So I sit and hope for it to be over,
Praying that I'll remain sober;
As I overlook the sunrise
Watching it's slow demise
Atop a scenic mountainside.
I'd ask myself over and over, 'why-
You found love with someone else
Yet I found myself begging for help
Only to bear that I've fallen silent
of always being in complete reliant
On your shoulders when I needed to cry
And your warm words when I wanted to die'.

I cast my eyes on the sunset
Watching all that it begets,
Only to realise no matter how
That simple yet quotable vow
We promised to each other
Of being eternally written lovers,
Yet we disparagingly fall apart
Unable to mend pieces of hearts
Crushed by the torrential waters
Into minimal multiple quarters.

I wanted you so bad to turn back,
Yet you left without ever looking back
And I had hoped I didn't see you walk away;
For that moment is seared into my memory even today.

And after all this time
My shoulders feel heavy
My chests still feels cold
The warmth of your body
has been missing since...

And after all this time
I can't help but wonder
if you had a wish upon
a burnt out falling star
would you wish to
never have met me
or would you wish
that even though
our worlds were full
that we weren't
feeling so empty.

We're like two glasses of water
Each a droplet spilt upon one another
Unaware of whether we're
our world os half empty
or the world is just half full.

I turned around
And walked away in silence
Though the soul inside me broke apart
Though I had an option of staying
But I kept walking
Because I was the reason for him to not smile
And as the nightingale sang above my head
I realised what I have transformed myself to be

Even I didn't know why she acted the way she did
throwing out all the things we have loved and lived,
gone are the photos of happy smiles slowly faded,
gone are the pillows that formed a fortress of haven.

She threw everything out but she and I,
had kept one thing each, between the sky,
Between the ground that we walked on,
the life of one thing will always carry on
And that is the memories we shared.
The kiss that said 'somehow I cared',
the pieces of our heart like jigsaw puzzles
each missing the correct pieces and
our two pieces will forever remain separate.

People tell me don't spread hate
So I'll try not to make that mistake
You are one foul shadow casting creature
And that merely covers your features.
You're a disgusting old man with fake thoughts
Only spreading the nice words not to get caught
Well catch this '*******, **** *******'

Your fake masks covers your lies
And for those with hands on their eyes
I hope you see that old man for what he is
Than for what he actually isn't.

The breeze blows the snow away
And I hope you're melting today
You cold hearted snowman ******* ****.

I'm pulling on myself, it's dangerous,
How long left till we become strangers
I sit in my room with an inkling of hope
That it'll be as simple as 'hit the road-
Because there isn't us anymore'
But simple is overrated because
I have my backs against the door
Yet still grabbing at what we had before
But I should have known before the fall
So I'm begging myself to walk through
'Find someone else you can talk to'
I urge myself, hiding from any sign of help
Maybe this time it'll be a little lot easier
'Just stop everything, stop pleasing her-
Because no matter how much you beg
There's no love between the two of you left'.

So I guess it comes down to a natural reaction
I'll fall flat on my back repeating "it's over"
Convincing myself for some kind of closure.

I'll give another chance to be purely honest
I'm sorry I couldn't stay true to my promise.


To the girl I once loved.
-Goodbye.

From a guy with demons in his head
Trying all his best to just forget.
From a guy struggling to move on
I'll treasure the grounds you walked along.

I wish that I could say
All the things on my mind
Like how you did once
Call yourself mine.
I wish that I could see
All the things I couldn't hear
Like the words I love you
But I'm running out of time.

I would hold
All the tears that I had left
Back behind broken breaths and a sigh
Because all that I
Wanted was to see you smile.