Caught in the middle of a nuclear warfare,
And we make love beneath the mushroom cloud,
Sparks fly amidst the dust and rubble
From the remnants of our incinerated world.
Hollow hearts like Chernobyl,
Desolate and dilapidated,
Chemicals still lingering deep beneath the soil,
Forbidden to connect and to flourish
With one another.
Veins lined with toxic waste
That spill from our mouths
When we kiss,
Our skin is radioactive
When we touch,
The boiling point
Before we have a total meltdown,
Slowly eroding
Into ash and ruins.

I'm not quite sure how addiction grabbed me
I picked it up slow but it grew so vastly
Started with *****
which turned to puffs, powder and pills
both downs and ups
  I'd have one in my hand
two more in my pocket
effects don't matter
just want to skyrocket
Please, take me away
to the places of unknown
help me escape
sober feelings, I've outgrown
No happy soul
been broken to pieces
the puzzle repairs
each time the **** hits
Hiding away
from both friends and family
deny every time
so please stop asking
A boy, once joyous
now fell from grace
peace of mind only comes
from numbing his face
No pride, sheer shame
pure feelings of failure
thoughts run wild'
Will it all end here?'
Partners in crime
now long deceased a harsh realization
of succumbing to the beast
Praying for help and
pleading for power
rise and prevail
stop trying to cower
There's a want and a need
plus strong will to succeed
to turn life around
since devoured by disease
Now I stand here humbled
with apologetic eyes
for my selfish acts
under a life self prescribed.

Don't promise me you'll stay forever beside me
Don't promise me that we'll bind the lose ends with gold
Don't promise me happiness

Tell me the truth
Tell me how you hate waiting for me when I'm late for our dates
Tell me how you wish we'd never separate
Tell me how you wish I'd never gaze upon another guys figure but yours
Tell me how you envy seeing  me with guys unknown and known to you
Tell me that you'd hate to lose me one day
Tell me how my beauty has nothing to do with me and you being together
Explain how it was never love at first sight because the moment you saw me, it was just like meeting any other random being
Tell me how I had you smiling as I tried too hard to cheer you up and every joke of mine was lame
Tell me how every girl hates me because of our love
Share with me how you hate the chocolate I always thought you loved
But you were silenced only because you loved seeing the smile on my face as I handed it to you convinced that it is your favorite

Now let me remind you :

LOVE is nothing but true emotion, I feel for you
This is why I tell you that I love you
But I do not expect it to be thrown back to me with letters foreign to its spelling like Luv or symbols <3
I do not appreciate the disrespect for the word as that carries your attitude towards me too
Is it hard for you to say it out right?
Its LOVE
Now tell me what forces you to engrave such words of value to me, falsely?
Once again if you do not feel the emotion of love for me
Tell me, don't pretend you "love" me  
Tell me that you only "like" me
Love and like differ but that's another tale  
Be honest
Tell me the truth

Don't hand me promise in gold
Don't try too hard, be yourself
Your speech should not be provoked by my emotion, tell me your feeling honestly
Be realistic

I don't like these comparisons used to describe our love
Its too cliché
Feels like we trying to please media,
Seems like we aim to become one of their materialistic couples

Be yourself !
Tell me how you hate spending most of your time committing your lips unto mine
Tell me how you wish to just hold me in your arms
Not forever though because my heart won't beat faster to the misleading words of your charm
You'll just make me wonder whether words carefully chosen like those aren't said to many who have come before me

Let me share a secret with you:
I hate the feeling of being in love
No let me rephrase that
I hate the symptoms that carry on for like a month or two:
The feeling of loving you more than you do
The feeling of missing you more than you do
Thinking about you more than you do about me
Ending up with your name tattooed right onto my left ring finger
I hate it,
I hate it all
Its all crazy, weird
Really makes me feel like a fool
Like an amateur stepping into unknown territory
Or like a child lost in the presence of beautiful nature.
But I've grown up, I've seen nature spike venom into my veins, I've heard it all
I've seen it all
All I crave for is:
Honesty,
Real life love
Real love