I told you I was yours to keep
No you're not dreaming, I slid to sleep
You keep on running, losing heat
Please stop running, rest your feet

Night terrors of haunting PTSD memories, they trigger me to how I used to be, wake up distraught in tears, a heart full of anxiety, I can't remember but I'm upset, unable to control out of control emotion, crying unable to go back, overwhelmed and left on my own, cant they see I'm the one under attack, a monster in myself please don't tie it to me, a  genetic  disease, my life has little to no ease, needing a release of intense pent up emotion, it was a mistake, I can't believe I've done this. I can't believe I've done this. I can't believe I've done this.

Depression is everywhere in everyone
Depression is stuck to mankind, an illness
Depression is using drinking as a way to pass time
Depression is telling you no ones going to stay
Depression is the lead to addiction
Depression is an addiction in itself
Depression is deadly
  

*get help before it's too late

my home is not 4 walls and a bed, it's your eyes and everything in your head..

It's been six hours and my tears yet again have turned into blood