back, thank the lord
But, it still comes out sometimes
When it should not be about
I guess then it is out 'cause it's bored

The spectre has travelled with me for some years
Most times he is dusted and done
But if you know of this demon and you see him too
My one it smells just like ***

I wrap you around with my wings,
Do you feel the warmth?
I enclose you so that your
Head lies on my ******* of feathers.
I am your angel sent by the universe,
Because you asked, I came,
You asked to be loved,
I love you,
You asked to be comforted,
I comfort you,
You asked to be forgiven,
God forgives you, Forgive yourself,
You asked where was my angel then,
She was a little late in the making,
I am here now,
Rest, son, rest, as they say on earth,
It will be okay!

© shaqila 21, 11, 2012

The universe beckons,
I hesitate,
Arms wave, come hither,
I hesitate,
Behind, I am pushed,
In front, I am pulled,
I...hesitate
I am not as I used to be
I used to run but now I can't even crawl,
And thus,
I hesitate...